a big thank you to all who made the effort to wish me a happy birthday!! apparently it was real happy since i spend majority of the day at macs somewhere in amk mugging! haha. yup really appreciate you guys. i wanna thank..

Qianjin for being the earliest (1 over week early) to wish me and give me my present. kimberly for being 4 days early with my birthday card, my class for spending money for the cakes! you guys are great. and daryl, kokting, hooper, yonghui who happily smash cake on my face and uniform. and all those peeps who messaged me, colleen, olivia, melcher, minqi, kah fai, nicholas, zhi qiang, big shaun, meixing, huiying, zixin, luke, thaddeus, nigel, katarina, emmeline, shirnee, abbas, zhiwei, amanda, jeslin, charlene, deborah, david, davin, sumahdi from america, leqi and her friend, canice, michael, jency, angie, alvin, erina, chantel, jolene, ivan, shepherd gideon, andy, jason, siew luan, and my family! and i hope i didnt forget anyone!

and for monica, katie, yanyi, michelle, melcher, keith, zhexuan, wenhui, angelyn and izyan, who wrote me friendster testimonials to wish me.

haha i know probably more than half of you peeps wont even be seeing this but anyhow, thanks for everything! appreciate you guys remembering!

and for martin, rayson, and big shaun who surprised me by visiting my house with this whole big plastic bag of durians! lol gosh my fridge is like flooded with durians now. and thanks for that awesomely cool guitar strap and the strap shoulder guard whatever u call it. REALLY appreciate you people! and btw its the first time anyone came over to my house uninvited. HAHA!

and to my beloved family, and sister especially, who thinks im dumb. haha she wrote, no drew, me a letter and put it in the letterbox. of which is opened it herself and pass it to me saying there's a letter for me. written on the top with ugly handwriting was my full name and "IMPORTANT: MUST READ. LETTER FROM SCHOOL." HAHA! oh pls lah! my sch wont send me a letter with a sunflower stamp that is drawn! haha okay she's awesomely cute. OH yeah. which reminds me. i yet to open the letter. haha okay i shall soon.

and then she used her own pocket money to buy me this bottle of Allswell Water Chestnut Sugar Cane Drink. haha how sweet of her. i tell ya she's the sweetest girl ever.

and not forgetting.. MY CAREGROUP!! haha thanks for all the birthday wishes and being there for me all these while.

and thank you to anyone i probably have missed out.

okay enough of thanking. basically i spend my birthday sleeping and studying. ah promos lah such a distraction to life! mugged into the night and slept at 7am! awesome that's close to breaking my record, just 30 mins away. then slept till it was time for CG.

yes i cant stress enough. we're gonna grow for God okay. 18 by end Nov, and we're gonna make it happen. the year's coming to and end soon aint got time left. J2s!! come on!! haha. study hard and serve God hard people. take care of yourself and lean onto God for strength through this time!

Your Glory, Jesus one touch of Your glory.
I lift up my hands and sing holy,
Holy is the Lord.

realised i've been leaving this page alone for so many days already. yeah in case u dont know already, my promos start in 2 days time. and with a cry of desperateness, i totally prayed with every ounce of conviction i could master at prayermeet earlier today, for God to make me feel stressed, for God to impress upon me this burden to study! its like i've been putting off my studying, and sub-conciously telling myself there's still time left. God, please come and shake me awake!! 2 days to study everything is a lack of time. sheesh.

