it has been a kind of like a long walk through life today. got up and made my way down to the rc to meet Gideon for shepherding with Gideon. apparently this is my first official shepherding with him. yeah got to the RC and kinda realised that he was still meeting the highschool girls. like i think was some prayermeet. its kinda interesting to observe how he leads a prayer, and the choice of words he uses. i guess we really gotta be wise, like to meet the needs of others.

we went down to far east to like tour abit. it was more of like just hanging out on the first shepherding lah. haha yeah opened my life to him and yup we talked. he kinda made me identify my own weakness and stuff, its good in that sense that i know where i should improve. yup, alright. i guess there are some areas of our lives that we really got to address whether we like it or not. hmm.. i realised too that im quite an indecisive person. not that i choose to be that way, but at times i tend to like just lay back and let people just dictate the scene. cant really do that, okay in fact i should not do that. yeah i'll change.

aft which we went down to toapayoh to discuss our cg tml with the sisters side. it was quite fun lah, and then we went grocery shopping, which i am such a failure at. i didnt even know yellowtail fishball, the yellowtail is the name of the fish. i thought its like the fishball was made from the tail of the fish. yeah dont laugh okay, im sure u dont know that quil eggs are polka doted with black markings right! haha wadeva.

okay i got back home after all that grocery shopping. i was quite disturbed by wad my father told me over the phone when i got back, and back at home things didnt get any better. okay honestly, wad my family is going through is the best of times, in fact its gonna hit rock bottom soon enough. if there's a prayer request from me today it would be that u guys pray for my family, and that the bonds between and among the family dont strain any further. and from the looks of things i cant really see a glimmer of hope left. no im being extremely honest, i tried nearly every way possible alright, i guess its now more of the prayer part.

so i decided to take a walk, or else i would have like exploded at home. yeah walked around my neighbourhood. tried to call and talk to my sheeps, with the intention of talking to them face to face, and like kinda catch up with them. apparently everyone was busy at that moment. God's plan? perhaps. yeah, i guess there were some issues and problems that i had to settle with God. i sat by the playground and waited. yes i waited, and waited. i had no idea wad i was waiting for, perhaps for God to spoke a rhama word to me. okay i decided to sort my life out, it was lots of "are You sure? are You so sure God? that it was meant to be this way?" coz i was like just talking to Gideon the other way, and kinda debating with him over the phone whether it is possible for a Christian to lose his salvation, as in if a Christian backslides, would he then go to heaven or hell after he passes from the earth. there's two train of thoughts, kinda deep so i wont like post it here. but at the end we kinda agreed that salvation depends on your relationship with God. after all God created us to fellowship with Him.

then it hit me. the fullness of it all hit me. like, "God tell me, then would You have my parents saved?" are they Christians? yes they are. in fact they are both water baptised. but do they still have a close, or even have a personal relationship with God? the answer is no. well then, "are my parents saved?" i guess it really started to sink in that unless i do something, even if there was a glimpse of hope of my parent's salvation, it would most certainly be gone. like all of you guys, i would like to see my parents with me for eternity too.

it was spiritually draining. yes i cried out to God. i needed that reassurance He gives once again tonight. i sat there and spend the next 2 hrs with God. i just wanted to be lifted up in His presence and erm just, sleep there or something. i started sorting out things and issues with God one by one. both personal, then about other stuff. i asked Him for strength and stuff, yeah i felt really down and kinda like on a spiritual low. it was then that God reminded and spoke to me through a song. yes i almost thought God wasnt gonna speak to me tonight. but God is faithful! yes okay, im reminded and, praise God, i guess im spiritually back on track! okay through tears and a warmed heart i guess that nothing really is too big for God to handle eh?

okay, then i spotted this bunch of adults in Christmas hats coming along and going from door to door asking the neighbours whether they wanted carolling. it really warmed my heart okay. even adults are in this race together? like what!! it isnt just me alone, i got the whole church, i got the whole Christian movement throughout the globe with me. oh God just amazes me. alright man!

