the new tv came today, just in time for Smallville season finale. guess wad? when they were about to remove the previous, the even previous TV, they realised that the reason why the tv didnt work was coz the SCV cable wasnt attached properly, and the tv is working just fine. so guess wad? i have no TWO prefectly working televisions side by side with SCV to every single channel!! talk about ignorance is bliss man. haha.

okay i resigned to the fact that i would most probably be staying at home for the first 3 months next year. i mean, i totally flunk English, SS, A maths this time. with the whole compo out of point, and the whole paper filled with the wrong grammer(i wrote the whole essay in present tense), and that 2 and a half page long passage for comprehension talking bout this woman who prophesised through breathing in vapour and wadeva. and i found out yesterday that there was no absolute chance i could pass my Amath prelims coz i got half the paper wrong.

Happy Teachers Day!!???

okay lets make this quick coz im so desperate for sleep. nothing much today lah, just that PE lesson was awesome!! haha. we played soccer with miss thor, and the girls. haha super hilariously funny. then watch miss thor head the ball!! okay it was more like the ball bounce off her head. then i was like holding possession of the ball tempting her to come get it, then she approached and then retreated, saying " i know wad ya gonna do, and im not gonna fall for your trick." haha yeah i kinda planned to nutmeg her. oh man. then watch how the ball kept hitting people so unintentionally. and wanlin so couldnt stop screaming everytime the ball was near her..

okay Mrs Wong finally came back. then i got her to mark my Mock prelims geog section A. sian lah, 2/25. like oh man this is so crappy, and best part is, i managed to get 21/25 for section B. wad a contradiction. anyway, she was so kind enough to lend me her old copy of that wonderful guidebook(i forgot the name) yeah. okay. then erm basically went for tuition and was SO SO SO tired..

had bio tuition. didnt go for dinner today coz Daryl had to study for his Uni i think. like drats. everyone so tied up with studies. Prelims starts tomorrow!! and my s.s. is so dead lah. i hadnt even completed 1 theme, and my whole s.s. file is GONE!! oh well. Matthias so thankfully decided to change CG to Friday instead, at least now i can study for my A math. haha yeah. NIGHT!!!

My sister was so misbehaving and not wanting to study for the chinese exam tomorrow. haha can understand, its chinese after all. but then again her chinese is pro one okay. so i kinda told her to come, and looked her straight into the eyes, and kinda gave her a lecture. she made my parents really angry lah, and my dad and brother didnt wanna teach her, and my mom was just too busy so yeah, guess its up to me. i told her she better study or my mom's gonna be so disappointed, and the doctor says that my mom's health is gonna deteriorate and worst case would be my mom's gonna end up in the hospital(this is true okay.), and that she had better study hard and not make my mom angry no longer and me a good girl. wah, as i said this her eyes started to turn red.. NNNOOOOO!!! dont cry dont cry. luckly she didnt, wow and now she is like studying to hard now, even putting me to shame.

woah im very surprised for her maturity at her age lah. the other time when we were in Sydney she cried coz i went to ride on those huge rollercoasters. she cried coz she was so very worried for me. and she was just like 7 years old then!! thank God for such a sister!!

and my sister actually teaches me chinese.. i gave chinese spelling and she was like, "no, u see carefully, its ______!" sheesh lah.

im starting to get really worried and bothered bout Prelims..

okay i had this weirdest dream ever. subconciously in my mind i was telling myself to remember to get up in time for service. then i had this dream that i was attending this Planet Shakers concert, on sat morning before service, then i duno why i kept leaving the venue for some reason, then when i came back, i realised that they had stopped the concert. so i went in and asked why they stopped the concert, then this guy in charged told me, "look at the crowd, do u see anybody left? no one's watching this concert," so i told him, "well, im here." then i went to my seat and then i was suddenly talking to this guy, okay that doesnt matter, then guess wad? i was then talking to Natalie Portman! i told she looked kinda familiar, then realised how my dream turned from a Planet Shakers concert into a Star Wars movie review. okay anyhow i woked up haha.

okay went for prayer meet and thankfully we made it on time. 12.oopm. service was also totally awesome today. during lunch time i realised that i was seriously short of cash. with RC fund to pay, presents to pay, and lunch and dinner to settle. then Clement kinda had no money so had to sponsor him lunch. ahh!! didnt have enough for Martin, paiseh lah. oh well. then after that went for CLM meeting. WOW. haha my first CLM meeting lah. kinda fun, okay heres the catch. my shirt was kinda small lah, i mean the cutting was kinda short in length, so when i sit down like can ya know, expose wadeva. haha so playing games i had to be so extra careful not to.. haha. anyway, CLM ended like around 7pm. we then went over to Serangoon mac to discuss some retreat stuff. along the way met Michael and Dixon, they had just finished baking their cookies. then walked a bit more and saw Miss Ong my new chemistry teacher. then she kinda didnt recognise me so i spoke in a voice which later seemed to be a bit too loud, i called out Miss Ong. then she stopped and was kinda surprise, she mistook Matthias, Martin and Luke as her students too lah. haha. then she asked what i was doing and then which church i attended.. hmm.. lets see, thats like 6 teachers asking me bout this already. haha.

we discussed some CG plans at Serangoon Mac. gonna have CG on thursday, gonna try something different. i still have my Prelims on thursday and friday okay. gonna really pray that God would bless me in my studies so that i can really be salt and light to the world, esp to my class yeah. then this unknown caller called my hp again. okay i totally know who it is lah, this sec 3 tuition girl. i think she got my number from the old log in book. sheesh. she would like call and then hang up after i say hello. but then sometimes Jon or whoever uses unknown numbers so i really contemplate the urgency to pick up? talked along the way to Matthias house and was kinda fun lah. but i was very exhausted by then. reached Mat's house.

