Saturday, September 29, 2007
12:32 AM
i think i have very smart parents.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
11:36 PM
aahhhhhhh i feel so blessed i dont even know how to go about posting this. i wanna say a big thank you! to all who wished me happy birthday, planned the gifts and surprises, the cards, etc. haha seriously i feel very very blessed today, as though its like a dream man. sheesh so many smses and stuff that i had to clear my inbox!! i wanna thank my class, my CG, church mates, and like many other random people. haha. then i realised that in doing so i deleted the earlier smses, so i cant thank you all individually here.. haha BUT ITS OKAY. you guys still totally rock. and its real funny watching how everyone goes ard and pretend to forget its your birthday and all and wah comes out a "surprise". lol.
like yesterday, after our gp remedial, amanda said she had to go somewhere so wasnt gonna study, so i went to the library to study till 5.30pm. then when i walked to the mrt bus-stop i saw her there waiting for the bus. seriously, i was surprised and went like "eh didnt u have to go somewhere?" then she just gave me that shocked face. then she finally composed herself and say she's going back to sch, and ask me if the cafe was still open. then i was like why u ask me that, and she went "i bet u are touched right." ONLY THEN, did i realise that she was holding a cake beside her!! wahahaha super funny i seriously wanted to like accompany her back to sch and put the cake in the fridge pretending not to see it at all, but okay lah had to rush for some soccer game with my sec sch friends. haha anyway thanks amanda!
ah and then in school, i totally didnt see the gift box that charlene was hiding all the while. gosh seriously its either her good hiding skills or my bad eyesight. okay then during the break the all-so-familar cake came out and blah blah blah u know what next. then they brought out my birthday gift, this pizza hut box. then charlene told me she didnt know what to get for me so she bought me pizza. and i BELIEVED IT. then i was like wondering where can i possibly keep it so i can come claim it later. eh come on it weighed like a pizza too what. haha sheesh obviously it wasnt pizza i felt so dumb when i opened the box. there was this threadless tee and pants inside. threadless!! my second threadless!! haha awesome. OH AND THIS wonderfully made card. wait i'll show u..
ah see! they totally understand my love for southpark. ah okay lah i have to give credit to charlene for the card or else it wont be fair (and she probably get jealous.) haha yeah its REALLY nice. see i told you you can be cool! haha thanks.
and the threadless!!
AND, does someone look familar below?.
ERIC CARTMAN!
oh oh!! and my first 3 months class gave me gifts too! haha OF WHICH the only practical gift was a pair of drum sticks. okay so now i have two pairs. haha okay i know what each gift represents okay, so like erm.. right. lol. but okay lah they wrote all the well wishes on the geisha fan that they bought along with the rest of the gifts. haha you guys are still cool and awesome lah. thanks for even remembering!! :D
haha then u know after school my CG(cell/caregroup) was like at the cafe doing minifellowship with the two new-be J1s. then i was telling charlene and kahfai how the standard protocol of every birthday would be. haha like u know after u are in church long enough and seen enough birthdays u would know what i mean. then i glanced over at the CG table then saw all of them writing away. HAHA CANNOT BE ALL DOING HW RIGHT. and i bet and was definitely sure they were doing the last minute card writing thing. then i was telling charlene "watch as they all start going panicky.." then i got up and made my way towards them, and SURE ENOUGH, they all quickly put aside the cards and pretend to be doing hw. hahahhaha seriously it was super funny.
OKAY. BUT, i did got tricked!! and surprised for that matter. after CG they gave me my present. it was this blue top t-shirt, the baseball kind. and seriously, i really liked it! i thought i was cool and something i saw tyson from AAR wore once before, and they made me change into it and stuff lah. THEN, after everything, they took out another present and said i've been punked.. apparently that shirt was xingyi's brother's.. HAHA xingyi was suppose to get a real ugly shirt to pass off as my birthday present so as to trick me. HAHA OH WELL TOO BAD it looked nice on me and i liked it. haha surprised succeeded but "failed"!! haha okay lah. they got me a springfield top which i bet cost like quite a bit.
OH AND DEFINITELY NOT FORGETTING.. my most awesomest, loveliest sister!! haha u know two nights ago, she came up to me and told me the teacher asked her to write an assignment on her brother. so she asked me what i like and stuff. i told her stuff like my guitar, handphone, blah blah blah. then she was looking all puzzled and asked me if there's anything else. so i thought that she needed a general pri 3 answer. so i went like "aeroplane." ah then she said, "cannot lah, so expensive! u think i so rich ah.." hahahaha!! wah ultimate cuteness! u get it!? then first thing this morning when i woke up she presented me my present in the cute-est way possible lol. ahh see kim, i told my sis is the best!
anyway all in all, i really really wanna thank all you guys for everything. i really do feel very blessed and special. haha thank you!!
God, thank you for giving me such friends and family in my life! :D
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
11:09 PM
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
Matthew 6:33
Sunday, September 23, 2007
11:29 PM
dashboard confessional's new album's out on 2 oct!! ah cant wait!!!!
the shade of poison trees.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
12:42 AM
And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
one good stretch before our hibernation
our dreams assured and we all will sleep well,
sleep well, sleep well.
