oh yeah. this is those days which i would like to call, rollercoaster days. it was kinda nerve wrecking the whole day lah. well at least it seems that way. no one was like really listening to the lessons, all staring at the clock.. waiting for the release of the GCE O level mother tongue results. i kinda lived the whole morning with the fact that the reality and chance of my getting a B4 and C5 was very likely, and worse case C6 lah. erm, dont really want a D7 lah, but if thats what i get then so be it lah. i kinda told myself that D7 and able, and no more chinese for me, till next year that is. okay so yeah.

time ticks away.. and the period before was geog if im not wrong.. then Michael told me to look outta window, and i saw our form teacher, with a paper in her hand(which just so happens to be the result slip) walking towards the Chemistry lab. and it was then that i started to notice that she wasnt smiling at the results, in fact, kinda straight face. then we were like, 'oh boy..' and ivan was like so freakin out beside me. anyway, we kinda planned that we were gonna die together and move on. no more retaking no matter the outcome. sheesh lah. failing with him since sec 1.

okay when the principal announced that our school had 100% passes i was like, "HALLELUJAH!" that so rules out the D7, and below. okay i was so relieved like wow. coz if u were to read my previous post u would have come to the conclusion that i was gonna get a 7 or higher. okay so maybe everyone around me were like super nervous, well including me lah. then the principal announced that our class msg was 2.35, our whole class was like clapping. haha. then when announced the other classes msg, which ranged till even 1.4, kinda malu already. supposed to be the 'best' class eh. well okay. one by one they went to get their results lah. from the back u can see all the smiles and more teethy smiles. ya know that all the A1s are getting exhausted. not as if i thought i would get that lah, but as more and more As appear, the chances of Bs started to get so much HIGHER.

okay lah. went up to my form teacher, and she was like saying this in mandarin, "Congratulations! u got a 4!" i kinda heard as a 'C' coz im sure they do sound alike in mandarin. i was like kinda insulted for that moment lah. like my whole class getting As and B3s and wow u come and like that.. okay lah, i heard wrongly lah, my form teacher is very nice okay. then she asked me in mandarin, "are you satisfied?" i smiled and say yes lah. okay, frankly i was very glad. i wont say overly satisfied though, but if this is the results im getting, so be it then.

oh yeah i wanna add this point here. i just can't stand it when a few insensitive jokers come running down the line and rejoicing over their A1s.. Its not that i dont want them to be happy, i certainly do. but u gotta be sensitive to those who dont get their desired score lah. quite a few in our class were kinda depressed with their results, and there u have it, another joker laughing hilariously at their academic achievements. if ya all had spared a thought for others and stop being so self-centered, im sure much more people would be rejoicing with you.. you should have seen the look on _____'s face when someone came running down the row shouting A1.. wah i neva ever seen him that shaken and lost before lah. and please, do not go and try to like 'console' them saying stuff like, 'nvm lah B3 can lah, good already wad..' ya know it isnt the wise-est thing to do esp. you know that they have very high expectations yeah. but do approach in a more sensitive way. sheesh.. okay.. just had to get that off my chest yeah..

well yeah. hope u did get wad u expected to get. and if u get A2s or B3s, thats very Good already!! dont feel too bad yeah.. results aint everything. its the effort that counts!! Move on yeah, but if u seriously think that u gonna use mother tongue as your L1R5 and u can do better, go retake then.. but if u just want it to look nice on your cert, i would suggest ya move on and concentrate on your other subjects, coz other subjects are also very important yeahh. always remember, God has a plan for you. rejoice in every situation. for all ya know you would be getting your A1s if u do retake!!

kinda wanted to console those who didnt fair that well(even though i was like the lowest in class together with ivan. the 'fantasic B4') i kinda successfully after a long try managed to persue this classmate down for lunch, saying that i would treat him. kinda of a close friend yeah, so i wanted to do something. eh im not some Mr Kind and Gentleman. dont get me wrong as im some act friendly kid. i mean if its your friend u are seeing in despair.. u get wad i mean.. then as i reached the canteen, i realised that i didnt have enough money to buy him lunch.. Woah wadeva lah. so paiseh.

I had a 'P' for my orals lah. which is a Pass. pathetic lah. the whole class is like getting Distinctions and Merits. oh yeah come to think of it, the invigilators who cut u guys off during Chinese Orals, THEY GAVE U GUYS YOUR DISTINCTIONS!! haha. oh well. with my Orals like that and my Chinese listening compre having half the paper gone, no point retaking also, since i cant retake orals and listening compre. oh well. thats final B4 for my O levels chinese. thank God lah. i seriously thought i was gonna, ya know..

okay called my mom and told her. and haha she kinda agreed that i would not retake, together with the support of my chinese teacher. played soccer after that. quite surprised lah, still quite on form. haha. then made my way to Bedok for tuition, and kinda decided to play soccer again before that, only to be trashed in 'ole' by these two super pro young adults. oh well. had bio remedial, and caught up with Daryl bout FOP and then we talked kinda alot on the Da Vinci Code. and i was thinking yeah, the book is classified under Fiction, yet how can it be that millions of people all over the world are like hypnotised and believe it wholeheartedly. on a fiction book???

Dan Brown is a good writer yes, and mixes facts very well, and occassionally throwing in a few crap and bullshit here and there, which ultimately changes everything. and i was thinking, the Devil can only work if God forbids am i not right? so how can it be that God would allow millions of people all around the world to fall into the trap of deception? well God's ways we cant understand, but one very possible reason i would say, is to fulfil the scriptures, in Matthew 24:4-5, 'Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,' and will decieve many." and Matthew 24:11, 'and many false prophets will appear and decieve many people.' all these fall under the Signs of the End of the Age. well yeah, whether u believe it its up to you yeah.