realised that i dont blog as frequently as before. well okay i shant let this website just rot away. God's been speaking to me much recently. yes and i learnt what it means to really give my life to God and at the same time, live life to the fullest. feels like i've been stretched lots lately, not as in just to feel so worn out, but at the same time, stretched to grow and mature more in God.
ah im just so grateful for everything, yes for everything. Lord, teach me to rejoice in every and any kind of circumstance.

had the first valentine's service today, well and guess what the teaching was about? Sex and Spirituality. not the normal sunday topic you did find in a church. yes but its an issue that even God addresses in the bible, so we wont and cant just ignore it esp since teenage promiscuity and such stuff is on the rise all around us.

you did probably be expecting a sermon on what we mustn't do, and rules and regulations. nah that isnt what the sermon is about. that isn't what God is about. God gives us freewill, knowing true love cant be forced. rules and regulations makes up a religion, not a loving and personal relationship with God. instead it was more about why we should wait and the biblical perspectives behind sex and spirituality. and the goodness that God has install for us. the final decision? Judge for yourselves whether it is right in God's sight to obey the world rather than God.

It works along the same context as BGR. the world says, "yes, its hip and cool." i give up the dating game so i can focus on serving God, and its more to that. true love shouldn't be all about seeking acceptance, or about wanting security. it's being unfair to both parties, depriving each other of the chance of a perfect and loving relationship with a perfect and loving God. Lord, i trust in Your plans for my life. i wait in Your hope, to understand sincere love, real purity, and purposeful singleness. show me Your ways so that i can be fully accountable and just to the people around me.

you know as we went on through the service. it was just so heartwarming to realise that God gives us a place and family in which can confide in, and trust totally, even stuff like sex and spirituality. thank God for this channel of openness i can, we can, have in His family. i thank God for the shepherd and sheep system we have in our church, in that absolute trust we can have that whatever is shared will be kept within biblical boundaries and comfort. ah thank God.

we're gonna get back our GCE O Level results next week. probably on the 10th of Feb, Friday. i really have no idea what to expect. yes many mistakes and risks i made and took. i really am just so clueless to the grades, whether or not im gonna be able to stay in sajc. i wont feel depressed or rejected if i dont do well. okay maybe i would, but i wont let it get the better of me. yes just gonna accept it and have faith in God's plan for my life. we were like planning a stay over the night before and like praise and worship the whole night. right man to like get our hearts ready or something! i just pray that i can at least stay in sajc, or i would probably go to the other north-east jcs or something. God use me a support for others. I'm trusting and accepting Your plans for my life. i surrender all unto You Lord.

the worship that has been stuck in my head, and i think the lyrics are really meaningful and revelant, especially at this point in time.