several ways to die trying.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

12:04 AM

today, is perhaps one of the most eventful, and in a way, terrible day of the year.

okay it started out with me waking up, kinda late to meet the guys. so i got my mom to fetch me to bishan mrt, or else i would just like take a bus to novena or newton to train down to somerset from there.

okay so basically i was plugged in with my new headphones, listening to complete by parachute band, preparing my heart for service, with full assurance it was gonna be an awesome day.

okay so i went down bishan mrt, and there was this man, probably about 21 yrs old, wearing a red polo tee with high pants. he had dyed hair gel-ed neatly to the back of his head. then he looked at me and waved hi, revealing teeth that looks rotten.

okay so i thought i new this guy, probably my mom's friend or something, or some contractor, so being nice and friendly i waved and smiled back. and like continue walking across the platform with my headphones plugged in.

and then from the corner of my eye i saw him approaching me. so i didnt think much, probably someone whom i forgot that wants to catch up or something. so he started off by asking where i was going. i said church. he went,

He: "which church?"

Me: "oh hope church."

He: "what you doing after that?"

Me: "oh going home"

at this point of time i started to really wonder if i knew him.

Me: "where did i like meet u before?"

He: *silence with some murmuring* "where do you live?"

Me: "around here. do i even know you?"

He: *more silence* "where do you study?"

okay i was now fully convinced that i was talking to a total stranger. it seemed rather scary lah. i duno its just strange.

Me: "sajc."

okay at this point of time i was really feeling rather disturbed by this fella. and then he insisted to give me his phone number so that i can ask him out when i was free. like for what lah!? u are a grown man and why u wanna go out with a teenager like me. okay so i took out my phone to like pacify him, then as i was pressing the keys, i turned to one side away from him lah. and he LEANED over to make sure i was typing it in, and even corrected me when i made an error in his number. Peter, was his name.

okay i was real reluctant to have his number. and THEN, he just had to, ask for my contact. i told him i dont think so. that i felt uncomfortable giving him my contact cause we just met. and he kept insisting that i give him my number, and boy how he manages to say it without ever needing to close his mouth. he told me to give him my contact so that we could go out and have fun together. i told him no, and that IF i was free i would contact him to "go out and have fun."

i was really freaked out lah. this was getting outta hand seriously.

then the train came, i thought it did be all over. when he FOLLOWED ME IN. and then he did the most disgusting thing that i can imagine him to do (okay not really lah i have a rather good imagination). while continueing to pester me for my phone number. he literally looked down at my God knows where and looked up to stare at my eyes and continued doing that. WAH I WAS FREAKED OUT. and then he kept staring lah i was so on the verge of smacking him. i even had to use my hand to cover okay. haha come to think of it i should have used my bag. i was tempted to like just grab someone in the train to pretend to be like my friend and to be busy with some conversation so that he could just be ignored. i contemplated to stop at some other stop but then dismissed the idea when i figured he might just follow me out and then i wont know where to go.

i didnt even wanna get my phone cause i dont want him leaning over again.

so i just kinda let people fill in between us. i msged kaiwen ask where he was lah. hoped he would be at somerset to rescue me. stupid fella didnt reply. and the rest of the guys were probably at S11 already, which they were not. okay and then he just randomly waved to this other guy who boarded at toapayoh. i should have done what the guy did lah, just shrug him off. so much for being friendly lah sheesh. okay so finally i just ignored him and i guess he probably gave up asking me for my contact. he alighted AT SOMERSET too. and walked off. i siezed the opportunity to exit the train through the other door.

i dragged my footsteps so that he could like go first lah. then he like turned and stared down the escalator to the platform at me and gave me that smile. wad crap lah i felt like dying. i didnt take that escalator and took the stairs. then he walked off in the same direction as church was.

okay. honestly i was really traumatised. esp the part at the staring thingy in the train. i met with gays before but not this extreme lah seriously.

okay back to more spiritual stuff. i thought believer's gathering, service, and gideon's councelling workshop today was awesome. i really learnt ALOT and im real grateful for it. can feel the fire and passion in serving God man. even though it was a real tiring day of copying notes i felt it was really spiritually lifting and encouraging. and by the time it was shirley's CLM at 7pm i was feeling kinda tired lah. oh well it ended at 9pm and then debbie's coreteam went for dinner.

apparently all that hinting is finally taking place in the coming restructuring. actually i duno how to feel lah. having real mixed feelings. its like so sudden, im not ready for this. still so much things to do, so many areas to grow. restructuring for growth? i certainly feel the urgency now.

wake up your idea shawn!