seems so long since i've last been here. well it was basically just an entire february. had quite a bit going on. like how i was made the exercise platoon commander for ex. panther, which was basically the last exercise to sum up the entire OCS term. quite interesting really, involved taking a chopper, assault boats and finally an attack on a town. it wasnt easy really, many many hours of planning and late nights to craft out the orders and attack plan, only to have it deemed irrelevant since the company orders were constantly being edited. to make matters worse, commander, chief instructor and all those big shots were gonna come down to witness the attack, so they kinda wanted it to be flawless. speaking of which i must say im really grateful to my team for staying up with me to do the orders, even though i know each and everyone of them was really exhausted.

and in all the entire event went by, and yeah i guess taking the helicopter was really a heck of an experience. oh yeah, and my fieldpack strap broke halfway through the navigation phase due to the weight and salt from the sea water. so i basically had to sling it over my left shoulder while i held on with one hand onto the right strap, with the other hand holding my rifle and somehow reading my map to navigate at the same time.

oh well quite a bit happened that's probably irrelevant to have it mentioned here. i guess through it all i came to realise bits and pieces of me that i never knew, both in a good and bad way.

on a side note, its now just 3 weeks to commissioning. we had our first parade rehearsal last sat, and well let's just say i really hate drills. cant imagine what defaulter's parade would be like this sat. Platoon assault course(PAC)'s being postponed to this week too, in light of the fever outbreak across the wing last week. like we had more than 9 cases of high fever in my platoon alone, of which 6 had to be send home over a span of two days. well i hope they see that soldiers need rest.

and i dont like the way things turned out. i would say i've been rather confused over the past few weeks now, between the things that happened and the things that should. the best part is, there isnt a thing i can do about it.