luke, rayson and martin came over and we met up, and made our way to prata house for erm.. supper i guess. haha real glad they came over, needed to see some familiar faces. we talked and really it wasnt just surface talk, it was as though we were like blood brothers or something. the amazing thing is, im not even the same age as any of them. its amazing how when Christ is the center or any relationship, oh how deep and wide it can grow. and luke is one funny guy. haha okay we were like talking bout marriage and stuff(yes how out of the blue). and he's thinking is just hilarious man. well i guess one day we would see who's his wife gonna be! yeah it was a great time we had, and not to mention the indian prata seller who tried to tell us a joke which apparently he spoke too soft so we couldnt hear. so when he started laughing, we just followed. haha yeah.

hmm we left at around 12am and walked back home with martin. sang and talked and sang praises along the way. fellowship with people, i just hope that when God looks at His church He would smile and at least get like, "now that's what im talking about." yup at least i know that we are all giving our best, and had gave our best this Christmas. ah gotta move on, sch's gonna reopen. everythings gonna start pouring at us right? hmm, kinda filled with anticipation in that sense. oh well, see ya all tml at cg or erm, soon in sch!

okay here's something else i learnt during QT. it seems like God really spoke to me. yeah been real busy with God's work and stuff, it seems like, when we are faced with such discouragement and weariness, does God meant it to be this way? or is it just that im not up to standard?

sure i had accompained my parents to their church on Christmas itself. Wesley Methodist Church. yup it was cool to see where my parents were married, and it was way packed. okay whatever the matter i really wanted to know like whether my parents felt God or whether they still had that resentment towards people who had wronged them from church some time ago. i guessed i had been too persistent when i bluntly asked them over lunch after service, "okay tell me, what have u learnt from service today?" i guess they were taken aback, and i guess i was too harsh. and my mom said, "well i dont see why i must learn anything from service, i just wanted to enjoy it."

yes definitely i felt discouraged, coz i knew that the other time they would most probably be back at church would be during Easter. it felt as though i had let that once chance this Christmas had to offer slip by. like am i really not capable of bringing and connecting them back to church!? no definitely i am able too. "What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?"(Romans 8:31)

Yes it certainly been very encouraging. God uses me? Well, yes He does. He had and still is, and im thankful for that. And He uses you too.




Take the case C.S. Lewis for example, and how by his pen has helped millions of people come to know Christ. And it would be hard to find a more peculiar evangelist than the one who lead Lewis to Christ.


He didn't mean to, mind you, for he himself was not a believer. His name was T. D. Weldon. He, like Lewis was an agnostic. But he made a comment one day that rerouted Lewis's life. He had been studying a theologian's defense of the the Gospels. "Rum thing, that stuff of the Dying God. It almost looks as if it really happened." Lewis could hardly believe what he had heard. At first he wondered if Weldon was drunk. That statement -though offhand and casual- was enough to cause Lewis to consider that Jesus might actually be who He claimed to be.


A thief is led to Christ by one who rejected Christ. A scholar is led to Christ by one who didn't believe in Christ.

God used a bush to call Moses and a donkey to convict a prophet. To get Jonah's attention, God used a big fish.

carolling. O the carolling songs are so stuck in my head.

Oh Merry Christmas everybody!!

im very very very very sleepy coz i slept at 5.15am this morning, after finishing all those Christmas cards for the cg. haha and dots.. majority of them were lazy to write man. haha oh well. service was cool, worship was awesome. im so sleepy...

okay carolling was real nice lah. haha first for me to go like door to door carolling. plus we met this brother in one of the houses from.. Hope Melbourne!! haha wad a small world. kinda gave him my bulletin so that he knows when's the adult service.

yup it was very fun lah i must admit. though at times it was kinda tiring, and hard to remember all those lyrics at first! But well the people there were real kind, they gave us like chocolates, drinks, and even red packets. and no lah we didnt ask from them okay, we weren't allowed to anyway, they gave out of good will! it's nice to see people smiling on Christmas eve. like everyone's just wishing each other Merry Christmas regardless or whether we know each other. oh the joy of the birth of a saviour. the birth of Christ!

yeah wad else can i add? its such a different Christmas as compared to that of 2004. i duno lah okay. im having such a weird feeling. like i just wanna sleep through it all. no i think its probably feels like everyone wants to like go up to heaven right now and meet God face to face right. haha yeah guess so. Christmas, O good old Christmas. the birth of the one that was born to die. and the amazing part is, that first Christmas wasnt for Him, it was for you and i. ah okay im getting dazed and by my lack of sleep. ah Merry Christmas everyone.

met some tuition mates at somerset mrt before service today. oh yeah and i think couple of them are going into sa for first 3 months too. okay like get to meet everyone there.

