oh well. i must say this kinda marks a closed chapter in my life. after perhaps almost 3 yrs, it all comes to a close.

from the times of nicholas and his 4 As back when i was still a sec 4 kid, to the times of jontay's golden generation and how our group managed to hit a high of 24 jc guys. and when i fasted a whole month for my first sheep, and kaiwen came in. to the times of the sending off of the j2s, followed by martin leaving us for tertiary group..

then came matthias leadership of the jc group, where the group split into two temporary and then fused back together. and how we saw and reaped the fruits of the golden generation. till the leaving of yjc from us, and then followed by the leaving of the next graduating batch of J2s..

then jontay managed to get out of camp more often and lead the group again, and kaiwen and i had to step up to lead the jc guys. and we saw people like zhixian, timothy coming in. then the sudden influx of ajc guys..

ah and im sure there were so many other events which i forgot.

i must truely say that i really treasured the time with them all. and the past 3 yrs had really changed me completely into a new person. a person after God's own heart i hope. and its with you guys that i truely am myself. that i can share my burdens with. my family problems, my school problems, and you know, just life problems. i must say i really seen how we all grew together. how kaiwen grew from a person who comes to cg just to learn bout social studies, and now leading the srjc and nyjc group. how jon grew from a boy who can even oversleep for CG and service to now being a shepherd and coreteam member, and norman being the golden hair kid to now being one who serves God with a simple heart. ah the list goes on lah. i truely treasure the countless hours talking to you guys, worshipping with you guys, outreaching with you guys, sharing life with you guys, everything. everything.

and i would most certainly miss you guys. i do treasure our friendship.

you guys are like family to me lah seriously, and i hope i am to you all yeah.

okay i think i shant continue anymore before i start dwelling into this any deeper.

guys pls give your best and flow along with your new leaders. i hope by now you all see that serving God is really so fundumental, so basic, so very joyful in fact. invest in what lasts for eternity. invest your lives into God's kingdom, and see how it all comes to pass.

now let's focus on our schools shall we? its really time to give God what He deserves.

dont you see, what's done here for God echoes for eternity.

i was telling kahfai and hooper in sch today that i felt very.. unsettled in my spirit. like that sort of somethings gonna happen sort of feeling. oh well. i duno.

watched pirates today. haha the show is so long.. but really entertaining. oh yeah so there's a supposedly part 4 to the series. gosh it never ends lah. but its interesting lah.

okay and i've just learnt of the latest and most probably finalised structure for the new jc grp. oh well. to be honest im kinda excited and cant wait for things to be REALLY finalised and settled. now like very messy and disfocus lah. oh well but yeah lets just say i miss my guys alr..

but seriously, i see the potential in the sajc side. we're gonna grow man. seriously.

why dont they see, why dont they see. sometimes is just so hard to believe. why dont people understand.

God open their spiritual eyes, and show them Your face. show them Your love, and humble their hearts.

a life so empty without You isnt it?

wah i cant wait.


though i aint know what to expect, but i seriously just cant wait.

i think this time..


i really screwed up.

lots of stuff happened over the past few days, and been too busy to blog.

like how service on sat was really, life-changing i guess. yeah though not the first time i heard that teaching but yeah, always a fresh insight amen?

an undivided heart.

then had mother's day service. attended it with kaiwen's mom and bro, and zhixian's mom and sis. the play was awesome!! haha our church has such got actors. and the video testimony from thailand was real touching. ay its so heart-warming to see God move across the globe. so real yeah. then i had the priviledge to pray for zhixian's mom and her family. and at the end of it she like thanked me a few times. gosh seriously i was very touched by her sincerity, like ay. and its not a everyday thing for an adult to thank a junior i guess, esp for something like that in the asian context. i duno. God i just pray that u move in their family!

OH so sunday's mother's day!! wanted to study for my bio spa on monday in the afternoon lah. haha but my sister was being the sweetest person ever. i ask her what she getting for my mom or had gotten, she said she was going to bake a cake, but couldnt go get the flour cause she cant go out. so i told her that i did bring her out, and asked if she knew how to bake a cake. haha u know what she said?? "see the sesame street book lor.." HAHAHA wah gosh. that ancient book that i had when i was a kid, i didnt know its still around.

i finally managed to convince her to get something else besides flour, didnt want my mom to murder us for ruining her kitchen. haha so i brought my sis to J8 and bought some stuff for my mom. oh well. haha i gave my mom the gift i bought her, and well i saw her smile. haha mission accomplish.

people been asking me, with the SGC fuss going around, like "eh you got no cca, your SGC how?"

to be honest i really duno how. its like there's nothing i can do about it and just write whatever i can i guess. and i know there's like cips lined up for me to go for but like, i dont have the time lah. and the cips are most probably and very likely to be on saturdays. which is totally out for me since i have service and meetings after that. oh well. duno how lah okay.


and sometimes that question do haunts. is it really worth it? like people do what they want, pursue their interest in the ccas, achieve their dreams and get recognised. and they have a nice testimony and stuff to help them in their uni admission etc. and why serve so hard in church then, giving up your dreams and time, putting in effort into helping others with their problems when your own seems to be overwhelming you. and what? not even get recognised plus a blank SGC to go with it.


so i asked around my classmates asking them what would they do if they were me. would they commit so much to God and such.

okay some stuff that happened recently,

watched spiderman 3 with my class on friday at like 10.45pm, and the show ended at 1am! haha but its definitely worth the $9.50 for me lah, as compared to that $9.50 for letter of death.. sheesh.

okay so cabbed home and stuff and ended up spending more money.

ah oh yeah, God seemed to really answer alot my prayers lately. haha of maybe cause i simply seem to recall my prayers and count my blessings! like how he send last buses to bring me home, how he somehow managed to bring me to service in like 20 mins from my house bus-stop and stuff.

OH DID I MENTION, i met the gay peter today before heading towards church. 5th time alr. haha goodness. 5 times. he cut his hair though. yeah he talked to me again but yeah okay i ignored lah. something like, "you dao me right!?" aiyah wadeva lah seriously.

and we spend our $20 ben and jerry's voucher today and finished the ice-cream within 5 mins lol. sry ah matt and lun, i think u can be part of our haagen-daz ice-cream outing next time lah lol.

yeah oh well. lots of things happened recently, lots of things i learnt recently. but not gonna blog them down now lah, no mood now. but guys i wanna tell you that serving God IS worth it. and i cant emphasise it enough. ay okay lah i shall blog wadeva i want real soon. till then mates!

WAS SO SLEEPY, i thought there was no way i could wake up for CG. But obviously i did lah. haha oh yeah i managed to go for CG in the end and keep my clean record for like 3 yrs of not missing CG once. haha im proud to keep that record okay.

and im so happy that prince managed to come for movie outing today!! haha keep up the good work of connecting him jon!

and spiderman 3 was so fully sold out so we watched the most "awesome" and "powerful" horror show ever. letter of death. okay basically it was really really pathetic. its like a thai director's attempt at making final destination 4. wah its so totally NOT scary, its so totally meaningless, the subtitles are so wrong, the actors cant act, and the show has barely a plot. haha and i found it hilarious when the show revolved around a game of hangman. -_- hey class thats our fav game!!

then went around shopping in j8 with jon. okay i seriously think im a failure at shopping. to me a clothe is either nice or not nice. and nice doesnt have a degree of niceness to it. so nice clothes are just nice nice. they arent like exceptionally nice, or normal nice, just nice nice. so i couldnt make up my mind on what i wanna buy in the end. haha thank God for jon who just chipped in random advices.

had shepherding with gideon at ard 10.30pm which lasted like till just.. well haha been quite a while since we talked like one to one. and yeah i really wanna thank God for the church. i seriously think i learnt alot about like life itself, and how to handle people and situations that happen and will happen. and even on yah, you know stuff that people dont discuss or even think about discussing. im glad for my own set of values and character for that matter of fact; ones that are build on God's word and His promises.

ah maturity man. maturity.