several ways to die trying.

Monday, July 30, 2007

1:21 AM

God, i wanna thank You for being there for me, yet again.

Glory to God in the Highest.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

12:14 AM

can i climb a castle wall to see the worlds behind the door, you there.
drive the past like a criminal and to a life for all to see,
you to see.

take me now as your long lost love. arrest you, you dear.

every little piece of my heart is falling down,
when you're around.
every little piece of my heart is falling down, down, down.

the rumours crowd above the noise, silence falls like a bottle crash into the ground.
thoughts and music for your tears, castle walls are far behind and you, are finally free.

we won't part though the winds may come, to take me from you.

every little piece of my heart is falling down,
when you're around.
every little piece of my heart is falling down, down, down.

and i can't give you what you have, what you have.

but i can give you all i am, yeah everything i am.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

12:11 AM

because 3 minutes and we're done..

lol.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

11:19 PM

disappointments. discouragements. you know seriously i felt that the results doesnt justify our efforts. ay anyway, move on lah. God please make the next week a real fruitful one.

you know as days go by i start to realise more and more, why i
ed God so badly in my life. my ever-present help in times of need, ever ready source of strength.

ah come on shawn, pick up your own collar.

Here I am dieing to say

I am desperate for Your touch

I fall upon this desert ground and I am empty at Your feet

Will You break me now

Will You take me in Your grace

Friday, July 13, 2007

12:17 AM

got back the full math paper and econs alr. U for math and S for econs. i guess i was really disappointed for my math esp, like after all that tuition and effort i put into math, i guess maybe it really wasnt enough? i even gave up on my bio for my math, but oh well. it didnt feel good yeah. eh i did study.

oh well. unhappy stuff aside. i must say that God spoke alot to me directly or indirectly over the past few days. what He means to me, what i mean to Him.

went to do contact gathering today with the other peeps. i guess it went pretty well, and the 40 apples i ordered from the fruit juice uncle were put to good use.

"The earth is the LORD's, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it; for he founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters. Who may ascend the hill of the LORD? Who may stand in his holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, who does not lift up his soul to an idol or swear by what is false. He will receive blessing from the LORD and vindication from God his Savior. Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, O God of Jacob." -Psalm 24:1-6

and purity of the heart is to will of one thing. be it good or bad, there's no lukewarm isnt it.

God, make my heart pure. a heart that seeks Your face.

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what is Yours

Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause

As I walk from earth into eternity

Thursday, July 12, 2007

12:10 AM

you know what Lord, yes i guess i am afraid. its like, im afraid i cant do it.

i dont wanna fall short..

You are my strength, strength like no other.
strength like no other, reaches to me.

then let me learn once and for all, when i am weak, then You are strong in me.

Monday, July 09, 2007

1:16 AM

in Your freedom i will live; i offer devotion.

come on come on. more of You and less of me.

so true..

Friday, July 06, 2007

12:46 AM

WAH TRANSFORMERS IS THE COOLEST SHOW EVER!!

haha it makes you feel like every single machine now is some robot in disguise.

and i shall transform into a water cooler.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

12:18 AM

i know millions of people have sung it,

but...

why out of thousands of people You chose me? haha i just dont understand.

so blessed i cant contain it.

so real to me. seriously, so real to me.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

5:51 PM

exams are finally over. as in bt2. okay lah long tiring papers which just makes me realise how much stuff i duno, esp for bio..

oh yeah u know i was praying for my class the other night, then praying for this teacher, when i suddenly had such a burden to keep on praying. i know what she's facing right now in her life and yeah i guess it's really times like these that really make or break eh. i just kept praying and praying till like 3am. hope. yeah. then like worshipped God till 3.30am. haha just didnt have the mood to sleep lah you know. but anyhow it made me super tired the next day.

and i went for this wedding dinner last evening. didnt really wanna know lah, i really needed to sleep, plus exams just ended! but aiyah okay lah i went haha. good to spend time with your family i guess. and okay was real glad to meet everyone. and NO; i got no gf lah pls why keep insisting lol! and no u didnt see me with some eurasian girl in town. haha but okay lah, everyone's all grown up now.

haha why do i sound, old.

and i learnt something bout my family that i didnt knew before. well i kinda guessed it lah, but to hear and to see it for yourself. ay sheesh. oh well. its all the past yeah, move on lah.

okay exams ended. so now what? haha 6 weeks lah boy remember.

6 weeks for Jesus.