all right man! Christmas service today was a blast. it was very ministering and we even sang Reuben Morgan's "All I Am" for worship. and had a song presentation of "Come Home Running". but i think today's drama was the best ever. like the values and moral behind it was quite obvious and powerful, plus i think the girl acted very well!! okay lah all of them did, but the girl acted like as though she was really crying lah. i wont be surprised she was, haha martin said that she was super nervous backstage. maybe the stage-fright came in time or something.

even though today's sermon was like the 3rd time for me, but there always seem to be something new to pick up from God's word eh.

after that we had our North-East BBQ event!! wah it's quite a blast lah. haha okay honestly speaking, i was very worried for it okay. things like, what if it rained and stuff. further more im like games ic for that event. AND if u think that planning games for cg was a headache alr, try planning games for a district.. haha okay thank God that it did not rain and the games went well i guess. yay and thank God for my games com team. okay u all been a great help too, or else there was no complete way i could have done it alone. and wadeva man, i think it was real fun.

okay u know the minute aft we ended our games and aft the carolling practice it started to rain. and we had like only bbqed one set of chicken wings. then we got together and prayed for the rain to stop, and believe it or not, the moment we said "amen." YES! THE RAIN STOPPED COMPLETELY. get that into ripley's man, or else just know that its the God's will!

so we bbqed and we ate and we fellowshipped. got to spend more time with shijie this time, hmm really do hope that he decides to settle down with our church. oh well we'll see okay.

you know im really excited because.. It's Christmas eve tml!! and guess what? we are gonna have this really cool Christmas service okay. like the previous 2 was awesome alr, and since tml is the last Christmas service for youth, its gonna be awesomenest. aft all we keep the best for the last right!!

no im not just excited for service.. coz.. we're going CAROLLING TML!!! its real cool, the rehersal and all makes u wanna dance and carol alr. hmm we did be doing "Hark the Herald Angel Sing", "The Gift Goes On" and "Feliz Navidad". i think we were deciding whether to like just add another carol on our own. ah cant wait cant wait, coz my sheep's joining us for carolling too, so can like connect him finally to the cg. so we would be carolling around.... nah im not gonna tell ya. okay lah like wads the big secret? its at the private estates near st gab sch. wadeva the venue does it matter!? we are all gonna spread the joy of Christmas and the msg of love and the gospel to so many souls tml. yes SO many.

okay, now its time to start.. Getting the Christmas cards. no i mean writing them. ah this is so last minute again, so like last Christmas. but at least im early by one day. okay im just feeling very spiritually lifted now, but im super tired physically. okay let me get to the Christmas card writing. Merry Christmas everybody.

i cant bathe.

i cant brush my teeth.

i cant use the bathroom.

i cant drink water.

i cant wash my hands.

i cant wash my feet.

and worst of all.. i cant sleep coz i cant wash my hair!!




wadeva. my house's water supply seems to be turned off.

im begging for some rest. honestly i feel very run down and i guess overworked. okay much stuff had happened, and been running ard here and there. not much of a time to rest yeah. well at least we are halfway through the week. Christmas week.

let's see i kinda reluctantly went to Pasir Ris yesterday to go to some chalet for Tze Sheng's birthday BBQ. haha okay reluctantly not in mind, but in flesh. as in i am super tired lah. and chalets totally saps the life outta ya.

went there and found that the chalet wasnt much wad we expected. okay its really inside downtown east, not at downtown east. and the chalet was nothing more than a room and a toilet. okay basically its the size of a normal hotel room. and we had like 15 people in our CG, plus his other friends. totally no place lah.

so we walked round downtown east. i guess they were previewing "The Maid" at some movie store. so kinda watched it. pardon me for saying but its a total failure lah. its not even horror okay. its like, thriller or something. haha how do u make a horror movie with the ending like having a mad woman chasing a maid with a knife in her hand, only to get knocked down by an incoming lorry. haha it wasnt a horror show, it was more of a comedy! haha okay lah had a good time laughing at that. well anyway, lets move on.

so went back, and started to bbq. yeah bbq wadeva food we had there. Thank God that there wasnt any strong wind like the other time. and yours faithfully managed to get the fire going. haha okay we kinda over grew the fire so it was like, caveman campfire style instead of glowing red charcoal. but well, like matthias said, "thats wad it looks like on burger king advertisement."

