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27th Sept 1989

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
2:47 PM

like thank you everybody for all your smses. haha last night doing QT halfway then they start flooding in! yeah really appreciate all those msgs and stuff, and dont worry lah, i would definitely study and still serve God!

school sian lah. Mrs Tobias really has the ability to bore you to sleep. okay Michael and Wilson bought me something which i aint opened it yet. Andy gave me a dolphin bookmark! haha. like very useful?

haha. thank God for the CG man. lead holy com today. tried something new, up till now i duno what others think of the new approach. i told a story for holy com lah. hmm, of course its revelant. haha. oh btw, when you guys said it's time for a game of muderer, i know wad u all are doing lah! firstly i have the Holy Spirit to tell me. haha. secondly, whoever ends CG with a game of murderer? thirdly, CG couldnt possibly change to tuesday for no reason, and lastly, IM IN CORETEAM! haha okay. well anyway really thank God for you all. made it a special birthday i guess. haha. bought a cake which neva was cut except for calvin who used it to smear cake ALL OVER MY FACE, into my ear, on my hair, etc etc. ahh!! very oily lah. destroy the cake somemore. haha. they taupoked me!! well okay. haha. Thank God for Hui Qi whom i heard cooked all that noodles and fried rices. cooked way too much, end up had to throw away 7/8 of the fried rice and keep the noodles at the RC.

played soccer after that. all those chinese and malay punks at the court really deserve to be scolded man. swearing, cursing and keep bothering us. if not for God i think probably have started a quarrel. also partly coz we used to trash them in the court back in those days. oh well.

aahh!!! sleepy sleepy sleepy. once again really thank God for all those encouragement cards and smses which really made this birthday a pleasant one. haha. whose up for NC-16 movies!!?? haha.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005
12:17 PM

ended school about 4.30pm i think. okay and i know my official L1R5 before moderation, and its... 16!! okay not that well done but erm, considering the fact that im among the few who managed to get below 20, hmm God bless then. My english essay had 19/30. well seriously God's grace man, wrote outta point and wrong grammer somemore. teacher accepted my out of point essay, but the grammer nah. so got marked down to 19/30.

well where can i go to with 16 man. i was telling Miss Ong the best school i can get into is CJC. then she went "oh terrible, that school has a bad reputation." well she sure isnt the first to tell me that. among the 5th or 6th person i think. it really is that bad?

okay got back my Biology prelims full paper today. oh man i am so disappointed. its the paper i really honestly spend at least 5 hours to study for!! i expected at least an A2 okay. had a B3 instead. u know why!!!?? Coz my joke tomato for the biology pratical had only 2 locus!! and my bio teacher refused to give any marks for my drawing coz she said it looked like a longtitudinal cut!! HOW PROFOUNDLY DUMB!! she said i should have told the invigilator. But she's the one that said that we draw what we have!! even her notes has the picture of a transverse cut of a tomato with 2 locus!! wah i feel so cheated okay. i did everything according to HER standards, and she marked me wrong!! then so many other questions she marked me wrongly, and said that she doesnt want to go through and review questions she gone through. come on lah, she so ran off for her medical appointment on last friday, and said to go through it today. then now like that!! oh well.

okay went swimming when i came back from school today. figured it was gonna be very probably the last time i swam before the O's. i realised that swimming is so much more tiring than soccer. swam till the rain started to pour. guess wad? those two st. nich. girls too my studying place!!! its like the only condusive studying place avaliable lah. and i got there first okay!! well nvm.. haha like i use that place often. went upstairs and saw that AJC girl in the lift who held the door for me the other day. oh man, AJC seems like a dream now..

Monday, September 26, 2005
2:52 PM

firstly, Happy Birthday Sunny!!

well it was Cityteens last service today. they are gonna combine with the other youth services to form one big group called LYNK, if i got the name correct. in case you all have no idea wads Cityteens, its the youth service of St Andrews Cathedral, where i went before Y-Hope. was their last service today so erm, went with Melcher.

good to see everyone again, though there were many new faces for me. haha. and saw shermon on the drums. kenneth is just the same man, same old joker. haha. it was sorta nice and strange in that sense lah. oh we had 'trading our sorrow' and 'How Great is Our God'. haha same as Y-Hope yesterday's service. then during the song 'trading our sorrow' i almost went to do that hand action that we did yesterday along to the song. haha. then i realised better not.

oh man honestly i feel so disconnected with everyone. like erm, communication barrier!! dont see why everyone's sad bout the merger. hmm.. dont everyone still see each other? duno lah. haha. so much has happened since i last visited 6 months ago. all i can say is, this merger is something which perhaps we could be happy bout? its for the kingdom of God, and im sure St Andrews Cathedral youth's service would grow from glory to glory, and produce strong and biblical people who would lead the church someday. haha. sounds so pastor man coming from me.

the sermon was by melvin. taught about how to cope with unanswered prayer. heard that teaching before lah, but it was still nice to hear it from someone new. and didnt know bout that 3 types of prayer thingy.

