im begging for some rest. honestly i feel very run down and i guess overworked. okay much stuff had happened, and been running ard here and there. not much of a time to rest yeah. well at least we are halfway through the week. Christmas week.

let's see i kinda reluctantly went to Pasir Ris yesterday to go to some chalet for Tze Sheng's birthday BBQ. haha okay reluctantly not in mind, but in flesh. as in i am super tired lah. and chalets totally saps the life outta ya.

went there and found that the chalet wasnt much wad we expected. okay its really inside downtown east, not at downtown east. and the chalet was nothing more than a room and a toilet. okay basically its the size of a normal hotel room. and we had like 15 people in our CG, plus his other friends. totally no place lah.

so we walked round downtown east. i guess they were previewing "The Maid" at some movie store. so kinda watched it. pardon me for saying but its a total failure lah. its not even horror okay. its like, thriller or something. haha how do u make a horror movie with the ending like having a mad woman chasing a maid with a knife in her hand, only to get knocked down by an incoming lorry. haha it wasnt a horror show, it was more of a comedy! haha okay lah had a good time laughing at that. well anyway, lets move on.

so went back, and started to bbq. yeah bbq wadeva food we had there. Thank God that there wasnt any strong wind like the other time. and yours faithfully managed to get the fire going. haha okay we kinda over grew the fire so it was like, caveman campfire style instead of glowing red charcoal. but well, like matthias said, "thats wad it looks like on burger king advertisement."

okay i guess that the world always has two sides. i mean like tze sheng's friends were like smoking(i believe they are underage) and stuff, using a colourful range of vulgarites. not that im condeming them, please we dont do that. but it kinda made me aware and remind me, that not everything seems to be as perfect as we did like it to be. so i was thinking, if we dont outreach to these heartlanders, who would? like we cant just let them be and ruin their lives can we. so yeah, anyway i cant help but wonder would i be like that without Christ.

so we BBQ-ed. and so it started to rain. and it rained and rained, so much so that all the other pits were deserted. haha but u see, we just started to BBQ! the marinated chickens didnt even reach the heat yet. yeah so by faith we stayed and prayed and, wha la! the rain stopped, only to come back 20 mins later. haha but by then we had BBQ-ed enough food lah. when the rain came in, surprisingly enough, it didnt extinguish our fire at all. like what!! maybe God knows that we really needed this bbq thingy for the outreach. haha so like when it finally stopped raining we managed to continue.

so blah blah blah. Matthias told me he had to urgently shepherd me, which i kinda guessed why, so decided to go over to his place for the night. hmm.. we had fun lah. sassy's grown man, she's so huge now, but as playful as ever. chasing us and kept licking my toes. we didnt get to eat much for the BBQ. i guess the mentallity was that while we were bbqing, food can just be eaten, as we would have grabbed some food for ourselves. well okay at least i didnt. we didnt lah. so we were like cooking and making ourselves supper.

im sure, none of you here has ever, heard or tried, cooking noodles, in a microwave oven. haha! thats wad we did. eh it tastes awesome really, u should try it one day. just like open the packet and put the noodles in a bowl with water. the just microwave it till 2.20mins. because, Yen can cook, so can you!

we watched "Exocism of Emily Rose" after that. well honestly the reason for watching it was really to like.. i wanted a good scare lah okay! haha that kinda feeling. and we watched it at like 2.45am lah. so the show was like at 3am its when the demons are most active, coz its estimated that at 3pm Jesus died. wad something bout its a way to mock Jesus. didnt hear bout such stuff before, but surely i dont really think its true, as firstly none can be certain that Jesus died exactly at 3pm.

hmm.. they showed how the exocism was done too. and i was really wondering, how can such a demon be so strong. you know in normal circumstances of exocism the moment the priest says "in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, identify yourself." the demon would be forced too, coz after all Christ beat the devil on the cross. so was wondering where is there such a powerful demon. but its true lah most parts of the show. like the counting to 6 as 6 being the imperfect number. yes, and stigmata's are true. u know the markings on emily's hands. yup just google it and u get pictures and stuff. i still remember talking to my bio tuition teacher bout it 3 months earlier. no lah im not asking him to prove it with science, he's a Christian too. so we were like sharing.. haha okay i cant remember alr. but if such an event really exists, wont it be like of evangelistic value. haha we were like saying, there's gonna be an altar call to know Christ at the end. too bad there isnt lah.

well i would say it was more insightful than horror. like we should have watched house of wax instead. but okay im not feeling and suffering the after effects of a horror show now, in fact i seem to be more assured of my position in Christ. honestly speaking, brothers and sisters, the demon can do nothing to harm you, for you are a protected being, a child of God. but surely demon possession do exists and we may get to see some down ahead in our lives. haha okay why am i saying all this rubbish.

aft which we discussed bout the caregroup and stuff. and restructing business for the cg. he kinda told me where i could improve on, and yes it definitely is true. u know when u just get so caught up with serving God that u neglect others.. like your sheep! haha okay okay i will improve! well i think we pin-pointed the reason for the "uncomfortness" we were feeling bout the cg as of late. not saying that our cg is faulty in itself or anything. no, people here do have a heart to serve. u can just look at their faces, its like Christ written all over them. but with the J2s leaving us and stuff we would serverly be short in numbers esp in the coreteam. well we did multiply ourselves and the CG will still remain as a CG. but just that, it seems that we are rather 'directionless'. in the sense that we do know wad we are doing, but arent really taking ownership of what we are doing yet. its like, such stuff definitely requires experience and definitely a certain spiritual maturity. we desperately need to raise up the next J1 generation. haha pressure yes pressure.

gonna be some serious restructuring, and i.. i've changed shepherd again.. okay im definitely fine with it. haha its like my 4th shepherd already. but restructuring is always for growth amen!? so definitely i would be the right way to go about doing stuff. hey coreteam! the pressure is on on your people and me okay. lets really work hard for this group, no longer can we rely on the strengths and talents of the J2s. really its time we take over and take ownership. lets grow this group for the glory of God.!

well went down for housekeeping at church earlier at 11.30am aft receiving an sms needing manpower at like 2am. im so super exhausted, we talked and discussed till 5am. then got up at 9.30am and got back home, changed and went down for to help out at church. honestly speaking im so tired of all these. Not that im tired of helping out in church, no way! just that u know serving God is really no easy task. outreaching, evangelising, mcgs, sowing, caregroup planning, hanging out, coming out of your comfort zone, gathering contacts.. its not just mentally and physically draining, its spiritually draining as well. im like running on wadeva is left in me for this week. sometimes its like i forget why am i doing all these, or rather, it just becomes so very routine.


ah but i'd be okay, i know wad im doing. i believe in this life! haha Christmas is coming. the floodgates will open. many more would be connected to God and so.. that leaves me to saying..

i better get going or else i would be late for prayermeet, and then.. that Christmas party.