AND i had no idea that my dad was in bangkok, thailand these past few days till my mom told me 2 nights ago. honestly i feel real bad not even noticing my dad's absence. sometimes i wonder whether or not i do actually care about my parents, especially my dad. it's not just saying it. i mean it. its like we are able to live totally separated lives despite being in the same family.

and i just found out today too that i would very much probably have met rayson way back when i was a K2 kid. we were talking bout music and stuff as we left his house after watching dream theater, when we realised that we took piano classes as kids at the same place! Yahama at Hougang, the one near the NTUC. and how we would perhaps had even known each other! i asked him if he recalled a kid who was always late for classes (cause i did cry and not want to go as i totally hated it). haha and we realised that we both hated the piano lessons, but were forced by our parents into it. so at the end of the day, i quit at grade 2 after my mom gave up on sending me there, while rayson being submissive to his parents continued to grade 8. ah regret!

been thinking of stuff lately. aiyah like who doesnt think. i wondered what would make a song impactful, what brings a song close to people's hearts. what makes an honest song. and u know what? typing all these make me remember the book of Psalm in the bible. a honest book yeah? i guess its really in the words, in the lyrics. at least it seems that way to me. maybe that's why dashboard confessional, jimmy eat world, switchfoot, lifehouse, etc. appeals so much to me. haha not doing any advertising here though. and reuben morgan songs too! waiting here totally describes how i feel lah.


"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." - Psalm 139:23-24


Let me go home.

and after all that practice.. it was just so hilarious on stage yesterday!!

the day started off with matthias smsing me that dreaded sms "jialat. ethan say just imagine the last string not there." !!!! i couldnt believe it!!! just last night at 12am i had that weird feeling that we are not gonna be able to get a 4-string bass, so i smsed kaiwen and he just said, "pray la". haha apparently i forgot all about it, and wahla! next thing u know, it came true!! ah neva take a warning from God lightly man! ethan was indeed using his 5-string bass guitar that day. okay so after an hour or so panicking.. huiying saved the day by calling daryl to bring down his 4-string bass, deliberately making the detour from the bus-stop back to his house to get it.

we started off with spongebob theme song. haha oh man crazy bunch of people in the audience, screaming their lungs out to spongebob! and when the song ended it finally came down to me doing the intro for our performance at metamorphosis. and it isnt really a north-east band since shane's from north and rayson's from central. and just when i was done with "..let's do it!" i turned around to see kaiwen on the the other end of the stage looking real stress back at me and shaking his head. AND it then dawned on me that... his guitar wasn't able to produce any sound!! okay so we waited quite abit, and i kinda thought to myself the idea the smooth starting was kinda gone. but the wait just seemed to grow and extend as we're trying to figure out how come the guitar couldnt start even though it was working perfectly fine just bout 10 mins ago.

so i started entertaining the audience with, "tell your neighbour.. you look great today." haha. and how fun it is to see all of them do as i said. haha. then matt started to kill the ice and buy time by doing some knock knock joke with me on stage. what yong tau who? yong tau fu!!! i didnt get the joke till like 3 hrs after the performance when we were reviewing it lah.

haha oh well. what exactly happened was ian took away the distrotion peddle and unplugged kaiwen's guitar to practice for meta concert later on in the day, forgetting that kaiwen's gonna need it to perform in like 5 mins later. oh well cant really blame anyone.

and it was real fun on stage, and my 6 days bass career finally paid off! personally i think that we did an awesome job, even though it was definitely better during our jamming sessions. oh well. we all learn and grow through experience amen!?

the scariest thing was.. shane was playing behind the drum screen, and he aint know how to use the headphones!! so u was like playing while barely hearing us. wah its a one nerve-wrecking job to do man.

met zhuwen the non-believer from yjc. who came down for metamorphosis concert mainly cause he wanted to join a band as a drummer. yeah great guy nice to meet him. haha interesting fellow lah. boy i hope u experience the love of Christ with us one day!! yeah making music is fun, but seriously, making and doing music for the Lord, is really fulfilling.

i was really tired by the time metamorphosis concert started. and i was really touched by God's presence. so simple, yet so profound. so tangible, so heart-warming. child-like faith yeah. child-like faith. it seems like God knows how to move in a whole near way each time we worship Him. haha yeah ah you Christians know what i mean lah.

so indescribable.