okay i guess that the world always has two sides. i mean like tze sheng's friends were like smoking(i believe they are underage) and stuff, using a colourful range of vulgarites. not that im condeming them, please we dont do that. but it kinda made me aware and remind me, that not everything seems to be as perfect as we did like it to be. so i was thinking, if we dont outreach to these heartlanders, who would? like we cant just let them be and ruin their lives can we. so yeah, anyway i cant help but wonder would i be like that without Christ.

so we BBQ-ed. and so it started to rain. and it rained and rained, so much so that all the other pits were deserted. haha but u see, we just started to BBQ! the marinated chickens didnt even reach the heat yet. yeah so by faith we stayed and prayed and, wha la! the rain stopped, only to come back 20 mins later. haha but by then we had BBQ-ed enough food lah. when the rain came in, surprisingly enough, it didnt extinguish our fire at all. like what!! maybe God knows that we really needed this bbq thingy for the outreach. haha so like when it finally stopped raining we managed to continue.

so blah blah blah. Matthias told me he had to urgently shepherd me, which i kinda guessed why, so decided to go over to his place for the night. hmm.. we had fun lah. sassy's grown man, she's so huge now, but as playful as ever. chasing us and kept licking my toes. we didnt get to eat much for the BBQ. i guess the mentallity was that while we were bbqing, food can just be eaten, as we would have grabbed some food for ourselves. well okay at least i didnt. we didnt lah. so we were like cooking and making ourselves supper.

im sure, none of you here has ever, heard or tried, cooking noodles, in a microwave oven. haha! thats wad we did. eh it tastes awesome really, u should try it one day. just like open the packet and put the noodles in a bowl with water. the just microwave it till 2.20mins. because, Yen can cook, so can you!

we watched "Exocism of Emily Rose" after that. well honestly the reason for watching it was really to like.. i wanted a good scare lah okay! haha that kinda feeling. and we watched it at like 2.45am lah. so the show was like at 3am its when the demons are most active, coz its estimated that at 3pm Jesus died. wad something bout its a way to mock Jesus. didnt hear bout such stuff before, but surely i dont really think its true, as firstly none can be certain that Jesus died exactly at 3pm.

hmm.. they showed how the exocism was done too. and i was really wondering, how can such a demon be so strong. you know in normal circumstances of exocism the moment the priest says "in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, identify yourself." the demon would be forced too, coz after all Christ beat the devil on the cross. so was wondering where is there such a powerful demon. but its true lah most parts of the show. like the counting to 6 as 6 being the imperfect number. yes, and stigmata's are true. u know the markings on emily's hands. yup just google it and u get pictures and stuff. i still remember talking to my bio tuition teacher bout it 3 months earlier. no lah im not asking him to prove it with science, he's a Christian too. so we were like sharing.. haha okay i cant remember alr. but if such an event really exists, wont it be like of evangelistic value. haha we were like saying, there's gonna be an altar call to know Christ at the end. too bad there isnt lah.

well i would say it was more insightful than horror. like we should have watched house of wax instead. but okay im not feeling and suffering the after effects of a horror show now, in fact i seem to be more assured of my position in Christ. honestly speaking, brothers and sisters, the demon can do nothing to harm you, for you are a protected being, a child of God. but surely demon possession do exists and we may get to see some down ahead in our lives. haha okay why am i saying all this rubbish.

aft which we discussed bout the caregroup and stuff. and restructing business for the cg. he kinda told me where i could improve on, and yes it definitely is true. u know when u just get so caught up with serving God that u neglect others.. like your sheep! haha okay okay i will improve! well i think we pin-pointed the reason for the "uncomfortness" we were feeling bout the cg as of late. not saying that our cg is faulty in itself or anything. no, people here do have a heart to serve. u can just look at their faces, its like Christ written all over them. but with the J2s leaving us and stuff we would serverly be short in numbers esp in the coreteam. well we did multiply ourselves and the CG will still remain as a CG. but just that, it seems that we are rather 'directionless'. in the sense that we do know wad we are doing, but arent really taking ownership of what we are doing yet. its like, such stuff definitely requires experience and definitely a certain spiritual maturity. we desperately need to raise up the next J1 generation. haha pressure yes pressure.