then they had the 'Cityteens Goodbye song'. it's very well written lah. haha but i think if they changed the name to 'Goodbye Cityteens' it would sound more professional. then watched some video clip about CT. kenneth looked so puny when he was young man. haha. OH! and guess who i saw on the video clip? that girl from tuition! melcher told me he saw her during morning service but didnt know she went to CT too?

then testimonies. interesting to hear how CT has changed so many of their lives. didn't wanna go up to share for erm, certain reasons. also i kinda felt compelled not to go. okay i really have no idea why. but when Linette shared bout how she reflected on her way with God after she talked to me the other day on msn, i was quite shocked lah. guess it's the power of God. hmm..

well on my way back on the train i saw this philippino women reading an article entitled, "What Does Jesus Say About Judgement Day." i really wanted to go up and go talking and talking and talking bout Christ to her. but then she might just thing im crazy. haha. then the whole time through 'Consuming Fire' kept ringing in my head.

went over to my aunt's place to erm, celebrate my birthday in advance. checked out their new place. like wow. so nice. they had this whole book shelf filled with Christian books. and the Venation culture and many drawings of Jesus Christ. even a Christian book on stamps. was kinda overwhelmed. then my uncle prayed and said grace in mandarin. very cool man, even though i took quite sometime to figure out wad those two words he used meant, and figured it most probably meant 'grace'. well maybe one day i will get him to teach me how to pray PROPERLY in mandarin.

"You lived to die. For me."

Sunday, September 25, 2005
2:51 PM

it's wad i call a real spiritual refreshment. i really thank God for today's service. it's feeling of really letting the holy spirit take absolute control of our lifes, esp with the exams and stuff. picture this with me, praising to 'trading our sorrow' and 'My God'. the latter is one of my all-time fav praise song lah. very much due to the lyrics, really ministers esp to my life. then had 'Above All', 'How Great Is Our God' and 'Awesome God'. when i heard 'how great is our God' i was like, oh man, God definitely wants to speak and minister to me today. okay, sermon was excellent. i know i have been saying how good sermon is but take it from me, today is one of the bestest of bestest of best. as in u can literally feel the spirit moving into you, and the word of God getting ministered into your life. it was the part 4 of the 10 part series of 'God is closer than you think (the Tabernacle)'

Washed Up
Exodus 30: 17-21

If you know that God is with you, everything changes.

Without water, there can be no life. God wants us to be clean too!
Have clean hands, and a clean heart, as we come before the Lord.

God is using physical things of the earth, to teach us spiritual things.

1 Corinthians 15: 46


1) God reveals the Means of Cleansing. (v17 -18)

The bronze laver is placed between the altar of burnt offering and the holy place.

In the Bible, water symbolises the word of God. - Ephesians 5:26

The washing of water is also to symbolise that we need to clean our life up, with the word of God.

We need to use the right agent to clean our hearts.

We don't clean our mouths with detergent do we?

Clean our hearts with the word of God, not with Hollywood, Bollywood, or whatever.

We need the word of God! Not just the advise of friends, or Lime Magazine.

Psalm 119: 9

We receive Jesus into our lives only once. But we use the word of God to wash our hearts on a daily basis.

Untill and unless we know and allow the word of God to wash our hearts clean, how would we grow?

People tend to take other people's words so seriously, but seldom the word of God.

How well do we know the word of God?

What is our diet and hunger for the word of God today?

Allow the word of God to wash us clean.


2) God reinforces the Piority of Cleansing. (v19 -21a)

Two times here God reminded the people that they should wash themselves, so that 'they will not die'.

God wants to make sure that no sin can stop us from coming into His presence.

Psalm 24: 3-4

Hebrews 10: 22

True prayermeeting is not about the atmosphere, but the condition of our hearts.

Have full assurance in God.

Repent! Don't leave room in our hearts for the devil.

Walk right with God, clean ourselves up, tell the devil who trys to call you a 'hypocrite' to 'shut up'.

Do not take sin lightly.

Do not take the presence of God for granted. (this i found very true..)

John 14: 21

1 John 1: 9

One of the admirable ablities of God, is His readiness to forgive.

God hates sins, but loves sinners.


3) God Reiterates the lifestyle of Cleansing. (v21)

This is to be an eternal command.

1 Peter 2: 9

If we are a believer and a follower of God, we are a priest of God.

We ought to live a lifestyle of continual cleansing.

Don't practice accumulate repentance.

The moment we sin, repend quickly.

James 1: 22-25

"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it-he will be blessed in what he does." - James 1: 22-25 (emphasis added)

We think that when we listen to some teachings, we know.
'Don't deceive yourself!' Do what it says.

Don't just merely look into the mirror and know your face is dirty, wash it.

Don't be just a Bible believeing Christian, be a Bible obeying Christian.

Even the devil believes that Jesus is Christ, in fact he knows more about the Bible than you, for he has been around so much longer.

Are that areas in our lives that we have not committed and given up fully to God?

