ah its finally finally the holidays!! can take a breather from the prelims. i guess its really true when they say that A levels can really consume your whole life. ah oh well. its gonna be all over real soon.

and i think im starting to be more consciously aware of God's voice and word, like stopping to think bout my motives, or why im feeling the way im feeling. haha yeah keep it up shawn! ay wadeva. more self-evaluating lah i guess. WWJD.

and yes, what pastor shirley said on saturday really hit me. esp the part about placing God as a focus in our studies and having a spirit of biblical daniel in whatever we do. like, i dont wanna be caught in the rat race of studying for the sake of studying and chasing after certificates and grades. its so meaningless, and i would neva wanna define who i am with certs and grades!

i guess i always found it how to comprehend what it really meant by studying so as to honour God. like its always been that i can honour God is so many other ways too, beside having the grades and stuff. but yeah, it's about the spirit of daniel isnt it? being the best that God had made us out to be, achieving what we were created for, not wasting the life that was bought with His Son's blood. ah it really put my attitude towards my studies into perspective, a Godly perspective. and i told God on that saturday, the 1st of sept 2007 that i would want to give my best in whatever i do, esp in the area of studies.

i think many a times, we tend to define ourselves as what people say we are. as in if the world thinks you're dumb, then u have to be dumb. God, when i look into the mirror i dont wanna see a person as defined by the world, i wanna see a person as You define. Your child, Your creation. an authentic life.