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Thursday, April 19, 2007

11:43 PM

okay i think things in the family reached a point where, its no longer disputes and heated arguments anymore. it just seems like, everyone is just utterly disappointed.

u know i really regretted saying that "i mean nothing in his eyes." to my mom. cause her reply really shocked me. i tell u i seriously didn know what to say to her back. i felt really stupid and dumb. shawn, think before you speak please.

and i wasnt angry with my dad. i was just, real sad about how things are. like its no longer that sense of irresponsibility but just the sigh. i went to the toilet and prayed for him that night, and i felt so much emptiness and, i duno.

AND i must say i was kinda affected by it in school the other day. BUT okay at least i learn how to stay positive i guess. ay i duno. i feel like there's so much more that can be done but, there's nothing left to do.

you know i really want you guys to see what im doing in church. i really want you guys to hear about how my life changed. i realised why you probably dont see my life change because you neva really knew me even before.

and i really want you guys to experience it for yourselves, to see it for yourselves. why i do what i do; who i really am.

Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way

the shadow proves the sunshine.