accomplished so little today!! well its okay. cause at least i know im gonna accomplish more studying over the following week. i have to man, its like the last week? so fast lah. oh this is killing me already!

okay woke up and dilly dally my way to yuxuan's house. arrived and told my mom to stop me at the sidegate(the one near the rubbish dumping area), and guess wad? the garbage collectors just had to do their rounds at that moment. ay nvm, it wasnt going to spoil my day!

arrived bout pass noon and had lunch with melcher at the table in the porch. very cosy place, condusive for studying too! well i guess its so too cosy that u dont wanna study. so we took out this really really old nitendo 64(yeah that's even before ps) and played mario kart 64!! it's like reliving my childhood. i think the last time i touched my nitendo 64 was like in secondary 1 lah. AND... i got trashed by the twins!! they like gang up on me can. ay it doesnt matter, we all had fun lah.

and it started pouring a little. didn't put off our plans for swimming though. jason arrived shortly and erm. yuxuan and i got changed for a swim. u should see him in his swimming trunks man. hilariously funny!! he like wore nothing else and walked to the pool, brave arh. haha okay.

so long lah. so so so long. okay not so long, but still kinda long since i last swam!! i know i said that umpteen times but still, compared to once 3 times a week lah. anyway, lost touch man. lost to yuxuan by ABIT only. okay then yuheng came and joined us. well i wanna announce that i beat em in breath holding! not my best but managed 1 min 39 seconds. it was like after 3 tries, my whole body started shivering kinda violently. no i wasnt cold, not at all. i duno wad was happening lah, best shot at it was coz had too much energy released from respiration stored up in my body and not being utilised, while i keep holding my breath to intensify it i guess.

swam for bout 2 hrs. didnt wanna stop okay, but then must have limits lah. or else no studying is gonna be done. so well got changed and started studying. so distracting, so many distractions!! studied for like 30 mins before raiding his computer. haha. okay lah anyhow, i did learn some physics today ok.

didnt manage to accomplish much today man. i want to, and i got to, seriously get that momentum going! been saying that for so long, time to put it into action.! i realised that if i dont start studying and stop playing right, then when O's is finally over the effect of playing and sense of satisfaction wont be that great. haha wadeva man. im gonna study, and not even YOU can stop me! okay reframing from all kinds of distractions for the following 3 weeks..


oh, Happy Birthday Michael!!

you know. i studied for chemistry practical, till i dreamt of me teaching myself the charge of Mg ion. wah so joke man. i know that ethanol is a reducing agent!! and when hydrogen peroxide liberates Oxygen gas Hydrogen peroxide acts as a reducing agent. haha wadeva lah.

okay well it went rather well i guess. GCE O level Chemistry Practical went rather well!! okay let me take u through the whole thing. well was glad to see the biurette and no thermometer when i entered. and heard some peeps saying that it was a colourless reagent.

well i so happy can. first one to achieve 'pop' sound in the lab. hmm okay. then erm glad that at least i got the acid correct this time.

Planning question seemed rather okay. even though i talked about taking both acids initially. then thought otherwise and cancelled quite abit. i think i was washing the conical flask or wad then some droplets of water landed on my page. so guess wad? the towel was convinently there, so wipe and.. SMUGE!!! my whole planning page got ink smuge lah so ugly.

ahh!! and u know wad, i forgot to mention to use the metal in 'excess'!! basic can!! i said use a 'magnesium strip of 2cm by 3cm..' okay doesnt matter now anyway.

then we come to QA. my solution T had no label! so i changed for another bottle. and the moment i opened it, i SPILLED THE SOLUTION all over the table. so i asked for another bottle, again. then the invigilator was like, "you're so troublesome!" okay well cant blame me right!! and the best part is, i didnt even use the new bottle of reagent she gave me, coz there was still some balance in the toppled bottle.

well i didnt know whether it was a brown ppt i saw in the last test. u know i wrote reddish-brown lah. coz everytime i wrote down wad i observed i got it wrong. well upon closer inspection at the stuff inside the test-tube. i decided to pour it out on the white tile, guess wad? i saw.. BROWN!! okay so i wrote brown instead, got it correct i guess. Thank God.

okay this is the best part.. for the last observation, i saw something like cream ppt. then i was like about to write cream ppt, coz Mr Won said we could and should if we saw that. then i recalled someone saying not to write Cream Ppt, well figured it had to be Miss Ong. i stared at the test-tube for a very long time okay. then recalled the basic technique of ppt detection.. pour it out, pour it away!! so i poured it on a white tile. i even used my finger to rub it. i still get cream ppt. and it so happened that my bench cloth had to be beside the white tile, and it had to touch the 'cream ppt'. so guess wad? i saw YELLOW on the bench cloth. so i happily wrote pale yellow. Thank God.

okay. well i got aluminium instead of zinc. duno why also. u know i wrote zinc initially and changed it to aluminium there after. Thank God. according to Mrs Lim and other schools, aluminium is correct.

heard that thursday's practical is not gonna be easy man. everyone's spotting like, vertical oscillation, pendulum, lens and heat. well u know last night i dreamt that lens was gonna come out, but i dreamt that it came out for chem prac instead. haha wadeva lah. go study esp those okay. and all the best for the rest of the papers.

Gonna be over.. SOON!!

oh man. this show is like playing on national geographic now, "No Borders". its like inhumane wad they are showing lah. as in, its about this south-american guy whose hi-jacked a bus and has taken bout 10 people as hostages. well seems like a everyday drama show right?? WRONG!! its not that part that's appauling. it's the situation in Brazil lah, the life that they lead. they stabbed his mom and sister and family in front of him.

okay the worst thing is the way they treat their prisoners in jail over at Brazil. i tell you just watching it makes your blood boil man. its like they throw 11 of the south-americans into a 5 person cell. beat em up like crazy, give em rotten food, leaving them no medical attention. as one of em puts is, "it's better off being dead."

and u know wad? the guy had no intention to kill anyone at all, he just wanted to get his point across to leave his own kind alone i guess. and when the police finally charged on him they missed both shots!!

well they took him into the police van. well in any normal senario that kid would be taken to jail right? well they suffocated him and killed him in the van. yes, the police killed him. oh man i tell ya its kinda graphic, and very inhumane lah. and the officers won't found to be guilty on the trials lah, can u believe it?

it always seems that those kids on the streets are on the losing end. i mean come on lah, one fine day the cops just drive into the street and start spraying all the kids living there with gunfire. okay well. fine.

ay anyway, back to singapore. its really a blessing to be in singapore isnt it? so let's get up and sing "Reach Out for the Sky". nah just kidding. hmm, i really do needa start the studying momentum man. hopefully i can settle my chem practical by tml. well i have to! Os on tuesday lah!

daryl just told me that his church is gonna start a youth service next year, and he's in the planning committee, in charge of worship!! well, that's wad i call church planter!! well in that sense lah.. haha. so gonna sit down and have some long discussions with him and tell him more bout youth services. he wants to know how youth services are run! hope that more youths would come to know Christ through the newly set up youth service in that church. keep em in prayer!

oh the reality of how near the Os in is starting to kick in. its so SOON. but oh well. looked at the time table just now and realised how fast its gonna be over!? happy guys? haha. cant cant wait for it to be over. u aint know how desperately i want it to end!! yeah. and so many from my school's going SAJC next year for 1st 3 months man. counted abit and figured there would be about 30 odd people. in fact very probably more. duno lah! aiyah.

Came across this very good teaching. as in short and sweet. http://www.youthalivewa.com/fuel/pdf/dreardon/powerofone.pdf go have a look when you'll have the time. okay.

service again tml. been looking forward to service, tiring and long week again.

and so it began.. O levels Bio prac today!!

okay gotta thank melcher for the french curve which i didnt get to use. mine broke lah. guess i really have to replace mine soon.

Ahh!! outside the lab we were all discussing.. no one knew how to spell piliferous!! no one knew how to label a carrot!! its like crazy okay. imagine how we felt when we entered and saw, a carrot on the table. i saw the onion too, and was kinda happy as i thought we would get to draw the onion, like just copy wholesale from memory.

okay, they tested on microscope stuff!! so crazy right!? who would have guessed?? well actually we did lah.. but didnt think much bout it, know bits and pieces, but really came out okay!! and they were asking how to make your microscope slide neat and tidy. from wad i heard from my teacher bout my results, my answer is just one point split into 2 parts!! which means i only got half the question correct! okay wadeva.

and this other question i knew the answer okay!! but as i wrote it just didnt feel right to me so i canceled it, and skip onto the next question wanting to review it later. i totally forgot bout it.
so i basically, took a ruler and my pencil, and happily canceled a mark away.

but the worse part is.. i cant spell piliferous!! i spelt it as perefirous lah. twice somemore!! so its like i made the mistake in both questions, so the marks deduction is amplified by 2! haha sound kinda maths here. so its like aiyah wasted wasted! i hate this kinda feeling okay. its like i know the answer, but yet i cant spell it!! not to mention canceling the correct answer oh well.

oh gotta thank everyone who smsed me this morning to wish me well for the exam. and i saw Daryl's sms this morning. apart from those wonderful bio explanation he gave me, the most important msg, "Dude, remember to pray. Read Habakkuk last few verses." and i did. boy i tell u its the best material i read before any major exam man. okay, kinda long so im gonna show u which part really really struck me.

