several ways to die trying.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

1:48 AM

well i duno. i guess some people just have things easy while others dont yeah. i dreamt of many people last night. lots of church people waiting at this particular busstop, including pastor shirley and all. then many left for some event which i cant remember. only a few remained. and then it turned real dark and someone went off in the middle of the night, crossed the road, and disappeared. and i kinda took a bus home. haha i duno, i felt so resigned, so callous in the dream. like i didnt want anything to matter to me at all.

ah okay weird dream, made my right arm all numb when i woke up.

yeah okay and im really very drawn to this song by bell x1, In Every Sunflower.

yeah its an old song, just that i cant seem to stop listening to it recently. its about the death of a really close friend. and it has such a sad note to it, and such sad, sad lyrics. a real beautiful song i guess. oh well.

My book has more bookmarks than pages

'Cos it take me ages

Or is everybody reading

Is everybody reading

Standing on a black Ulster hill

I never fear the chill

'Cos everybody's holding

Everybody's holding

I wouldn't swap the pain

For never knowing you

I wouldn't swap the pain

It was worth it for the view

My book has more bookmarks than pages

'Cos it take me ages

Or is everybody reading

Is everybody reading

Of a sparkling Medusa

With snakes of cerise and blue

And though we're all pillars of salt now

it was worth is for the view

I wouldn't swap the pain

For never knowing you

I wouldn't swap the pain

'Cos it was worth it for the view

We're still watching

Your rainbow through the shower

And we still see you

In every sunflower

We're still watching

I make days from the hours

And I still see you

In every sunflower

Every screaming sunflower

And how they scream of you