Monday, April 30, 2007
12:33 AM
dead tired! been a really long and tiring week. and i cant believe the weekend's over again.
i tried to use the techniques learnt in vocal classes to sing properly on stage on sat. haha but aiyah still lost my voice in the end.
AND we finally went jamming today. goodness its been so so so long. the last time we jammed was for the ex cube service. brought shaneypants93 along today. haha he's so pro goodness for a sec 2 kid. eh boy must be humble okay, long way to go! had a real fun time remixing stars by switchfoot and doing mcfly medley, with the extended solos and stuff.
haha okay it left me totally without a voice, and all of us half-deaf. we didnt know whether we were making alot of noise just be simply talking cause we could hardly hear ourselves.
ay we got to come to a conclusion on what to jam. haha one wants indie, one wants Red Hot Chili Peppers, one wants Christian alternative(of which im strongly in favour!) and one just neva moves on from mcfly. haha!
ay im real sleepy and tired.
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." - Matthew 6:33
Saturday, April 28, 2007
12:14 AM
such a long past few days its been.
and i kept my stomach empty, not having my dinner, so that i could have supper with the new ajc dude after service practice, but he couldnt make it in the end lah.
so bought fast-food back as my dinner.
i was really hungry, and just so so so tired, drained physically.
then while walking through my neighbourhood, at around 12am sharp. i looked up into the sky and i saw a...
big beautiful SHOOTING STAR!!!
haha goodness it was really a beautiful sight. i was like, WAH!! God Your heavens are beautiful!
haha okay so i made a wish, not that i believe in wishes from seeing a shooting star or something. but just for the fun or it lah. yeah okay initially i didnt wanna like tell you guys what my wish is but then since im nice and have nothing to hide, i shall let you all in on my very big secret that u all have been dying to know..
"Lord, help me be commited to You in whatever situation im in. Take me through this race, till the very end."
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
10:02 PM
okay whoever that posted that tag post on my tagboard, thanks alot dude. haha. its like a confirmation of God's word for me today.
you know as i was settling stuff with God today in school, and like planning for the CG later. i seriously felt a very, like strong spiritual desire. like there's that something that just aint there. i guess i just needed to be refreshed and recharged again. reminded of why i do what i do. i wanted to have the spiritual flame burning brightly. like you know.
psalm 130. God spoke to me.
i especially like verse 6,
"My soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning."
And im so thankful for CG today. haha i really shared my heart out with the guys today, and so did they. let's build towards our dream CG shall we, and let's build such strong and bibilical fellowship, shining like stars of the universe to the pre-believers. i must say im REALLY REALLY proud to be part of this team with u guys. haha gosh. what a great priviledge it is, to be called to be in this together. we got the whole eternity ahead of us yeah!
ahh!! thank You Lord. thank You for Your unfailing love.
everything falls into place eh?
You picked me up when i am down and on my own.
12:39 AM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
11:43 PM
okay i think things in the family reached a point where, its no longer disputes and heated arguments anymore. it just seems like, everyone is just utterly disappointed.
u know i really regretted saying that "i mean nothing in his eyes." to my mom. cause her reply really shocked me. i tell u i seriously didn know what to say to her back. i felt really stupid and dumb. shawn, think before you speak please.
and i wasnt angry with my dad. i was just, real sad about how things are. like its no longer that sense of irresponsibility but just the sigh. i went to the toilet and prayed for him that night, and i felt so much emptiness and, i duno.
AND i must say i was kinda affected by it in school the other day. BUT okay at least i learn how to stay positive i guess. ay i duno. i feel like there's so much more that can be done but, there's nothing left to do.
you know i really want you guys to see what im doing in church. i really want you guys to hear about how my life changed. i realised why you probably dont see my life change because you neva really knew me even before.
and i really want you guys to experience it for yourselves, to see it for yourselves. why i do what i do; who i really am.
Storm clouds gathering beside mePlease Lord, don't look the other way
the shadow proves the sunshine.
Monday, April 16, 2007
1:32 AM
you know what, i give up trying to be your friend. just be that way alright.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
5:00 PM
did i dream this belief
or did i believe this dream
now i can find relief
i grieve
Monday, April 09, 2007
10:02 PM
okay the new structure is out. guys, give me your best and i promise to give you mine. not because i say so, but because God is worthy.
nobody said it was easy.
no one ever said it would be so hard.
i'm going back to the start.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
2:06 PM
don't you see, don't you see, that the charade is over?
and you fake it hard enough to please everyone,
or anyone at all.. or anyone at all.
you've been asking me to bleed.
it seems these kinds of questions, they come too easy to you now.
you hold on to your stories, and I'm not privy to what is on your mind.
but I cannot help but feel tired, so tired, so tired.
Saturday, April 07, 2007
11:45 PM
easter service today. thought everything was awesome, esp steven's drawing to accompany the song Why sang by pastor shirley. it was very very touching, very well done. and our group saw new faces today like leo, yixiang, sijie, and this ajc j1 and nyjc j1 whom i havent met yet.
went to sentosa after, and haha guys im so proud of you all. won like $20 worth of Haagen-Dazs vouchers but gave half of it to the sisters grp. well they did help us win one game after all lah. haha. adidas voucher, swensens voucher, ben & jerry's voucher, and haagen-dazs voucher.. whats next man!
i guess all that trouble carrying the guitar to service and sentosa finally paid off when we like left the island.
was like just randomly taking out the guitar and playing songs at the entrance of the train station at vivo, like since we settled down there to slack and stuff. then this woman came up to me from behind and said, "do u wanna sing for us?" then i turned around and saw this woman like thinking why she being so random. so i went like, "you want us to?" then she said sure and went to off the hi-fi set. then as i turn ard i saw steven and debbie's jaw drop, and they told me she was the OWNER of 77 street.. haha goodness. okay, it was kinda scary lah. and so weird.
okay so we gathered and did some praise and worship songs. and she even sang along to one way lah. haha oh well. you guys we very sporting man haha! okay and i managed to take a picture with her.
oh well. then she asked us what church are we from. i told her hope chuch singapore but she was like where? okay so i doubt she knows.
anyway, happy easter everybody!
1:27 AM
aaaahhhh! my heart's overjoyed i cant contain it.
im expecting something great from You Lord!
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
12:16 AM
Sorrow came to visit us today
Was the longest day, was the loneliest day
Sorrow came to steal our hope away
Only tears can tell
Of this holy hour
This mountain's high, too high for us
This mountain's high, too high for us
Sorrow came quicker than a fire
Was the longest day, was the loneliest day
I feel your hand, the warmth, your sweetest smile
But you slipped away, through the great divide
This mountain's high, too high for us
This mountain's high, too high for us
Your ways are high, too high for us
Your ways are high, too high for us
come on family, you can pull through this.
the shadow proves the sunshine.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
12:07 AM
haha fine.
my phone was supposed to be spoilt so i could ask him for the time. and so how am i suppose to ask for his contact then?
lol!
12:05 AM
I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within
I lay it all down for the sake of you my King
I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life
And I surrender all to you, all to you
And I surrender all to you, all to you
I'm singing You this song, I'm waiting at the cross
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss
For the sake of knowing You for the glory of Your name
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain
