yes i know im indecisive. but i guess this time i make my own decision, i guess this time i decided. you know the last time i was face with such a tough decision was about 2-3 months ago, on whether i should stay on in sajc, or move to ajc. a real stressful time that was, and i guess i decided to stay in sajc after much much much consideration. see here's where i suck at. making decisions, esp those major ones.

i had been deciding over the past few days. and i finally make my decision today. you may have been one of those who came and ask me why i aint campaigning, why i aint doing anything. im not lazy okay, im not arrogant okay. i just want to be sure of what im doing and why im doing things. yes, im deciding to not push for council anymore. yeah i know, its a stupid decision, its a dumb choice to make, especially in this stage of the council elections. but do hear me out before u pass any judgements.

i guess the main reason for me wanting to withdraw from council is due to commitments sake. i thought it through, what gideon discussed with me, what matthias told me, and what everyone else said. and yes, i did choose to serve as a cell leader in church, and im not regretting this decision. and so yes, there are things that i certainly have to sacrifice, and one of those things is time. and in this case, council. yeah, if i werent a cell leader i guess i would have gone ahead with council. and i dont make this decision out of a spark of passion or sorts, i know where my conviction lies in. and i guess i see more value in serving God over just serving the school. and also, i seriously doubt i can cope with my studies, family, God, personal life, council(should i join) and all, especially since i got ultra bad time management. gotta excel in them too yeah.

it isnt an easy decision to make, and i know the implications that comes with it. i know its more than just fore-going what might be a good testimonial, what might be a once in a lifetime experience, and what would be strong friendships that could be cast. i know it's gonna be unfair for those who wanted to get into council but didnt get pass interview, and i apologise for that. and i know very well it's gonna invite remarks like its cowardice, and im just saying all these in case i do not get in. but if it's one thing that i learnt during this growing stage, it would be to place God above anything and everything else, and above self.


"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." - Matthew 6:33


yup and i needed somehow tell my parents about my decision to quit council. okay maybe not, i just probably tell them i didnt get pass the voting round. they dont really want me to spend so much time with regards to church activities, much less serve the church, and choose it over council.

i just pray that it's the best choice. i just pray that it's the right choice. to be fair to the others i shant say not to vote for me in my speech. guess i would give the platform speech a miss too if possible. yeah and i guess i would apologise to the class and explain my decision, and ask them not to vote for me, hopefully they would understand la. ah honestly im rather afraid of this decision, aint know what's in store for me.