it was a real long day in school, with sch ending with PE like about 4.30pm. had captain's ball against 06S15, and well i guess everyone enjoyed themselves.

met martin and melcher at cityhall after that, to go bag shopping. apparently i saw this bag davin had which looked real cool when he carried it. haha. problem is, it isnt really a school bag. okay its more like a traveller's luggage bag, and it cost $59!! okay its totally a want, not a need. and i kinda used the remaining $50 from the red packet my aunt gave me for my results to pay for the bag, and topped up the rest. yeah she said to go get something i wanted so yup.

went to burger king to slack abit while i made up my mind on the bag. used martin's laptop to scroll through the old photos of our cg, camp, etc. gosh time really flies and i mean it. once when we were that phase in our lives, and now we are like all here.

well im like real indecisive okay. walked around and walked around before finally deciding that i should get the bag. ah i guess i just cant make up my mind. subconciously i know that i want the bag, but then i needed convince myself that i really want to!

okay so i finally got the bag, and we strolled down citylink. melcher had this bio molecules test tml that he had to study for, so he was heading back home early i guess.

as then we started talking, i started sharing. you know i seriously do feel that ever since i entered JC, started the year 2006, my spiritual life has been staggering, and many a times, downwards. i feel that, i know that i have lost that level of passion and hunger, that child-like faith that i had as compared to last year. im real tired and drained trying to climb up to that height again, it almost seems like its impossible to reach. i want to be there again. i want to be able to share the Gospel with such conviction and faith. i want to do it without even feeling a hint of any other attitude besides love. Sure, i do know that God is near, i do know that God invites me into His presence. But tell me, how near am i to God right at this moment? Draw me closer to You O Lord.

i really miss the days i had last year, where there was someone in the school to turn to for spiritual input and support. i had melcher and i guess to a certain extend michael to talk to in class. like when you are feeling down and out, u just need someone in your school to give u that dose of spiritual strength and support. it's not so much about spiritual guidance or opinion, its just that assurance and understanding that someone knows your through and through is there for you. sure there are sa peeps form hope, but time table doesnt permit much interaction ya see. so its like, its such a tiring process really. to think that i was in JC group since last year, and when its finally my turn to play on the pitch, i aint as ready for it. it's really so much different ya know, to have someone to turn to in school.

so we shared about how we felt in our different schools, different environments, and shared about how we felt about our spiritual lives too. i realised that we all aint really doing as well spiritually, compared to last year. Don't you die on me brother. i feel so stagnant. apart of me is crying out for a breakthrough, the other half is questioning the ways about doing it. this got to change!! yes it shall, i duno how but im gonna keep believeing that God has so much more install for us.

went to the shelter near my house with martin to share more, and played guitar and stuff. okay, not much happened till this police car with flashing lights came driving down the very same lane as the last time we got "stopped". well but this time, they got out of the car and came walking towards us. they asks us for our IDs and all, but left my wallet at home earlier so had to write down my particulars for them on a piece of paper. they took our phones and checked the serial number, and tallied it with their database, probably to see if they were stolen phones. then used our IC to check if we were some black-listed juvenile delinquents or something.

But i kinda had a good time chatting with them. realised that they do patrol my neighbourhood like, i guess every night. they said it was alright for us to stay out late, even after midnight, like since we lived nearby and stuff. kinda close one eye for us i guess. and kinda joked that i call them if i see anything suspicious. sheesh they had to continue their rounds lah or else we probably would love to have them join us. like the more the merrier man. haha oh well.