gonna be some serious restructuring, and i.. i've changed shepherd again.. okay im definitely fine with it. haha its like my 4th shepherd already. but restructuring is always for growth amen!? so definitely i would be the right way to go about doing stuff. hey coreteam! the pressure is on on your people and me okay. lets really work hard for this group, no longer can we rely on the strengths and talents of the J2s. really its time we take over and take ownership. lets grow this group for the glory of God.!

well went down for housekeeping at church earlier at 11.30am aft receiving an sms needing manpower at like 2am. im so super exhausted, we talked and discussed till 5am. then got up at 9.30am and got back home, changed and went down for to help out at church. honestly speaking im so tired of all these. Not that im tired of helping out in church, no way! just that u know serving God is really no easy task. outreaching, evangelising, mcgs, sowing, caregroup planning, hanging out, coming out of your comfort zone, gathering contacts.. its not just mentally and physically draining, its spiritually draining as well. im like running on wadeva is left in me for this week. sometimes its like i forget why am i doing all these, or rather, it just becomes so very routine.


ah but i'd be okay, i know wad im doing. i believe in this life! haha Christmas is coming. the floodgates will open. many more would be connected to God and so.. that leaves me to saying..

i better get going or else i would be late for prayermeet, and then.. that Christmas party.

okay. something which seem to struck me during QT earlier. gonna share it with ya all, something i learnt from Max Lucado's book, He Chose the Nails. there's too much good points from the book but i'll just share this one.

Jesus died to forgive our sins. Yes, Jesus took our sins with Him to the cross and nailed it there.

On the cross, Jesus turns His face toward the nail just as the soldier lifts the hammer to strike it. Couldn't the son of God stop him? Jesus could just simply have clenched His fist. Is this not the same hand that stilled the sea? Cleansed the temple? Summon the dead?

But Christ doesn't clench His fist, and the moment isn't aborted.

So why? Why didn't Jesus resist?

"Because He loved us," we say. yes its true. but there is more to the reason. He saw something that we couldn't see. He saw something that made Him stay. No lah, He didnt see you. haha. wished He did eh? He saw the hand of God, the very hand that created us, and beneath that hand, lay the list of our sins.

That is why He refused to close His fist. That was why He refused to resist, and by all of my wisdom i tell ya He could have just snapped His fingers and the one who was on the cross would be one of the Pharisees instead. He knew the price of those sins was death. And He knew that the source of those sins was you, and since He cant bear the thought of eternity without you, He choose the nails.

The hand squeezing the handle was not a Roman infantryman.
The force behind the hammer as not an angry mob.
The verdict behind the death was not decided by jealous Jews.
Jesus Himself choose the nails.

You know should the soldier hesistated, Jesus Himself would have swung the mallet. He knew how; the driving of nails is nothing alien to Him. As a carpenter He knew what it took. As a Saviour He knew what it meant. He knew that the purpose of the nail was to place your sins where they could be hidden by His sacrifice and covered by His blood.

So Jesus Himself swung the hammer.
The same hand that stilled the seas stills your guilt.
The same hand that cleansed the Temple cleanses your heart.
The hand is the hand of God.
The nail is the nail of God.

And as the hands of Jesus opened for the nail, the doors of heaven opened for you.

YES I KNOW!! Christmas is just one week away!! wah 7 days 7 days, the whole earth seems to be celebrating the birth of a saviour. haha fill me with anticipation man.

i just realised that "We are the reason" by Avalon is real nice. i think its up on the north-east blog also. haha go link and here or i could just send it to ya.

went over to my aunt's place for dinner. haha she and her old boys and girls of sajc nonsense. she went like, "eh shawn, u know there's this Christian fellowship thing at sajc. go join that. its good to have different exposure and.." haha right on man. seems like that Saints For Christ thing has been around since her time. ah i duno.

oh she gave me another Christmas present. some Christian book with 365 days of devotions. seems real cool and stuff. so guess im gonna read one per day for the whole of next year. haha see. that's so much stuff to read u know. like 4 books to complete this holiday. no time ah! okay thats a cheap excuse, haha cut down on television and wads not. loads of time then. ah right, why am i telling this to you. Hey, Merry Christmas!

i think that my family's worried that i might backslide or something. okay sure gives me that impression. haha not like they keep checking on my spiritual status lah, but u know, in JC its like your whole world gets bigger. my aunt like suddenly came, and with all her wisdom and timely thinking, came and spoke to me bout.. BGR!!! wah okay second time she told me this. or issit the first, i cant remember. haha like wad she was hitting at i already know lah, like dont our church teach us these too! haha okay concerned concerned. sheesh lah with so many watchful eyes, i think its gonna be tough if i were to backslide or something. haha i wont okay!

And so the Christmas Harvest begins. its really awesome man, God is really moving i tell you. had our first Christmas service today. it was as always, captivating. haha. Shirley shared bout wad else? the meaning and reason for Christmas, and also, our meaning of life.

something that Shirley talked bout really made sense to me today. "all of us are living, but not everyone is alive." think bout it. haha not gonna explain that. are u alive today?

okay this time the harvest was really plentiful. but its never enough till the world knows God right! had bout 17 converts in our district itself. so u do the math, bout 85 converts in the youth group. haha continue praying for more! next week we're gonna see a flood of revival man. People would have Christmas in their hearts. And not just be in Christmas, but be part of Christmas.

zhiwei kinda told me to go like talk to her friend. so like met another brother in Christ haha. a guy from xin min sec, and guess wad? he's going sajc too next year! haha who knows lah, another classmate? okay lah thank God that i had my sheep who knows how to connect with him. haha wad dota language im horribly terrible at games language. anything except games and chinese songs and movies okay. i cant do all that.

okay Gideon kinda challenged be during lunch. and by faith im gonna do wad he challenged me man. haha check it out next year.

okay after that had like walked around while waiting for our church band to perform at the stage set up outside S11. and guessed wad? some bird shitted on me!!! AH IM TELLING YOU this is so yuck man. haha best part is i didnt even notice that bird dropping on me at all. thankfully it only like ruined my shirt. haha missed my head by that few milli-metres.

WHY!?? haha u may ask why God let a bird shit on shawn in the middle of a beautiful saturday night. okay haha get ready for this. first of all i wanna declare that i dont blog a bunch of lies and fake stuff. this was wad really happened.

u know this morning, as i was leaving the house for church. suddenly i felt this prompting, and suddenly i remembered bout big shaun in our cg. haha and that how he always brought an extra shirt with him whenever he go in case he prespires or something. okay i was already on the verge of wearing me shoes okay. then was like thinking, 'so why God? why tell me all this when im bout to leave.' haha its strange how i just went back to my room and reached for a extra shirt. so thank God that i had a shirt to change into from the one soiled by bird poo. haha guess God did as He did with all His wisdom to prove that He's there with me. till now i have no complete idea how i came to the conclusion of just bringing an extra shirt with me okay.

haha okay, the church band was awesome lah. haha so many of Y-Hope peeps turned up. so so many, haha. and we kinda drew other people walking by to the area as well. guess its wad u call when a crowd draws a bigger crowd. okay because we werent in church itself and were in a public place, we kinda didnt jump to praise lah. gotta be considerate u know. haha but so tempted to jump to praise okay! its like telling a bird not to fly but to walk to alaska instead. haha okay just crapping, enough with birds lah.

after our church performance its like, the whole church started to leave the area. which means, there was NO ONE left. so the next singer came up and was like, totally had her motivation destroyed. hmm... i think that made her so nervous she forgot her lines. Salt and light okay, really i think at that point of time everyone realised what was happening. so bout more than half of the crowd stayed and cheered the next singer on. haha yeah. sometimes on first impulse we do do stupid things, guess its always good to think through first alright. imagine if we did had all just left, and she would be like singing to, no one? so yeah. God grant us wisdom!

okay im gonna leave this post at here. nothing much to talk bout anyway. everyones so busy getting ready for the Christmas harvest. haha next week is gonna be a fully packed one. sheesh lah. its really Christmas already, soon enough sch's gonna reopen..

haha okay. Let's shake this planet for Christ this Christmas.

okay im back from Esprit de Corps camp. yeah learnt quite alot. decided on quite a lot of stuff. initially i set 3 camp objectives for myself, but God did not only fulfil those 3, He did so much more than that; so much more i tell you.

the past 4 days and 3 nights would be one i would never forget. yeah like every church camp there is bound to be tears. haha yeah. gonna cut short on my post okay coz got stuff to do later on. the theme of this camp was to 'Build the dream team.' to build the team for God's work. we learnt about biblical unity and the causes and benefits of disunity and unity respectively. on the first altar call night, pastor Shirley kinda like told us as we took the Holy Communian, to think of a promise and a covernant that we would decide on and give to the team we were in, (our cg/ dmm/schools/etc.) and i hung dear to the covernant each and everyone of us in the cg gave. i vowed to run and finish the race with all of you people in the cg, and i mean it. i said i would give my all to this group to see that we would have God's will be done, and i tell you, i meant it with all my heart. that time was really very heartwarming and comforting, like it really felt like we were giving our lives as one for the calling for God. ah God bless you all.

i got to know many others in our cg better and even got to know matthias cousin, Kayson who went along. i would dare say that the church, our cg shares this overwhelming unity that i feel that im more than a part of them, its sort of feeling like, i am them. ay its not easy to explain lah. haha i guess there was this night when my sheep kaiwen, martin, kayson and i got together and we really had a real good time. singing oldies from MLTR to Trademark, to so many others i cant remember the names. so kinda shared with them about the song 'Amazing Grace'. about why the writer wrote that song, and how much it meant to me.

okay the second day i learnt quite abit. Pastor Jeff came down to share God's words with us too.

IM BACK! first of all, SO SORRY TO EVERYONE..! i forgot to put my phone up for roaming, aaahhhhhh!! so i couldnt like receive msgs or sent out msgs, not to mention phone calls.

okay i got the pictures up, and since "a picture speaks a thousand words", u all can just go view them im lazy to post lah.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2116647221&idx=1

geesh, Genting is real cold. i wont be surprised that its bout below 10 degrees celcius. plus is high up on the mountains so its so windy! its really freezing lah. like so high up that u are literally in the clouds, so couple of rides over there had to be closed due to wet mist.

hmm.. if im gonna blog the whole trip its gonna take ages. well wad did i do there? haha like went on a massive shopping spere on the first day. haha yeah, shopping! its like im making up for months of lack of shopping okay. okay lah like there's only one place to shop and its at the hotel compound itself, so bout the same price back here.

oh i guess its really a small world lah. my brother met his badminton teacher-in-charge, my dad met his cousin, sharon met her schoolmates, yingying met her schoolmate too, and guess who i met?? haha ivan!! my classmate. like i was walking around then suddenly, "Shawn!!" haha wah awesome man. took a picture and was supposed to call him out on sat for like rollercoasters day. haha well didnt think he would be out there since it was so cold and misty. yeah so so misty okay i couldnt even see more than 5 metres in front of me.

okay just sat every rollercoaster that was open, which is all lah. hmm kinda mild as compared to those at Gold Coast, but its certainly much better than Escape theme park yeah. okay wad else? just like went for rides after rides and bumper cars and wadeva lah. haha yeah guess its kinda like re-living childhood! but its, so cold!!

oh there's so many casinos open at Genting. so there was a boy bout the age of 5, dressed in a red sweater, squatting at this entrance of a casino unaccompanied. he has these pair of puffy and watery eyes which stares blankly in mere anticipation, as though he has been waiting for hours coming. yeah there's the scenario there alright. its like parents dump their kids outside these gambling dens and go in and spend and spend. like, its not just one okay, its quite a bunch. real sad lah, to have them waiting for hours, like some are like only 5!? apart of me was wishing they did run off, so that the parents are gonna be real worried(hopefully) when they finally 'remember' their kids. sheesh lah, seriously, i do hope that such a thing wont happen when singapore opens our own casino.

oh yeah Michael Bolton was at Genting too. but by the time i woke up and tried to get tickets it was all sold out and left with those lousy ones. so decided to watch their XTREME instead. yeah that was real cool too. too much death-defying stunts! cameras wnt allowed so didnt managed to get any pics.

oh there's this clear distinct difference in the way the teenagers are in Singapore and in Malaysia, Genting. malaysian chinese guys in genting - black top and bell cut jeans. malaysian chinese girls in genting - long hair and fair skin. haha so once glance u can tell who's from singapore and who's from malaysia! haha its true okay. there's also that difference lah. okay dont make sense here.

okay so yeah. after that 8 hr bus ride from Genting Highlands, im finally back in singapore. had quite a good time catching up with Kenglam and the rest. haha like talking bout soccer and stuff. so he kinda said, "im calling you some time later for a match.." right. oh yeah learnt something from yingying too, his sister. lol you know wad she shared with me? "Well, its a well known fact that all girls are "lesbians". Guys dont look at guys. but girls do look at girls.." haha like, okay, right. nono i mean wrong, haha whichever way u look at it. hmm.. really? duno lah but im quite sure bout that 'guys dont look at guys' part.

