talked to Gideon about joining soccer. AND im faced with yet another another ANOTHER very tough decision to make. gosh man do these big decisions ever stop appearing. first it was about rising to be a CL. then decising on what would be the wiser choice of JC for the PAE for ministry sake. AJ or SAJC. And then the very tough decision on whether or not to remain in SAJC for ministry sake, or to follow my parents wishes. Then came the major decision on whether or not to pull out of council to serve effectively as a CL, which left many teachers having a different opinion of me. and then now.. the decision on whether or not to remain in soccer. sheesh lah.

i just learnt recently, that there's soccer practice 3 times a week and matches on saturday. WHY DIDNT I KNOW ABOUT THIS EARLIER!!! this is so sad cause i have church and meetings every saturday too. and there isnt a chance im gonna miss service and meeting my guys every week. oh man. and i hope soccer doesnt clash with CG activites too, and not to mention leave me no more time for studies. ah this sucks lah. i hate making such big decisions. i hate knowing i have to sacrifice something for something else.

and the thing is, i always wanted to play soccer for my school. back in the good old days.

now you see, definitely if soccer compromises serving God its a definite no to soccer yeah. surely that would be my answer. it did just be too irresponsible of me to miss service, meetings, and worse of all, to miss meeting my guys every saturday just cause of soccer. ah ah ah!! God give me 48 hours a day man.

Gideon asked me whether i ever thought of why God placed so many of such big decisions in my life. Perhaps God wants me to learn to make my own decisions and take ownership and know why i choose to do certain things. Perhaps it's because i aint grapsed this whole lesson fully yet.

then Gideon told me what situation he saw me being placed in with his gift of knowledge sometime in the near future. then would it be so that God is preparing me for it?

AH! just let me rest.



went over to kaiwen's house with the intention to jam. but ended up composing our very own worship song. way cool man. wrote the whole song, song structure, lyrics, melody, and all ourselves. one day when we perfect it we would like let u guys hear or something haha.