Do we hit a wall when we try to worship and adore God?

Let not the devil take control, but God.


well Shaun passed me the Soul Survivor CD as my birthday present. haha. like yay! celebrated Bob's birthday for him too. had caregroup evaluation, on the caregroup which i chaired for the first time. hmm.. got areas to improve lah.

had a fun time talking to Rayson, Jun Liang, Martin, and Shaun at Bugis burger king. i mean haha, shared with them the Sonicfest experience and the different concepts of the other religions. then crapped with them. haha. on my way back on the bus kinda told them bout the story about 'Bowling for Columbia' i heard. then kinda thankful that Martin asked about the Christian perspective on dinosaurs. so kinda told him where our stand is. it's always good to confirm your doubts yeah.

"Your grace has found me just as i am. And i'm nothing but alive in Your hands."

i really responded to altarcall today. i mean, it's really so amazing and wonderful when u commit your life into Jesus again. i did wad i had to do man, and the Holy Spirit really worked it's wonders in me. was already in tears by the time 'Give Us Clean Hands' was played. truely amazing.


i sincerely hope that all those schools everyone is ministering and working on would one day have their own caregroup and prayermeet, soon! haha. have the faith man.

"Forever God is faithful!!"

Saturday, September 24, 2005
3:21 PM

like okay. i made it to JC. haha. but the results aint finalised, coz i hadnt got back my english essay and bio paper.

then today during the english letter briefing, it was VERY hilarious. apparently someone wrote, ".. or i fear that your pigeon hole would be filled with hate mail and complaints from the public." and "your excellency". haha, it was hilarious man. but i managed to pass at least, without essay yet. i guess my results are okay, and really needa thank God for the A1 for Emath and A2 for humanities, even though i knew i could get an A1 for humanities if i spent more than 12 hours on it.

i feel like saying something inspirational but got no inspiration for that. well erm perhaps.. God loves you!! haha sian man. i realised that quite a handful cant make it to JC. dont worry yeah, our school would HAVE to moderate. unless they want their 'pigeon hole would be filled with hate mail and complaints from the public'.

went to return marks to Miss Ong today for chemistry prelims. i mean after sermon the other day, and dmm, it made me realise, its only marks right.. well so hopes of my chemistry getting moderated to C5 is diminished. oh well its okay. at least im a winner in God's eyes. haha. then on wednesday my mom was like going, "shawn how come u look so glum today, something happen in school issit?" then i went "nope." then she asked, "issit u know your results?" like, aiyah. sian why did she have to ask me. okay lah, dont lie. time to tell the truth. well at least she's understanding. haha. melcher returned Miss Ong some marks, till the extend that it costs him a failure. thats amirable okay. for Prelims!! would u be the one to return the marks?? Yu Xuan returned marks for Chemistry too, which cost him his position to right for top in the level. all great people :D.



"Jesus i decided to live, to live a life that shouts Your fame."

Friday, September 23, 2005
2:56 PM

okay. exhausted.

played basketball after cg today till 10.30pm.

i passed my chemistry. like, it's so totally God's grace. but my Biology so totally screwed up. i had C6 for Chemistry, and bio without section B and Practical already B4. sian lah, my teacher wants her 'own' answer, when the textbook and common sense tells u otherwise. They said that quite a handful failed humanities in our class. oh man, i tell ya im so worried now. oh well, have faith in God's plan for you. :)

chaired caregroup today for the FIRST time, and lead testimony as well. then those church leaders and even Pastor Jeff came over to the R.C. to have steamboat!! okay. went to play bball after that at braddell heights cc.

"Blessed are those who dwell in Your house."

Thursday, September 22, 2005
2:38 PM

and so, after that talk by TJC, everyone seems to be wanting to go there now. Apart from the fact that its all the way down at bedok, but only till that moment when everyone realised it took 8 points to get in.

basically today is erm, alot about releasing the Prelim results. Mrs Tobias said she wanted to give us english time practice, and managed to silence our protests with, "when u see your results you will know why." and Miss Ten added during the talk that some of us had atrocious gramma mistakes. i figured that would most probably be me, coz i sorta wrote the whole essay outta point and wrote the whole narrative in present tense.

Mrs Koh returned our Amath prelims today. i was shocked i would say, not that i did badly, but i was rather amazed that i managed to pull off a B3. but upon checking my script, careless mistakes cost me the A1!!! well okay lah, by God's grace i had a B3. i really thought i was gonna get a C6, esp after Amath paper 1.

Mrs Wong shared with us her Bangalore experience. and erm, she bought some exotic indian sweets for us that we couldn't figure out it was. it's like eating ginger, chili, with sugar on top. it's nice lah at first, opens up your throat, but then after like 4 or so it started to taste too gingery. but at least we gotta eat stuff from india. haha.

then Mrs Ngiam returned to us the physics prelims. i am not satisfied lah. i studied during the holidays, nothing but physics, and a little Emath. i had a B3, and not many careless mistakes, so the only hopes of getting the A1 is through moderation. oh man. i thought i would get at least an A2 for this paper lah.

i am like 99.9% sure i failed my chemistry prelims, esp since Miss Ong told Jason that 5 people failed in our class. i mean, im the lowest in class for Chemistry, like duh!! besides, i didnt manage to study for Chemistry, coz i was totally drained after studying for Biology. and when they asked how can i separate a mixture of protein, i said, use substrate specific enzymes. okay which is obviously wrong, firstly since its bio not chem, and the enzymes would have broken down the protein..

oh okay. here's something funny. guess where's our prom night gonna most likely be held? nah, not some funky hotel, nor issit at some country club, it's at.... Braddell Heights Community Center!!! haha okay you can stop laughing now. goodness me, i neva thought the place we always used to patronise for soccer matches would be the venue for prom night. haha.

oh just watched a documentary on Alexandra the Great. it's very nice lah, and he's such a brillant tactician. i tell ya his war tactics are so funky and cool, yet brillant, no wonder he managed to conquer the whole known world back in his era. okok, back to singapore.

O levels are coming so soon man. and only our class has 3 weeks study break. haha. duno why also, heard from other classes that they said that our studies were better so we could have a 3 week study break. its not exactly true lah. at least for me.

cheer up those who didnt do as well as expected. im sure God has a bigger plan for you. oh as martin puts it, maybe God thinks we deserve the 6 month rest? anyway you look at it, dont be discouraged coz of the results and let it affect ya O's. okay, sounds weird coming from someone like me. but there's so much more to life than good grades, there's the best relationship out there avaliable to each and everyone of us. a relationship with God. take it from me, when u found the peace and love Christ has to offer, such grades are just so, superficial.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005
10:22 AM

Why
We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
You said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own

But this dark hour I must do nothing

I've heard your unbearable cries

The power in your blood destroys all of the lies

Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies

Look there below

See the child

Trembling by her father's side

Now I can tell you why

She is why you must die

got this off some website, and if u have the song please send it to me. had soccer just now. i think im like getting bruises all over, there's now this cut on my left thigh. and my bed like has blood splatted across from the wound in my left elbow. okay.

spent bout 2 hrs talking with michael lee, davin, sumahdi, and melcher in class. haha talked about God, different religions, spirits, demons and stuff. we each gave our own point of view and had our own share of stories to share. talked and talked untill melcher even fell asleep. haha. talked from a sunny afternoon after soccer, till it rained, and till it stopped.


"I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand." - John 10:28

Tuesday, September 20, 2005
4:07 PM

"As long as the rivers flow,
As long as the wind blows,
My heart belongs to You.

As long as the seasons change,
As long as the farmer needs the rain,
My heart belongs to You.

And Lord I know I don't deserve the grace You give;
So I will give my heart to You that I might live.

You are my God,
Early in the morning, will I
Rise to meet You, rise to meet You.
You are my Lord,
Early in the morning, will I
Rise to meet You, rise to meet You.

As long as babies cry,
As long as flowers die,
My heart belongs to You.

As long winter brings the cold,
As long as the summers come and go,
My Heart belongs to You.

And Lord I know I don't deserve the grace You give;
So I will give my heart to You that I might live.

You are my God,
Early in the morning, will I
Rise to meet You, rise to meet You.
You are my Lord,
Early in the morning, will I
Rise to meet You, rise to meet You."


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Monday, September 19, 2005
4:12 PM

didn't really get to play lanterns today, BUT, we played rockets!! haha. DIY rockets with sparkles and kinda got 'cautioned' by the police there at bishan park. met my school mates on the way back from J8 and went to join them at bishan park.

but i would say nothing beats playing lanterns with your family. went down to the pool area and lit candles that could float on the pool.

btw, my face is PEELING. its peeling really bad. the two different colour tone is so obvious.

and i love my hair. haha.

"Stand by everything You said
Stand by the promises we made
Let go of everything I 've done
I'll run into Your open arms
And all I know

I love You more than life
I love You more than life

Fall back on everything You've done
Fall back on everlasting arms
When all the world is swept away
You are all the things I need
You're the air I breathe

How can it be
You were the one on the cross
Lifted for all our shame?
How can it be
The scars in Your hands are for me?
You are the king of all
"

Sunday, September 18, 2005
2:22 PM

okay today's sermon was one of the best and most ministering so far, esp since its the exam period. In fact, its so good that im gonna put down the points here for those who missed it and for my sheep who couldn't make it yeah.

Keys to An Authentic Christian Life
Daniel 6: 3-10

1) Excellence in all responsibilities (v3 -4a)


Daniel's excellence caused him to stand head and shoulders over the rest. We should strive to have excellence in all areas of our lives, e.g. exams, punctuality. Having an excellent spirit.

Colossians 3: 23

We work not for men, but for God. The responsibility(studies too) is given to us by God. Strive for excellence.

Genesis 39: 5-6 (Joseph's spirit of excellence)

When we are working with a spirit of excellence, everything is bound to be successful!

