several ways to die trying.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

11:56 PM

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like You've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In Your pain there is healing
In Your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to You

The broken locks were a warning You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see Your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In Your pain there is healing
In Your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to You

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what You will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words You say
You said that I will be okay

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

Sunday, August 26, 2007

10:16 PM

God, teach me to learn to trust.

Amen.

1:18 AM

ah so weird. stress where are you!? come to me, come to papa.

God spoke to me loads during worship today. solid rock on which i stand isnt it? im so grateful seriously. and i neva saw it as something which i had to give up. it was more of a trade off in faith, child-like faith.

i feel like just going on a long long holiday.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

1:10 AM

come on shawn. get a grip on reality.

ah prelims in 2 days. crap.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

9:52 PM

All of my answers and all my reasons
And all my excuses they never asked
Cause all of my answers they keep on changing
I spend my life waiting for the next

No, I just keep on moving
No, I just keep on pushing forward
No, I forgot what I was looking for

And all their illusions, I won't believe them
I'll always believe what I can't forget
Cause all of their reasons, they keep on changing
I spend my life waiting for the next

No, I just keep on moving
No, I just keep on pushing forward
No, I forgot what I was looking for

I'd trade wisdom back in for innocence
To get away from all my lies
I'd trade wisdom back in for innocence
To get away from getting by

I'd trade wisdom back in for innocence

Just for one look through His eyes

Saturday, August 11, 2007

12:34 AM

and nothing matters to me anymore Lord,

all i want is You.

God, i ask that You come and be the Lord of all. the Lord of my emotions, my thoughts, my decisions, my heart and my mind. teach me Your ways, show me Your heart. thank You for being so patient with me. please come and take all of me, for all i want is You. all i want is You.

glorious is Your name Lord, You alone are the light that shines.

Create new life in us

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

11:36 PM

you know everytime i come to my blogpage i feel so at home, so comforted in a strange way.

i guess im going through a certain phase in my life right now that kinda makes me distant i guess, but yet i feel its starting to become this little cosy comfort zone that im living in. to be honest a part of me doesnt want this to change at all. that part of me just wants to ignore everything that is happening around me, be it in sch, church or family, and just remain in this place where it just God and me. you know somehow i feel just so at home these days, like God being in the personal level. personal worship, personal relationship.

and no, im not emo. and im not an emotional wreck.

alright. now i duno what to say.

where would i be without You? who would i be without You?

abide in me i pray.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

1:05 AM

and then the walls that took so long to come down.. are building up again.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

12:49 AM

I’ll take off my shoes, I’m coming in,
Untie this rope, I’m staying with him,
Love of my life, I’ll live and die,
Just for the moments for my king and I.

Why did you call, why did you wait,
For someone so guilty, someone so fake.
There are no words for my beautiful song,
Now I’m in the arms of my beautiful one.

Hold me, blow all the pride from my bones,
With your fire.
Hold me, breathe on this heart made of stone,
Keep it pure.
Hold me, saviour of heaven and earth,
King forever.
Hold me, love of my life lead me on,
Through the fire, lead me on.

I’ll take off this crown and fall at your feet,
The secret of joy are the moments we meet.
How could a man with all of your fame,
Pull me from darkness and call me by name.

So hold me today, as I carry your cross,
Into the desert to find who is lost.
Look at my hands, they’re still full of faith,
God keep them clean till we finish the race.