it's gonna be another transition period in terms of ministry. i won't say i'm completely apathetic to this considering that its certainly not the first few transitions. change is definitely a people business.

i don't hate nor dislike 'change', in fact to a certain degree i like it. i remember once getting so sick about the drudgery of life that i told myself i'm gonna save up my pennies and give life a refresh. no doubt it is discomforting and all, but change reveals yet another side of ourselves which we never knew.

which i think is where God fits in all this. in the face of uncertainty and uncharted waters, He's the only constant. the constant that was there when we felt so alone as we first left our parents and stepped into pre-school. the counsellor that knows our motives as we made decisions which we may come to regret. the friend who was the listening ear amidst our disappointments at a ruthless world. and perhaps the only one who knows us better than ourselves; someone our hearts can rely on.

and when we anchor ourselves to such a constant. there isn't a need to worry or get cold feet. because when i know who has got my back, i just need to look ahead.

Here before Your altar
I am letting go of all I've held
Of every motive, every burden
Everything that's of myself

I just want to wait on You, my God
I just want to dwell on who You are

Beautiful, beautiful oh I am lost for more to say
Beautiful, beautiful oh Lord, You're beautiful to me

Here in Your presence
I am not afraid of brokenness
To wash Your feet, with humbled tears
Oh, I would be poured out till nothing's left

so i've been rather busy doing nothing lately, living the life i once used to dream off. on the side note, i had been involved in teaching this 12 year old boy to play the electric guitar. it's part of the make-a-wish foundation, and it's his wish to be a rockstar! his big day was two nights ago, and you probably would have seen a segment on him in the sunday times. i would say it was quite an enjoyable journey, teaching him from scratch. and he's certainly a fast learner, given then he's only 12 years old and has limited time to practice due to the nature of his treatment for cancer.

though there were obviously more hiccups then were reported in the news, i would say it was quite a successful event.











i would say what was really inspiring was how supportive his parents were. i don't suppose every parent would agree to seeing their kid aspire to be a rock-star, but his parents are not only supportive of it, they put in the extra effort and are deliberate in helping him towards his big night. like how his mom would always ask me how's his progress and whether he's ready, and his dad going all out to even dress up in a purple bandanna in support for his performance. i'm certain its a night none-of-us involved are gonna forget so easily.

on and he was awesome enough to write us all a card.


anyway, been thinking about some things recently and something that Joel Houston said that really struck me.

"He doesn't want our ways of doing things, He doesn't want our methods. God's not into appearances, He's into the heart. and we do what we do, and we give everything we have to God; the best of our creativity, the best of what we can do with our hands. we do it because we love God and we want to give Him the best that we can. and so there is nothing wrong with lights and great music and everything else, as long as the heart is pure and the heart is to simply glorify God, and to sacrifice by giving the best to Him. and i pray that that would be the revelation and that, in giving our best to Him. He's not just after the confession of our lips; but is after our actions. when it comes to reaching others, being prepared to be inconvenienced enough to lay down our agendas and take up God's agenda."