woke up early this morning to go down to nexus to help uncle desmond with spring cleaning of the church. thank God for luke who volunteered to come down with me to help out after much persuasion. haha. we cleared and rearranged the whole storeroom at america room, and then proceeded to polish the holy com trays. wah it was definitely tiring! and desmond kindly treated us to kfc lunch! hey its not cheap treating about 9 of us okay. thank you uncle desmond!!

then luke and i went down to bishan library to study. met melcher, davin, jason, and michael alim there. oh met the SR J2s there too. studied for bout an hour and half before i left for home to pick up my sis.

yes for the first time in my whole entire life i was gonna bring my sis out all by mrself! haha amen. officially the big brother! my church had this zoohunt thingy organised for children aged 7-12. so my sis is 8 haha so yeah why not.

rushed my sis down to the bus-stop to wait for the cab that kaiwen and his bro was taking. haha my sis is like so girl lah, take such a long time to get ready. together kaiwen me, his bro and my sis cabbed down to nexus. yeah oh i forgot to mention his bro's same age as my sis! cool eh.

went down, and registered my sis up for the event. met yuqian there too with her two cousins and her aunt or mom i cant recall. haha then we went it. it was really fun lah. all those noisy kids and stuff. haha and the jokes we were really funny cause it was so childish!! and like how u score pts in the form of bananas! no joke! haha super hilarious when they get a real small small kid to complete with the bigger kid, like 7 yrs old against a 12 yr old. haha. it was real funny lah. OH and they had awesome praise! i didnt know hope kids united does King of Majesty! and their praise is so action-packed and dancey! was telling my sis it was Hi-Five in Singapore. yeah pity she's smart enough not to believe me. oh and i cant believe kaiwen's bro won some prize just through registration form. haha not unbiblical Lucky Draw but Blessing Dip!!

oh Happy Birthday Pastor Jeff!!

God take me to another level of knowing You.



You see the depth of my heart and You love me the same.

You are amazing God.

okay just to update you guys. metamorphosis is coming and yeah we are scheduled to play for meta. had a bit of hiccups over the choosing of the song. thought that be my escape by relient k wasnt the best choice of songs as it was just a good song. thought the lyrics was too indirect for it to be an impactful Christian alternative song for the newbelievers. though perhaps something by lifehouse or switchfoot would be better. but oh well. after all that fuss and contemplation, the song is settled as be my escape.

i guess the biggest challenge for me was to play bass this time, and like learn it in 7 days then. couldnt really practice cause i aint got a bass guitar at home. and the greater challenge was strumming bass!! mute-ing(if there's such a word) and strumming the thick thick strings can be quite a challenge. oh well. but its cool okay. bass is cool. haha. and we got a drummer to fill in Chris for the moment, since he has bio stuff plagued the whole of wed. ah sad lah! i really want him to be down for meta. oh the drummer's shane form east i think. yeah he's real good for his age. haha we cant get over the fact that he's only sec 1 lah.

oh and we found this real cool jamming studio at tampines near where shane lives. cause the cool thing bout this jamming studio is its a Christian one!! with autographed SONICFLOOd and Reuben Morgan posters. yeah the uncle and aunty running the place was real nice to us. came and sit in with our pracs and stuff. and gave us an extra 30 mins today, and charged us a discounted price the first time we went even though the promotion date was over. cool eh!? oh and he sorta brought us into his secret chamber at the back. haha where he had this room which he specially set apart as the prayer room. and how he told us he believed that making Christian music should be well balanced with prayer. nice brothers and sisters we have out there!

come to think of it. this whole holiday week is really packed with stuff. OH and how great our church's gonna merge the two youth services and have study groups in the morning, haha how timely.

gonna take my sis down to church this thursday for that zoo-hunt thingy wadeva it is. haha. some peeps dressed up in animal costumes or wadeva. i realised this should be the first time im gonna take my sis out all by myself. haha watch the brotherliness in me man!

oh yeah. we finally came out with a much cooler band name than present A.M. Static...

guys, get ready for... Steadfall!

HAHA i dont care what u say it sounds cool okay.