The Enemy of Excellence : D.I.T. Syndrome.
It can cause us to fail our exams, drop out of school, land marriages in divorce.

D.I.T. Syndrome: Do It Tomorrow.

Clear your desk today! Clear your doubts and study today!(okay, this applies to me..)
This syndrome is a sign of laziness, and God doesn't like a lazy servant.

Excellence doesn't equal Perfection.

Excellence is our best effort with limited resources.
God will honour your spirit of excellence.

If excellence means improving from a F9 to a B4, that's excellence!


2) Personal Purity and Integrity (v4b -5)

Daniel had integrity despite living in a corrupt environment. Likewise, we can and should exercise integrity even though the world teaches otherwise. In fact, Daniel's only "problem" was that he loved God too much!(Daniel 6: 11)

Do we use vulgarities?
Do we cheat?
Do we dare to stand up for what is right, even if it means getting ourselves into a whole lot more trouble?

Romans 12: 2

Hold on to biblical values and integrity. Do not do something which we are afraid to be found out doing.

Proverbs 10: 9

3) A Consistent Walk With God (v10)

Daniel still prayed to God consistently. Daniel still found the time to pray and spend time with God regardless of the high official posts he holds. Likewise, we would certainly have time to spend time with God even during the exam period. The lack of time is never a reason, it's more of an excuse.

"When you're faced with a busy day, save yourself precious time, by skipping your devotions."
- Signed, Satan.

Do authentic people always win?

In the sight and eyes of God, Yes! (Daniel 6: 23-24)

Psalm 34: 10

During this exam period, why not let's have overflowing joy and faith in the Lord. When our friends are scratching their skins off andpulling off their hair in stress, why not let's find joy.

Let's be so overjoyed in this responsibility that non-Christians would turn and find it so ridiculous to be happy during the exam period.

Never say die.
Say, "Hallelujah!"

Saturday, September 17, 2005
2:56 PM

okay fine lah. haha. told you the other day that there was that cameraman at settler's cafe(6th Sept post). yeah okay. it's kinda weird when people sms you and my mom's friend called to tell me that she saw me on channel U news. haha. infamous since it was the time of mock prelims??

oh well. my face and the wound is starting to itch real badly man. i feel like ripping my face off man. 7 hrs under the sun is no joke. and boy, it really itches. oh yeah. our school's having that tree-top canopy hike on tuesday! how wonderfully dumb. RIGHT AFTER PRELIMS. joke man. i rather be sitting on my table in school lah. probably get a parent's letter or something. haha. but then again, i yet to go there so.. haha.

final final final prelims paper on monday. and i was counting an estimate of my prelim results with melcher just now. probably get 23. sad man. oh well. then the vice-principal was like talking to us yesterday, while we were in the canteen. "no, moderate for wad? we are not gonna moderate."


"Empty hands held high
Such small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight
May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You"


oh yeah. gotta thank colleen for sending me those new Casting Crown songs. its very nice too okay. in fact i would say they surpasses the first album yeah. oh well. will upload them when i have the time. haha. lazy lah.

Friday, September 16, 2005
2:58 PM

Indescribable
Chris Tomlin


From the highest of heights
To the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colours of fall
To the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique
And the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky
And You know them by name
You are amazing, God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck, we fall to our knees
As we humbly proclaim
You are amazing, God

Who has told every lightning bolt
Where it should go?
Or seen heavenly storehouses
Laden with snow?
Who imagined the sun
And gives source to its light?
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom...

Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky
And You know them by name
You are amazing, God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart
And You love me the same
You are amazing, God


You see the depths of our hearts
And You love us the same
You are amazing, God

2:03 PM

tell you something dumb..

i went to McDonald's a few hours ago and asked the cashier, "can i have oreo ice-blended."

oh man very malu lah. plus after 7 hrs in the so very hot sun playing soccer my face was all flushed red. then made such a dumb statement. i was 'tricked' okay!! Jon and the rest said go down to Macs there buy oreo ice-blended. then ZhiQiang, Kaiwen, Aquila, Matthias and me left kinda late wad. so i volunteered to buy the oreo ice-blended. so went to Macs and HAHA. it was this bubble tea store opposite Macs.. man i feel super dumb.

Prelims. Sian lah. no hope at all for first 3 months. honestly, i somehow feel that i rather go mug chinese and try to get a distinction. the prelims totally killed me man. and todays Emath. i did the exact same question before too!! and i couldnt do it this time. like mental block man. oh wadeva. Move Along.

