we had our first sajc cg on thursday! okay we met at hsiaoen's place to study before heading down to debbie's place. of which i kinda overslept and didnt manage to reach at 11am. okay lah reached at 1 plus. okay managed to do more organic chem mindmaps. sheesh its so much i really hope to finish it asap.

and then i realised im a totally failure at cooking. haha i cant even cut cucumber properly, no, peel cucumber properly. oh well. haha real proud of jon! didnt know he's such a good chef. made such decently shaped sushis haha.

okay lah cg went well i guess. u know to be honest it was better than i thought it would be. haha okay. potential to grow man. sajc for Jesus!

okay i finally watched a walk to remember. some show which i d/led eons ago but didnt get the time to watch. haha actually to be honest i think the guy reminded me of how i was like before i went to church. but yeah it was a real nice show. very honest i guess.

THEN i went to my room to LIE DOWN. man i tell u just to lie down.. then next thing i realised it was 7.30pm. and i was supposed to meet gideon at 7.15pm lah. haha die! okay anyway, went for my shepherding with gideon, together with matt and kai. okay i guess i did grow alot under him, as in i found out alot about myself. not just weaknesses and strengths but also my own character and basically who i really am. i still recall once asking him to tell me who am i. as in cause i guess i was still searching. very lost and directionless. yeah we've come a long way lah. thanks shepherd! haha. 1 yr and 6 months. quite a long time? i duno. oh well.

and yeah i guess i took a really long time, to like find myself and stuff. and okay lah haha i guess i really grew alot in the past year or so. learning to really place trust and faith in God, even when situations and circumstance seems so much more tangible at times. and i was just thinking through, actually seriously wad is 70 odd years on earth? its really nothing but a scratch in eternity. who would remain then is God, God's word and souls of men. materialism, achievements, fame, wealth are really all so temporal isnt it. and maybe perhaps the world views such stuff as important because their persception of life is only that 70 odd years. please there's so much more to life. so so much more.

don't people question their existence? their purpose in life?

ah duno lah. oh and CAMP's COMING!!!!


i my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand

When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand