several ways to die trying.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

12:35 AM

people been asking me, with the SGC fuss going around, like "eh you got no cca, your SGC how?"

to be honest i really duno how. its like there's nothing i can do about it and just write whatever i can i guess. and i know there's like cips lined up for me to go for but like, i dont have the time lah. and the cips are most probably and very likely to be on saturdays. which is totally out for me since i have service and meetings after that. oh well. duno how lah okay.

and sometimes that question do haunts. is it really worth it? like people do what they want, pursue their interest in the ccas, achieve their dreams and get recognised. and they have a nice testimony and stuff to help them in their uni admission etc. and why serve so hard in church then, giving up your dreams and time, putting in effort into helping others with their problems when your own seems to be overwhelming you. and what? not even get recognised plus a blank SGC to go with it.

so i asked around my classmates asking them what would they do if they were me. would they commit so much to God and such.

and yes i was reasoning it out and all. and looking at lives change, even for my own life. i would say it's really worth it. i dont want this so sound cliche but yeah, it really is.

Maturity is wisdom in action.

and i think there's a few breakthroughs in my life recently. like i've learnt to put my head over my heart. and i really want to like, no longer be a boy for Christ. i want to be a MAN for Christ. maturity please. in actions, motives and even feelings. like struggle with new things lah seriously. ah okay.

let go of the little you have, to grab hold of the much there is in Christ.

sleep sleep.