You chose the cross with every breath
The perfect life, the perfect death, You chose the cross
A crown of thorns You wore for us
And crowned us with eternal life, You chose the cross
And though Your soul was overwhelmed with pain
Obedient to death You overcame

I'm lost in wonder, I'm lost in love
I'm lost in praise for evermore
Because of Jesus' unfailing love
I am forgiven, I am restored

You loosed the chords of sinfulness
And broke the chains of my disgrace, You chose the cross
Up from the grace victorious
You rose again so glorious, You chose the cross
The sorrow that surrounded You was mine
"Yet not my will but Yours be done" You cried.

2 confirmations for service after O's today.

oh yeah.

Check out

Page S6 of The Straits Times Saturday October 15, 2005.

under special report section.

really glad that i made the choice to go for service today, instead of going to jc openhouses. it was a really good service. its like the unplanned evangelistic service, just look at the numbers who came man. i think coz after exams so many came for service. today's sermon was on building communities in our school. Communities of Christ. really really appropriate, esp to those who are pioneering into their schools alone.

just look at the numbers who received Christ today. its truely amazing. feel so happy lah. haha wadeva lah, right choice to attend service.

rushed off to meet melcher who was already waiting for me at somerset mrt. didnt attend the northeast event or udmm. went down to habourfront for SAJC openhouse. but then on the way there realised that it was abit too late, so turned around and went back. oh well, been to SAJC's funfair earlier on in the year too, so more or less know wad its like.

then went to toa payoh where melcher went for his haircut, but then my parents came and erm.. had to go to the cementry instead.

well guess wad? today's visit seemed rather unusual. my aunt showed us the book that she had published on my grandparents. i tell you its a REALLY good book to read; coz even i dont know that my grandparents were who they were!! its like wow lah. haha. successful and yet so humble!! really okay, i not trying to claim credit or fame or wadeva. think my aunt gonna have the book be sold on sale or something. best part is, u get to see my picture when i was like in primary 2!! haha. oh and learn alot bout my late grandmother. here's something from the book.

"If from her approach to life we have learnt how to love a husband or wife, how to raise a family, how to exercise faith, how to live out the words of Christ, then she has no lived in vain."

like wow lah. thats's my granny!! haha okay. gonna read the book and find our more. its like leaving behind a legacy and passing on the baton to us!! yeap, our generation to spread the word of Christ man. and i didnt know that my grandma actually managed to get my grand-dad to come to know Christ. its a like all the way back in the 1940s!!

oh when my aunt gave us the book she wrote Psalm 16 on the cover and asked my brother to read out the verse for us. haha if u read Psalm 16 before u would know it talks about the peace and refuge the Lord gives. i know wad was going on okay!! my aunt was like trying to get my brother and family connected to Christ more. haha. awesome man. so awesome, for i believe that it can be done!! one day, we wont just be reading Psalm 16, but Psalm 26 instead!!

oh well. wad can i say?

"The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,' says the LORD Almighty. 'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the LORD Almighty." - Haggai 2:9

today so sad lah can!! Last day of my secondary school life. yeah, i didnt want it to end okay!! so XUAN MIAN!!! then first lesson was physics. haha. Mrs Ngiam entered for like less than 3 minutes then started tearing. haha so sweet and funny lah. didn't expect it first thing in the morning okay. oh she got us a present each. and aaahhh!! she started tearing again. ahah. sad lah.

then came mrs koh's lesson. no way u gonna see her cry lah. did the other Emath paper. wasn't really complaining bout it coz i want to enjoy my last day in school. school ended so fast lah. okay, IM GONNA MISS YOU ALL MAN.

well got back report books today. before that my form teacher addressed the issue about some of us just caring about nothing but their results, and basically have a rotten character; a sheep in wolf's clothing. i got quite stunned lah. coz just last night i was talking to my mom bout that, and i really thought she transferred that to my form teacher. well at least now i no she didnt. hmm. God's plan lah haha.