okay i got loads of stuff to do. gonna shepherd my sheep tml, gonna buy present for so and so tml. gonna have to rush down to church office and help them out with camp stuff tml. got to get my camp list and sermon notes from martin somehow tml. gotta accompany melcher, i think, for haircut tml, then get the present. hmm.. gotta pack my school for church camp. gotta go get all those stuff for the housekeeping side for camp. okay i cant remember wad else lah. ah no time man.

okay happy birthday mom. haha yeah it's her birthday today, which also so happens to be Luke's 5 yrs spiritual birthday.

ah i couldnt sleep the whole of last night. like i went to bed at 2am then suddenly it struck me how to strap my guitar properly. so then i was like falling in and out of sleep till like 7am! like i couldnt get into that kinda 'real' sleep but those like 30 mins open your eyes kind.

sheesh woke up near 9am to go get my passport done. like reached that building at Lavender street that i then realised that i need my IC to renew my passport. AH shucks so i went back home to get it and went back to collect my passport. then after that was done, i realised that i left that Hillsong chord book back at home and the Hillsong CDs too!! how stupid right? i meant to like return it back to the RC during CG earlier on, which i did after i went back home to get em. ah wasted time man.

okay CG was quite ministering. thought the CG and testimony part was well done. and so was the teaching too, since Gideon taught bout King David. ay had that teaching before lah, but still there was something new to learn.

oh yeah so i wont be able to bid farewell to Jon tml as he leaves for NS. like the whole CG's gonna be there except, ME! okay im not rejoicing, i would be leaving for Genting at bout 6am. ay so early! and im down with this terrible flu and sorethroat, which i made me unable to sing the first worship song during CG! but oh well, God healed me. managed to sing the other.

ah as i was saying gonna be away till Sunday evening. i dont think ya wanna call me lah considering the charges, but SMSes are still workable! so anything sms me okay, or im gonna rot and die there. nah i dont think so, gonna be quite fun i suppose. i hope so! better be worth it since i missed service!

ah okay koped this pic from the class forum. haha okay like the only few pics with me in them. haha.



that's melcher and i! i believe its "more than life" we were singing. haha wadeva man. sound like some pro guitar poseur. notice that the guitar strap is so wrongly strapped to the neck.? okay lah u cant see it but i kinda just hooked it to the tuning knob of the last string haha. ANYWAY, see ya all on sunday.!

CLC was fun today. haha at least i thought it was. everyone was told to bring an egg along with them to class and bring it with them everywhere we go, even if its to the bathroom! haha yeah not easy to look after an egg i must say. oh then we were told to decorate our egg and give it a name. haha didnt think of a name though, but my egg rocks okay. though it looked so kiddish at first so i decided to give it a small tweepy beard. HAHA. looks so much older now, at least i think it does. Martin says it looks like Mike Shinoda, some Linkin Park rapper. haha okay so then i shall name him, Mr Mike. HAHA okay fancy naming your own egg!






well some of them left their egg's lying around, so got like confiscated and then returned to them when they returned back from wherever they went. yeah you must be wondering, why an egg lah! well you see the egg was supposed to be and signify our 'sheeps/new-believers'. we gotta show utmost care and concern for them! for they are like spiritual babies and youngsters, and thus needs the care of older believers. haha yeah like some father to child relationship. infact, it is!!! the two aspects of a shepherd and sheep relationship. Father-to-Son, and Brother-to-Brother. yeah okay if i explain its gonna go abit in dept, so if u wanna know, ASK ME! and im gonna make u get an egg!

okay today marks the end of the 3 day course at church. yeah its certainly very enlightening and well taught. But as how Jon put's it, the real test for how much we learn and apply would be seen during this Christmas Harvest!


yeah when i read that earlier on it really struck me lah. after all, its not the actions, its not the results, its the attitude towards the act and the motive behind it. So all you out there who face difficulties and set-backs in gathering contacts and SOWing. Take heart and don't be discouraged! for we are doing all this for the audience of One. Instead, pray and be glad to know that God is already delighted that you are fulfilling His calling!