Monday, September 17, 2007
11:45 PM
ah finally, prelims is over. goodness i slept at like 3.30am last night, not because i was studying or what but i just kinda didnt have the mood to sleep. then this stupid mosquito kept biting me in my left arm and leg, even through my pyjamas!! i had to get up and wash the bites cause they were real itchy.
and then, my mom kinda overslept and thus my sis and i overslept. i woke up at 7.05am, and ah wad crap. u know i just had this bad feeling i would oversleep.
and then on my way to sch i figured i didnt bring my calculator, since my current one jamed on me during the math prelims paper 2. but okay anyway amanda got some calculator from her junior. and halfway through the paper i came to realise i aint know how to use the stupid calculator, cause it has this 'p' sign on it which forbids me to press like numbers 4, 7, 8 etc. but okay the paper didnt require any calculations, except maybe for one so its okay.
okay i was so so so so SO freaking sleepy during the paper. i felt myself dozing off to sleep as i stared at the bio mcq. and u know how badly i hate those questions which ask u for the
incorrect answer instead of the correct ones? i kept conveniently overlooking it. okay and after making a concious effort to stay awake and check my answers. i literally stared at the word incorrect, then looked up, took a deep breath to stay awake and then look at the qn again. then i came to realised after the paper that i lost at least 3-5 marks out of 40 cause i read incorrect as correct, and cyclic as non-cyclic blah blah..
wah sheesh.
okay then proceeded to PS and then my math tuition teacher called to tell me how it would be so wise to come down for tuition today. i was so sleepy so sleepy.
okay i guessed i really made the right choice by deciding to go for the JUMP(Jesus You Must Praise) concert after math tuition. though i know it would mean standing for at least 2.5 hrs and definitely jumping and stuff. it was really good. the hope church bangkok band is REALLY good. and they had these two worship leaders who sings SO well, i tell u easily beats any singapore idol hands down. their really good lah. oh and they had this amazing saxophonist who made such wonderful melodies. haha and the thai pastor was teaching us how to praise and dance before the Lord THAI STYLE!!! hahaha way fun! one of the better praise and worship sessions that i ever been too in my life lah. everyone was really praising and stuff. atmosphere was so thick. oh well. glad i decided to go anyway.
alright. now i shall... try to get to bed early.
1:17 AM
but its a false sense of accomplishment;
everytime i quit.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
1:48 AM
well i duno. i guess some people just have things easy while others dont yeah. i dreamt of many people last night. lots of church people waiting at this particular busstop, including pastor shirley and all. then many left for some event which i cant remember. only a few remained. and then it turned real dark and someone went off in the middle of the night, crossed the road, and disappeared. and i kinda took a bus home. haha i duno, i felt so resigned, so callous in the dream. like i didnt want anything to matter to me at all.
ah okay weird dream, made my right arm all numb when i woke up.
yeah okay and im really very drawn to this song by bell x1,
In Every Sunflower.
yeah its an old song, just that i cant seem to stop listening to it recently. its about the death of a really close friend. and it has such a sad note to it, and such sad, sad lyrics. a real beautiful song i guess. oh well.
My book has more bookmarks than pages
'Cos it take me ages
Or is everybody reading
Is everybody reading
Standing on a black Ulster hill
I never fear the chill
'Cos everybody's holding
Everybody's holding
I wouldn't swap the pain
For never knowing you
I wouldn't swap the pain
It was worth it for the view
My book has more bookmarks than pages
'Cos it take me ages
Or is everybody reading
Is everybody reading
Of a sparkling Medusa
With snakes of cerise and blue
And though we're all pillars of salt now
it was worth is for the view
I wouldn't swap the pain
For never knowing you
I wouldn't swap the pain
'Cos it was worth it for the view
We're still watching
Your rainbow through the shower
And we still see you
In every sunflower
We're still watching
I make days from the hours
And I still see you
In every sunflower
Every screaming sunflower
And how they scream of you
Thursday, September 13, 2007
1:57 AM
okay my prelims are almost over, except for chem mcq and bio mcq. ah i just wanna do something aimless and meaningless. like slacking ard all day tml or something. oh well. its time to play! for a while i guess.
don't it feel like sunshine after all.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
10:19 AM
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Thursday, September 06, 2007
11:25 PM
Too long till fall, sick summer in bed.
You and a lazy mood,
me and a test of will.
1:06 AM
okay i just watched 'i know who killed me'. wah gosh okay. i dont really know how to go about describing it, but let's just say its definitely something u aint seen before. its bout this serial killer who catches this girl and amputates her limbs, and she escapes and cant remember a thing blah blah. okay its real spooky and intriguing(i just learnt how to spell that) and stuff. way cool in a way i guess, but i wont wanna watch it again.
anyway, go watch it!
Monday, September 03, 2007
10:54 PM
ah its finally finally the holidays!! can take a breather from the prelims. i guess its really true when they say that A levels can really consume your whole life. ah oh well. its gonna be all over real soon.
and i think im starting to be more consciously aware of God's voice and word, like stopping to think bout my motives, or why im feeling the way im feeling. haha yeah keep it up shawn! ay wadeva. more self-evaluating lah i guess. WWJD.
and yes, what pastor shirley said on saturday really hit me. esp the part about placing God as a focus in our studies and having a spirit of biblical daniel in whatever we do. like, i dont wanna be caught in the rat race of studying for the sake of studying and chasing after certificates and grades. its so meaningless, and i would neva wanna define who i am with certs and grades!
i guess i always found it how to comprehend what it really meant by studying so as to honour God. like its always been that i can honour God is so many other ways too, beside having the grades and stuff. but yeah, it's about the spirit of daniel isnt it? being the best that God had made us out to be, achieving what we were created for, not wasting the life that was bought with His Son's blood. ah it really put my attitude towards my studies into perspective, a Godly perspective. and i told God on that saturday, the 1st of sept 2007 that i would want to give my best in whatever i do, esp in the area of studies.
i think many a times, we tend to define ourselves as what people say we are. as in if the world thinks you're dumb, then u have to be dumb. God, when i look into the mirror i dont wanna see a person as defined by the world, i wanna see a person as You define. Your child, Your creation. an
authentic life.and Your promise still remains,
i am Yours.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
10:36 PM
an
authentic life vs spiritual death.
come on, is it really that hard?