Thursday, September 15, 2005
2:49 AM

Chemistry Prelims killed me man. a very largely coz i was too tired to study for it. i was like going for 1 and half hours to know and understand what Chemistry is, and to sit for my prelims. had Biology prelims yest, and i so studyed okay.

went for bio tuition the day before and then made my way to tampines mall. Heart-ache man!! the Passion05 album i bought was now available at the LifeBookstore. not only is it cheaper by a couple of dollars.. it had 120 mins dvd!!! wah man. i feel so cheated lah. its like they even have the video of when Chris Tomlin and Matt Redman led worship.. well anyway. Casting Crowns album is out, Lifesong. because of that. i like only had a few hours to study bio, but kinda confident lah. haha. so i stayed up to 1.45am to study and woke up at 5am to finish my bio studies, WHICH proved to be so dumb coz Miss Tan set such an easy paper. so yeah, didnt have the energy to study for Chemistry lah. made quite a few dumb mistakes too during the Bio prelims coz was very tired. and i overlooked the word 'incorrect' as 'correct' when i checked lah. but at least i got to sleep for 5 mins during section A paper 1. then when Miss Ten collected the paper from me she saw i was lying down and said, "looks like you've given up already." haha like wadeva.

oh well. last written paper tomorrow. E maths paper 2. All the best for those who are having prelims yeah.

Sunday, September 11, 2005
3:06 PM

okay fine, maybe i did wake up late again today. but i was in time for prayer meet okay. oh yeah something happened along the way to Nexus too.

You know the escalator from Centerpoint which leads to the back entrance of S-11 food court. yeah, i was using that escalator to make my way to Nexus. then there was this caucasian infront of me, thing is, he was in a wheelchair. hmm. so erm he.. kinda went ahead up the escalator infront of me. Problem is, the stairs width was too small to accomadate his wheelchair wheels!! i tell you the sight is so frightening coz i so thought he was gonna topple backwards when his wheelchair feel down a step. and the escalator steps his quite high and not to mention HARD and SHARP. well thank God he managed to hold on to the sides to support himself. and i was behind him, kinda helping him hold his wheelchair also lah. amazing man. he is strong okay. BUT, u know as u reach the top of the escalator, his wheelchair could not get up the bump coz apparently he was heavy and erm the wheelchair just did not have any momentum to get up lah. woah this time really panic man. so his wheelchair was like stuck in the middle of the whole escalator, and he had to find a way to push himself up the bump, and at the same time prevent himself from falling down the escalator. oh man i feel quite hopeless man. i couldnt push him up lah. firstly its coz he was VERY heavy, and secondly the escalator was still moving, so my body was like leaning forward and trying to push him and keep his balance, while my legs kept retreating to accomadate the escalator going forward. wah PANIC ARH!! thankfully this couple in the front turned around and helped him up. Thank God man. if not erm really gonna be a big accident, since the people behind me were like getting closer..

well service was awesome today man. too bad kaiwen couldnt make it. its like everyone is still in the metamorphosis concert mood. haha. Very high arh. Especially when they did 'What the world will never take". Rayson thought me the intro just now okay!! i can finally play the intro! haha okay lah very easy one. anyway, okay it all went well except for this part when the worship leader came in the wrong time.. haha huge blunder man. like i was telling martin just 5 seconds before that they did a really excellent job with the song as compared to the last time. but massive blunder man. haha. but the drummers and guitarist were fast enough to change and cover it up lah. haha.

"For you know that it was not with perishable things such a silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish of defect."
- 1 Peter 1:18-19

well Speaker Jasmine was really ministering yeah. really spoke and kinda gave a 'spiritual' refreshments to us believers. but sadly during altarcall there were none that responded to the salvation prayer. But rejoice people, coz there was 1 convert!! haha its a sister who met Jasmine up at the front and was prayed for lah. i saw it with my own two eyes!!

well okay. after that we proceeded to starhub center. nothing much happened except that Sunny gave me the most painful and twisted steam-peg ever. wah VERY pain lah. its like suddenly without warning. theres the claw mark on my chest okay. and to the extend that the skin tore and erm almost bled i think. PAINFUL man. Sunny u are so gonna get it..

okay, went down to AMK mac to mug with the caregroup. abit wasteful lah, considering the fact that i only managed to do 14 Emaths paper 1 questions. oh i saw my school libarian there too. well anyway we were studying when this old lady approached Zhi Qiang. so i kinda poked my head into the conversation. apparently she was looking for this boy in black tee and a black cap, and he was suppose to be in mac i think. so i volunteered to go into the Gents to look for him, but of course he wasnt there. well felt kinda sad for her man. like so old then go around looking for her grandson i think. well nothing i could really do bout that. so she left. and 2 police officers entered. they even made their way to the Gents to look for that kid. oh well. who knows wad happened.

proceeded to Martin's house then after. played with his PS and stuff. okay if not for Junliang who came i think we would stil be stuck there playing now yeah. then after proceeded to visit Kaiwen. and i led them to walk up to the 7th storey. u all should really thank me for the exercise okay.

yeah he's doing okay. just that abit of flu and cough. i think his mom was kinda shocked lah, that one big group come visit him. haha. passed him the shirt Jon got for him. and erm, he thought me how to play 'Always and Forever' the intro man. and Rayson thought me 'What the world will never take'. ahh!! its like very easy to play man. haha. and best part is it does sound cool.