okay well, my moderated results is 10, without CCA. erm.. honestly speaking, i didnt really want that. firstly coz i know i dont deserve it, and secondly coz my mom would want me to get into TJC then. i wanted a 12! but then again, i am sorta glad in a way. told ya, study to your best; serve God to your best. God will not short-change you, infact he would bless ya!!

didnt go open house today. but stayed back with the other guys and played soccer. yeah. i know many arent happy with their results. nvm okay, study hard for O levels!! oh man, cannot bear to leave class lah. stayed back untill kinda late. before we left we kinda wrote all the teachers' names who taught us over these past 2 years. i would say our class is really blessed with very good and patient teachers.

oh well. gonna go for open house after church tml. so long then.

this isnt one of those fabulous days, in fact, its far from it. can't really accept that people can be so.. nvm.

it started when Michael shared with me wad he heard some others in class told him, and saw how they behaved. but dont worry yeah, if you're reading this, it aint you.. actually i sorta knew that such things occurs lah, but then they seem to be more and more prominent during this period of pre-O level period. it's like, there u have it, their ugly side. okay im saying this not because i want to rebuke anyone or anything okay; it's far from that. but i just cant stand it when people get so self-centered and cocky. i think many with sympathise with me here. more often than not our tolerance level gets tested man. SO so many times i gotta eat the humble pie.



it's like some of them purposely ask you questions, WHICH they already know the answer, just so that they get to sneer at you when u dont know the answer. i mean, come on lah. i know im not as learned as them okay.. but im rich in God!! haha. okay okay. enough of all that complaining. im sure God has everything in His hands.


come to think of it. it's drawing to a close okay. Secondary School life, its going to be no more!!

Got this off my cousin's blog. Very interesting it seems. haha.




The less you know, the more you make.

Proof:

Postulate 1: Knowledge is Power.
Postulate 2: Time is Money.

As every engineer knows:

Power = Work / Time And since

Knowledge = Power and
Time = Money

It is therefore true that Knowledge = Work / Money .

Solving for Money, we get: Money = Work / Knowledge
Thus, as Knowledge approaches zero, Money approaches infinity, regardless of the amount of Work done.

first of all i must really thank God that Mrs Tobias wasnt angry even though i didnt go for her english lesson this morning. i was really very exhausted. i think i slept for a total of about 15 hours. well anyway, i woke up in time for Prayer Meet in service.

Awesome service again. well at least for me, since i couldnt make it last week due to Bio remedial. Pastor Shirley shared bout discipleship. and erm, felt kinda deprived lah. haha. like 2 weeks neva really praise God. so today like super enthu bout praise.

After service had CG evaluation. honestly i thought the last cg went rather well. at least from my point of view. i was kinda tired initially when i went there, but left feeling all so refreshed. oh yeah, Martin and i bought something for our Salt and Light Project 1:5:3. haha shant tell you all.

well anyway, oh yeah. talked to Miss Ong, my chemistry teacher yesterday before i left school. told her that my chemistry really really cannot make it and how i dont see i am able to finish her 6 prelim papers. then she went how important it is that i dont risk going into the O levels preparing for just 6 subjects. in a way very true lah. then she asked me to study over the weekends, haha told her i had church and i needa rest. was very tired okay. then she told me that she had to go to church too and stuff, and something bout Jesus. haha. okay i kinda forgot.

oh then martin and i went to trumpet praise before heading to Junction 8 to look for some albums at Life bookstore. wanted to buy this particular CD but then thought otherwise. duno lah, it seems that i get really indecisive at times.

oh guess who i met at J8? Yew Tong!! from my old church, SAC. suprised to hear that he changed church to Trinity. then kinda ask him whether he knew this reverend there before he seemed to be in a real rush and he erm, rushed off to meet his friend or something.

then we met Desmond, Keith and Yong Deng. then desmond went to steampeg me at J8!! goodness!! in public okay. then i looked over to see whether anyone noticed than i saw this girl at Mac staring at us with her mouth wide open.. haha dont worry, its nothing gay or obscene. just that.. HAHA!!

then i walked back from J8 home and guess who i saw on the overhead bridge!? Hannah, Joel and his sister, Michelle i think. haha. really small world lah. from my old church also. i was like eating this timeout ice-cream. and kinda looked at them as they were approaching but didnt even recognise them. so i went on with my ice-cream. it was when they were beside me that i realised it was.. THEM!! haha. it just goes to show how nice the ice-cream was. then hannah said something like, "aiyoh so blur!" then i realised that i was actually them. okay lah, lagging there.

