i havent been in here for a while(like i doubt anyone actually reads this site anyway). partly cause i was busy with my second ict and mobilisation exercise and also, partly because i dont feel inclined to? well work's just fine i suppose. the busiest time probably is over, now with just a few icts left and stuff.

and guess what? this entry's actually coming from camp. my first entry from camp how about that. yeah well it's another quiet rainy day in the office, of which im the only soul thanks to planned "unforseen circumstances".

i spoke to an old friend a couple of days ago, the first after like 4 years or so. he reminded me of a statement i made, or rather, a commitment of mine that a 4 years younger me once shared to him. i guess in an odd way i kinda admired the person who made that promise, because it certainly seems to take so much more now.

and i suppose i can say with confidence that my sis enjoys/is faithfully attending church now. just that she decided to be the next celine dion and signed up to join the choir ministry, which is a good thing mind you. just that it kinda means she would have to miss the bus and i would have to wait for her to be done to send her back. okay i wouldnt mind just that it kinda totally clashes with my own CG timing.

you know, i remember how it feels like not to have your parents there for you in your growing up days when you need them the most. i'm not saying physically but more of emotionally? and i remember how much i hated that. just a part of the past that im not really proud of, and part one of the cons of the way my parents brought us up. i duno if its a fair comment to pass but i suppose this would matter more for girls? my sis could surely use a little more guidance and encouragement esp since she's growing up so ridiculously fast. well hey i duno. at least as a brother i wanna be sure im there for her as best as i can?

and have i told you how funny barney from 'how i met your mother' is? oh man. totally epic!