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"
- 2 Corinthians 5:17

oh yeah btw, it's Sept 11.

Friday, September 09, 2005
2:51 PM

aahhh!! awesome LONG day man. its like a full day camp at church. anyway, really congrats to all those who were Holy Spirit baptised today!! super exhausted man. but the concert is REALLY awesome lah. i would say we were like more excited than the first concert during June camp.



"Everybody jump around in the house of God!!
Hey! Hey! Hey!"

Thursday, September 08, 2005
1:26 PM


"And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend.
Even so, it is well with my soul."

went to school today for some physics remedial. and i realised that my physics teacher is kinda pro in physics. haha. she was very kind okay, gave melcher and i Kinder Bueno. okay, she knows how to solve questions that my tuition teacher doesnt know lah, but she was kinda stuck with 3 other questions. so she kinda took my tuition book to go photostat. and she demands me to hand over my tuition book to her after Os. haha. she said she wanna print for the lower sec, yeah okay. Christmas present lah. well i hope i dont forget.

went down to Bugis there after, and got this sling bag. haha okay. its kinda a poser bag lah. HAHA. when u see it you would get wad im trying to say here. anyway, walked and talked and then walked to Borders.

kinda disappointed, didnt find my Soul Survivor CD there, but God is full of surprises Amen? haha i found this CD that read, "Sonicpraise". Well, okay, its not exactly the one i was looking for, coz this version is techno dance. haha. yeah, those u find in disco and pubs. that kinda beat lah, imagine grooving to that kinda beat with the lyrics of 'Here i am to Worship". NOT ONLY THAT, i found this awesome CD. Passion05 : how great is our God. wah its VERY GOOD OKAY. they even have the live version of Chris Tomlin's 'Indescribable'. i tell you the CD is so admistering and powerful, its comparable to Hillsong United's 'Look to You'. okay lah. i guarantee you that u would adore God to tears with that CD. and i strongly recommend u get your own copy, haha. its kinda worth it.

okay, next part of my shopping spere. i finally bought that kerusso shirt! okay well i guess that left a huge dent in my wallet. haha i thinked i walked around the stall for 15 mins and REALLY stared hard before deciding to buy, till the salesgirl kindly said, "when u decided or need help, come to me okay?". okay, learn from experience, i bought the Large size. then she asked me why not get the Medium size (well Large looked kinda large on me), then i told her i have another shirt which was already medium, kinda just nice lah the size. well okay then she asked me which was it and kinda struck up a conversation.

okay, then went over to Mac to crap with Martin. haha. kinda fun lah. and guess i was tired.

well.


"My sin, Oh, the bliss of the glorious thought
My sin, not in part but the whole
Was nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul."

Wednesday, September 07, 2005
4:18 PM

Feel it, feel it coming on.
Have some fear, 'cos the heat is on.
Watch it coming from the sky,
He's riding in on his chariot of fire.
Feel it, feel it don't give up.
We're holding up this burning cup.
Hear it, hear it shake the ground,
The freedom people make their sound.


I believe,
That the fire is here today.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005
3:14 PM

_____ ____ had carebear curtains.

Monday, September 05, 2005
10:21 AM

that's it. i offically broke the record. oh boy..


i slept from 3.30am to 7.15pm.

Sunday, September 04, 2005
4:18 PM

todays service was awesome lah. i guess everyone needed a service like this esp during the exam periods. yeah Pastor Jeff did a really really good job.

my cousin's birthday party was cool lah. even though i was super lazy to get up of bed to go for it. okay you know the same usual stuff happened. well but at least we all got to get together again and talk and stuff. then erm i kinda played street soccer with my cousin's neighbours, guess wad? it was the same people we played with last year on this exact date lah. haha. small world right? okay anyway. kinda fun lah. trashed them man haha. okay, considering the fact that i was the eldest except for the maid so yeah..

i guess there was this point in time where my uncle was kinda angry and threw the beer can towards the drinks corner. i so happened to be there reaching for a drink(not a beer..) and the beer can literally flew pass my leg at high speed lah. it was really a very close miss and could even feel the wind. was quite shocked but then didnt really scold him or anything, heard from my mom later on that he was mad coz he couldnt drink, as in he had some medical condition or something. kinda understand it all later lah, aint gonna type those stuff here yeah.

okay, after playing soccer with the neighbour's and all we played captain's ball with them. oh yeah, i kind of made friends with this Monfort sec 3 guy, also called Daryl i think. so we were playing captain's ball, and erm, my team had 2 and their team had 4 lah, like so fair. well anyway, i think that his girlfriend, the other girl, was kinda leaning quite close on me lah, i mean playing captain's ball wad, she was marking me. well okay, she was leaning way too close lah. then when her hand brushed mine she still could say, "yucks" and giggle. oh man. then i think that that made Daryl kinda pissed lah, plus the fact that i trashed him in soccer malu him in front of his girlfriend.. erm.. so yeah, he kinda just walked off.. well aint my fault okay.. anyway, didnt really bother bout that lah. haha continued playing.

well okay, then my cousin took out the old cards i wrote her like 10 years ago. i mean, u cant deny it okay, i got a flair for drawing balloons and cakes like at 5 years old. and i spelt 'wish' as 'whin'. haha. okay. must move on lah.