okay. well from the looks of things. i dont think i am able to get into those JCs like AJC. but i know im able to get in SAJC though. from wad i heard, from a very reliable source.. like lets say.. teachers..?? haha. nvm lah, we would all know our moderated results like by this week. really duno man. O levels are still coming!!


i cant wait for church camp!!

this is one crazy week okay. and im so physically drained. i neva felt this down and out like since so long ago. very very exhausted. i couldnt even join em to watch GOAL this afternoon. went back home and slept for 6 over hours. plus im under medication. very sleepy lah. its like this whole week we just go to school to collect prelim papers after prelim papers. and all the teachers are like telling us to go do our tys, but yet give us prelim papers. cant even have the time to study okay. and its like ssp, remedials, sat remedials and more prelim papers. u know how many prelim papers we have for over the weekend? no, not 5, not 10.. 13!!!! 13 full papers lah. u try to do!! crazy okay. u do the math and it sums up to so much more than a days work of prelim papers. cant even study lah. well anyway, gonna do 2 and catch up on my rest and hopefully do the tys.

supposed to have english remedial tomorrow morning. i expect another prelim paper coming our way. dont think i m gonna be there, besides very pobably they wont let me off for church too. gonna go this week okay. need that spiritual enrichment!! i tell u its better than any amount of prelim papers. oh well.

today was really a test for me man. a test on how much tolerance i can take. guess wad? i didnt manage to go for service today, thanks to my bio teacher. heard it was 'the' service, and how God spoke to each and everyone in that auditorium through a song sang by Pastor Shirley. can u believe it? my bio teacher refuses to let me go for church, but allows my classmate to go for tuition!!! and its like, he just asks her lah, i have to beg and plead to no avail. oh man. i tell u i was so SO SO mad i really felt like just taking my stuff and walk outta the lab. i even told her, reason out with her, and that see wad happens if she trys stopping a muslim from going for friday prayers. ah!! dont care man. oh well, really have no idea why God didnt let me go for service today. i told myself not to get angry man, darn devil cant get the better of me!! haha. oh well.

arrived at church abit before the end of the service. was too late to even enter lah. so hang out around hope stall, and peeped at the 'He Choose the Nails' by Max Lucardo. hmm, have it at home on my desk, yet to open it up. haha. its really good i guess. so met the guys and went over to starhub center. couldnt go for second service coz we had DMM, CG evaluation, celebration of Luke's birthday, and farewell to Ruizhen whose gonna hop over to YWAM. Gideon kinda slightly screwed up the schedule, by being overly caring. haha. i think the farewell party for Ruizhen was very well done, and she had this pillow with the pillow case with all our pictures on it, the JC ministry pictures.

after that we had our short DMM, then this sister came over and asked me whether i was from peichun primary. erm, haha she can recognise me like 4 yrs later? i really couldnt recall who she was. well anyway, DMM was kinda short and brief. Project 1:5:2!! oh our target for year end, 30 for the JC guys. its kinda like a faith goal lah, but i believe if we work at the rate we were working during July and stuff, hitting 30 is no problem!! infact we can even surpass 30 people! haha. so fast man. Christmas is coming!!

after all the meetings and evaluations, i realised that i couldnt possibly make it for tuition, so went with Matthias to Junction 8 to stroll around. haha. like sort of a mini-shepherding lah. ate at Mos Burger and talked bout stuff. walked to Life bookstore and talked bout stuff. haha. basically we kept talking bout.. stuff.

well anyway, as walking back from Junction 8 kinda did a short evaluation bout everything that has happened. i really do wanna give thanks to God, for erm.. EVERYTHING!!

So much has happened in such a short period of time. i really have to start my revision for my O's man. no more day before marathon like during the prelim period.

Moderation exercise was carried out yesterday, at least for our class. i think she was appalled at our results, and felt rather ashamed and embarrassed that she had to moderate. i mean come on lah, just coz of all those mid-years and mock prelims, double ssps and all doesnt mean that we would get good grades. infact, she very much over did all that especially the double ssp part. we were like going back at pass 5pm okay. so she had no other choice but to moderate, haha, removing the 0.67% distinction rate for english. guess wad happened after morning assembly? she announced that she refuse to moderate our results just because we laughed at her sigh. it was very funny okay. not that i am being funny or something, but erm, i guess she really dont have to throw her weight around. and i guess she really insulted the sec 4s man. wad she said is really demoralising.

having Bio lessons tomorrow in school. i just knew that 5 day work week thing will never work out. i really do want miss tan to let me of so that i can go for church man. the last time i told her i needa go she made such a big whoo-ha about it.

oh is it children's day?

Lord let Your kingdom come.