so i didnt go to sch today, but went down to RC instead for the sec 4s prayer meet. had worship and all. i guess it was ministering, everyone was nervous and uptight bout the results. but Gideon pointed it out very clearly that whatever the results is, we know that it's part of God's best plan for us. and that we can rejoice cause we know that God is giving us the best plans for our lives, we can rejoice just because of we know who holds our tomorrow.

so we had the debrief and stuff, and the sec 4s left for their schools. i stayed back with kaiwen for abit, i mean our school's only like a 15 mins walk. low and behold, at around 2.15pm, melcher called to tell me that the principal had started the O level results speech. i was like just packed my guitar and all, and ran down to school. indeed we were abit late and all.

really kinda warm to see everyone back again, esp in school uniform. and to see the teachers and everybody. the principal announced that our school did quite well, had like an average of 12.3 for L1R5. okay maybe not that well for other schools, but its good for a neighbourhood sch okay.

okay to cut matters short, blah blah blah, and it was finally my turn to get the results. yeah if u recall that how i really took an amazing number of risks and all, and how i screwed up here and there. i kinda told my friends, parents, and myself that i would get probably 12-14, but i had no absolute idea really, and that if i get below 10, it cant be me. i dont deserve it, it would certainly be God's grace.

yeah so it was my turn. haha yeah fine im getting to it. i kinda went to get my results with some kind of nervous yet un-nervous attitude. my form teacher and my bio teacher was there to give our class our results. then the moment i went there, i saw these two pairs of very disappointed faces staring at me. then my form teacher said, "you got to prepare yourself for the results." in mandarin, so i was like quite stun, and my teachers like asked me to sit down first. then they went, "you got to prepare yourself mentally." and looked down. i was like too shatalaba to digest what they are saying. so they asked why i came in so late, where did i go before this. i said i went for sec 4s prayermeet, which lead to my bio teacher saying something God. haha okay i cant remember. they sent forth the message that i did real badly, and they took an awfully long time with me compared to the others. they asked me what range would i think i get, i said 12-14, and that i really didnt know.

"you got to prepare your heart and mind. are u ready for this?"

wah fine i cant stand them. yes they were pulling my leg. haha stupid. cant believe even teachers do this sorta thing. i did much better than expected, and i thank God for that. i had 7 pts for L1R5. A1s for L1 and R1, two math and bio, A2s for Chem and Phy, and of course Chinese B4. and my bio teacher was like saying to my form teacher, "this fella, every saturday skips half of my bio pratical to go and pray to the one above(she meant for service). this time, looks like the one above likes him and answered his prayers" haha i was quite stunned lah. coz was like i looked at the paper. dont quite register. saw two number 8s below, thought its my score, but read it to say its the number of subjects i took, and the other number of subjects graded 6 or better. dont quite register. haha fine i was erm, confused on what to feel.

looking back, and looking through my results. i realised that God really has His way about things. let me bring you back to about May last year. when my form teacher like talked to me one to one, coz i did something stupid, and she knew that i was a Christian and had quite alot of church stuff to attend to. i recall very vividly, she asked me whether has Christ really changed me. i turned to her and said it right at her, yes. then we talked more and she said that she believes in the bible, and that maybe one day she would accept Christ personally as well. i thought about what she said about me needing to balance my time well, and told me that im sure that if there is a God, He would want me to do well in my studies too.

i thought about how on the many saturdays, i tried to persuade my bio teacher to let me off for service, and how i promised her i would do well for bio in the Os. how she told me that as a student i should be more responsible towards my studies, and place it before anything else, esp since that period of time was like a month before Os.

i thought about how my parents were seriously against me serving God during the O level period. and how i went for caregroup till very late in the evening, reaching home at around 10+ in the evening. and how they made it very clear that at this rate i would certainly screw my Os.

then it suddenly struck me, that in a very comforting way i guess, how God answered my prayers. on how He remains so faithful to me, during this time. and how He responds to what i am fasting for. yes in case u do not know, im fasting and would be breaking fast today. i fasted mainly for my family, praying that God would come in and give my family a breakthrough, in terms of the problems that are incurring in it.

now that with my results He gave. it all makes sense. it comes into picture. on how you serve God to your best, study to your best, God wont short-change you, knowing that even if u didnt do well, its His bestest plan for you! so whats there really to worry bout. i aint getting prideful, no way. i showed my teachers that Christians can serve God and study as well. its like a testimony, on how i was once bottom 6 or 8 in level, and how my rotten attitude sucked so badly, on how God changed me, on how He picked me up from whereever i was. this would change my parents prespective on me serving God i guess, on how its possible to excel in both areas, studies and serving God. at least there's no reason to come dressing me down that its coz of me serving in church. at least right now, i can serve God to a larger extend and scale with more freedom and less persecutions. at least right now, they see the life im leading.

and so the prophecy came true. remember during our december church camp, how pastor shirley prophecised that this year's O levels and A levels graduates would set the bench mark, would surpass all previous records. and that there's gonna be a breakthrough in our studies. yes many of us servants and children of God did well.

so you all may be wondering, do i deserve it? No i dont. yes i can tell you that i dont deserve it. i guess God's being over gracious to me, but im sure He has His reasons. it now seems that God is putting me through another important decision i have to make. on which route im gonna take. my mom is strongly encouraging me to go to like VJC or NJC, okay fine, she wants me to go there. but in a way im reluctant to leave North-East, and also SAJC has no J1 brothers. it would be in a sense not very wise to leave like that. decisions, choices, yes for once i gotta decide.

my form teacher was like okay, quite really moved i think. i duno she seemed real touched. haha she just like came over to me, while i was on the phone, and went to like mess my hair up playfully. haha yeah wadeva man. really hope that one day she would come to know the meaning in her life. the meaning and purpose of life. and that one day, she would come to know the saving grace of Lord Jesus Christ.