Saturday, September 03, 2005
3:15 PM

after 5 hours in the pouring. after much prespiration and sliding tackles. after all that tired runs. the soccer match eventually ended up 19-19. the goal of the first team making it to 20 was never reached. that was the limit man. that was the max, we could play no longer. try running around after a ball, doing tricks and tackles, in the rain and on a super wet surface, plus the fact that we have to maintain our balance and aim and all that wadeva man. the 20th goal took almost 2 hours to come but neva did.. 2 Sep 2005. the day the soccer match was neva finished. wad a day lah.

okok. its smallville's season finale. i was super sad man. especially the part when Lana went to give Clark the stone. oh yeah, i so thought Lana was dead lah. that's REALLY sad. i was expecting Clark's face to show up last minute to hold the helicopter or something, but then the helicopter hit the ground!! aahhh!!! okay sad man, in the end Lana did get together with Clark. i really wanna see how eventually Clark ends up with Louis. i figured that the audience didnt wanna see Clark go with Louis but Lana instead, so Lana has to die someday. haha. okay lah wadeva.

todays Amaths paper 2 was super easy man. Miss Leow just rocks. its like O level standard lah. then Amaths paper 1 set by Mrs Koh was like harder than the standard of Cedar Girls' Amaths paper. oh well. Geog paper was kinda easy. i did question 6 again!! Environment. haha. its like so general knowledge lah. my answers were like so erm primary school. then there was this question which went like, "how do u think deforestation can be prevented?" then i was like going the 3 Rs, through education and stuff. should have written CCA right, then quote "Green Activists". then when Mrs Wong marks it she would be so impressed she has to pass me man. haha. okay im like super worn out from that 5 hr marathon of soccer.

okay then when im on my way back i met my AJC neighbour on the bus. i didnt recognise at first lah coz im like so totally blurr and tired already. okay well eventually i did. then she walked to the apartment. so i was guessing she would most probably just open the door and walk off, and leave me opening it with my key, or best case scenario is that she open the door and give it a slight nudge so that i can enter. guess wad? she opened the door and stood there holding it, and staring at me as though asking me to enter. wah abit shocked lah. haha. okay well thats VERY sweet. sheesh, would u actually open the door, stand there and hold the door for someone behind to enter first??

sad sad sad lah. No more Smallville. Sian man. finally the holidays are here. sian lah. study!

Friday, September 02, 2005
4:10 PM

okay so im left with one theme for Geog prelims later to cover. i still deciding whether i would study Tourism or Environment. i so wanna study environment coz it seems really easy, considering the fact that i had 21/25 without studying for it. but then again, the fact that teacher neva even taught that chapter makes it difficult. this is such a dilemma man. i dont wanna do tourism cause so much to write but then im more familiar with that topic.

okay so as i was in the toilet i brushing my teeth i was thinking which topic to choose. THEN IT STUCK ME... Then i realised... then i recalled... then i knew...


We're the planet-eers, and you can be one too! cause saving our planet is the thing to do. looting and polluting, is not the way. Hear wad Captain Planet has to say,

"The Power Is Yours!!"

Thursday, September 01, 2005
12:52 PM

I am just too physically exhausted already. after 5 hrs of soccer under the sun, sheesh. not only does it come with the tanned, my face seems to be starting to peal. had teachers day celebration today. my class dance was okay. the concert was okay. then they had this super big cake to celebrate and stuff lah. okay.

oh yeah, had ACES day before that, which proved to be a COMPLETE failure. couldnt even hear or really see wad they were doing. then i was like talking to Yeeyan bout something, something bout the sun's gonna come up and cast shadows. then he went, "wad shadows, so Christiany, dont talk to me wad shadow wad light, wad darkness, so Christiany." and added his very own disgusted face. that guy's really paranoid man, and could see he purposely kinda say it loud lah, think his Mr Charisma or something. okay wadeva. didnt want to argue with him so i kinda changed the subject. i think melcher could sense that yeeyan purposely like that lah. oh well. apart from that, today's an awesome day!! haha. Shanghong said that i suffered duno wad degree burns on my skin from sunburn. sheesh, i didnt know u can measure sunburns by that degrees thing.

trashed the old-boys in soccer man, won first game 3-0, then was leading 2-0 in the second game but eventually became 3-2. then you could hear them sprouting a colourful range of vocabulary on how they were playing, blaming each other and wadeva lah. oh well. then went back to the canteen and the OM kindly asked us to go eat the teacher's day cake and the food there. okay so wow, haha. the big cake u were all staring at from your seats, some part of it went into my mouth!! haha. okok. after that made my way down to join the others for a few more rounds of soccer.

which expains why i am so so tired right now, feels as though my legs are gonna break soon.