i aint been updating in the longest of periods, mostly because by the time i have the time and mood to attempt to post, the once significant event and moment suddenly doesnt seem so significant and cherished anymore. and together with the intensity of life and perhaps my laziness to some extend, well there u have it, the temporary hiatus.

things are picking up quite abit, training schedule's mainly preparing us for the jungle confidence course in brunei, which would take place in about a month's time. well, its getting as bad as it sounds.

and yeah i did get that letter that everyone's been talking about, sometime a couple of weeks back. written on the front was my name and address in block letters, and the words "written on 3/10/07" at the back of the envelope. yeah a letter from a year ago me. i wasnt filled with the most anticipation or eagerness to open the letter, in fact i put it off for the few weeks that followed till say about 5 mins ago? perhaps a part of me was afraid to read the letter and find out that i hadnt achieve what i set myself out to do. or maybe i just didnt wanna find out.

as i read it, i found myself(a year ago me) thanking God for the things that i had in life, asking God to use me to show forth His glory with a miracle in my studies and ranting about a particular incident that happened recently then. and then i found myself cheering me on and reminding the now a year older me about the verse that i held on so dearly to during my jc years. well as jon ho puts it, so much has changed in one year. some things for the better and some for the bleak in an odd way.

these heights are dizzying, he's dying to live.