finally my exercise is over. which means its just probably two more main events for me that i am aware of before i can bask in the bliss of ord-mood.

had dinner at my aunt's place today, havent meet them for i think a couple of months now. we were talking about stuff, like my sis going to church and all, you know the usual stuff. she of course asked me which church i was attending again and who were my pastors lol. i was smarter this time, i gave her the church's website and asked her to do her own digging lol. anyway something kinda struck me though. i think most of us christians would have perhaps one or two relatives that we know of or even siblings that are christians as well, but perhaps due to the awkwardness of theological discussions of "religious topics" in the family that most of us tend to not even bring about any hint of the mention of Christ. rather sad really, considering the missed opportunities of deeper conversations, encouragements and not to mention the amount of synergy that could very possibly work out something great. yeah the fear of changing things, awkward moments during CNY gatherings and all can be quite intimidating, but oh well, you just never know really.

anyway, i was listening to the hillsong hope album once again. i think hillsongs music did have quite a significant evolution, if you may. the hope album's rather old, year 2003? back in the days where joel houston and jad gillies were still hiding off somewhere and it was reuben morgan taking the stage with marty sampson and darlene zschech of course. u know the times of, 'still', 'highest', 'here i am to worship'. i think back then nigel hendroff actually did alot more fill ins, and i duno if its fair to say it seemed like they left alot more room for free worship. haha i know alot of you perhaps wont agree with that but i sorta feel that these days most of the interludes are a little too structured and all. like the riffs would be a little more, constructed? but yeah its a generalisation i suppose. go listen to 'highest' from the Hope album. u will get what i mean.

i think im guilty of taking God for granted, esp when it comes to pursuing the things that i want. stop and think shawn, much of it's a meaningless chase really.