today, sucked. such a bad day really. i was kind of expecting it to be really chaotic and messy, but no way to this extent. it's just so so mentally and emotionally taxing, i remember asking God how on earth am i supposed to find joy in a circumstance like this. i couldnt even have time to react. and the irony was that my boss was still explaining Murphy's Law at the start of his presentation to everyone. sheesh fine im stopping here.

so apparently my bag got locked up in the mess as well and the mess boy had gone home. so when i finally left camp and reached home, no one was at home and my keys were in my bag.. and it didnt make things any better when i tried to give my parents a call to like come open the door. ah nevermind. i dont want this post to go about being one which its just another complaining session.

okay so i ended up by the pool waiting for the world to spin by, and waited for melcher who very kindly agreed to go for dinner together(see i appreciate it) to come by. i suppose it was a vital moment for me, a good pause to the entire oh-so-i-cant-stand-it day. i seeked God. i ranted and complained, threw every ounce of emotion i had bottled up at God. then it seemed to all just, vanish. i wont say i felt instantly burden-free and all, but i found so much familiar comfort that's ever present when we choose to turn to God. okay fine, i suppose my life really isnt that bad right?

anyway, im in the midst of planning my ord trip. haha yeah awesome. come on anyone with experience planning an backpacking trip adventure of a lifetime!?