okay at first i thought that his dog Sassy was kinda gross, okay very gross. i kept JUMPING on us and licking us all over. literally using its paw to maul you. furthermore, it does BITE. but then after a while kinda got used to the fact that im gonna get dog saliva all over me. we sat down and played with her. she licked me all over my jeans, my arms, my face, and okay here's the ultimate, she licked me on my mouth!!!! oh man, my first time's with a dog?? haha. okay fine. but she's so super cute and adorable lah!! kept playing with her, making her fetch her toys. haha. the funniest part is that she knows how to fetch but cant seem to open her mouth and let the toy go. she's super duperly huggable lah. and she would lie on your lap and let u rub her belly. i even chased her all over Matthias house... well okay, maybe it was more of she chasing me. haha.

Oh Matthias had a wonderful family too. his parents are very loving lah. and the sweetest thing is, his elder sis made Milo Dino for us. haha like wow lah. honestly, which one of you had made my anything to drink? haha. kaiwen smsed me, asking me whether can shepherd him tomorrow. haha. okay man, so enthu.

okay well kinda tired. oh yeah, Happy Birthday GIDEON!!! okay, he said the best birthday gift he got was me getting a B4 for my chinese O's okay. haha. dont come and be jealous over here. ay, gonna go shepherd kw and then think would go down to Bedok.

just finished writing my O Level testimony. okay basically quite alot of gibberish, and plus the fact that i so desperately tried to extend the length of my testimonial. haha, i even used the covernant of CG list and qualities. oh man. then Miss tan just replied my sms like at 11.50pm saying i can hand in on monday. oh well.

Prelims are like in 5 days!!??

quite a long day. Miss dianne thor made me kiss the volleyball 10 times just because my leg so innocently and accidently touched it. she said i was kicking the volleyball..

miss ong refused to cancel the chemistry test and i was so busy trying to figure out my amaths that i didnt learn the chemistry lah. left the whole essay blank and did only the mcqs, then slept for 50 mins. when i woke up i kinda made the whole tabletop moist from my breath and my whole right arm was so numb. so if miss ong were to scold ya all coz of me, its not that i didnt wanna do okay, its i had no idea how to..

celebrated Miss Tan's birthday today, yeah my form teacher's. quite sweet of the class community to think of that, but use classfund to buy bouquet of flowers and cake. heartache arh. haha. oh well. it was worth it lah i guess. oh yeah. okay then heard some of my all-american rejects CD: Move along in school today. i supposed to have it out for loan so that others can borrow. but kinda was tempted to listen to it when miss tan passed us the hi-fi set. guess wad? Shanghong agrees with me too that AAR is nice!!! wahahaah. i tell u catchin him listening to a pop-rock band is as good as watching pigs fly. goodness lah. he so totally agreed it was so nice and there u have it, another AAR fan!! haha. gonna burn him a copy of the first AAR cd and the recent one.

okay caregroup was real fun lah, with Alex from Hope HongKong joining us!! very touching lah, especially when he shared his testimony with us. not easy to lead games and testimony in mandarin lah. u try saying caregroup or some chim word in chinese. haha oh well. managed to lah. tried out this new game which worked pretty well. then as we went down the HDB block someone pressed the alarm of the lift. and i realised that someone was stuck inside. okay i called the hotline and was kinda surprised at how efficient the system was. only two questions, "what happened?" and "which block?". went over to play basketball and soccer afterwards.

okay so now im back home.

read this from a mail my aunt sent me.



If you woke up this morning
with more health than illness,
you are more blessed than the
million who won't survive the week.

If you have never experienced
the danger of battle,
the loneliness of imprisonment,
the agony of torture orthe pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 20 million people
around the world.

If you attend a church meeting
without fear of harassment,
arrest, torture, or death,
you are more blessed than almost
three billion people in the world.

If you have food in your refrigerator,
clothes on your back,
a roof overyour head and a place to sleep,
you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank,
in your wallet, and spare change
in a dish someplace, you are among
the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still married and alive,
you are very rare,
especially in the United States.

If you hold up your head with a smile
on your face and are truly thankful,
you are blessed because the majority can,
but most do not.

If you can hold someone's hand, hug them
or even touch them on the shoulder,
you are blessed because you can
offer God's healing touch.

If you can read this message,
you are more blessed than over
two billion people in the world
that cannot read anything at all.

You are so blessed in ways
you may never even know.

eventually, i realised that the decision to go down to bishan cc, and bumping into Melcher and Jason, all was part of God's amazing plan. i used to wonder how it would have been like when God really spoke to us. and how it would be like to hear from God. would i just pass it off as a thought in my mind? Gideon once told me when i stayed over at his place, about how God let him have the moment of experiencing how God felt about us the actions of man. and how Gideon broke into tears uncontrollably while watching the finale of Survivor, and how he felt God's heartbeat. i thought it was truely amazing.

the four of us, Melcher, Jason, Martin and i were at bishan mac. they were trying to mug while erm i guess i was getting high again. it was around 8.30pm, when i heard from God. it's like out of the blue, God spoke to me. no, im not some kinda psycho kid, but its just because our God is a living God. i then understood the meaning of God revealing himself to us. well i was kinda stunned and was overwhelmed with mixed emotions. i didnt really know how to react. i felt like breaking down and sinking into my own world. and i guess i tried really hard to act normal, but i guessed it was not much of a success coz melcher smsed me after we parted that he noticed that i looked kinda sad, and Martin went to buy this awesome badge for me to cheer me up, love you martin for that. im fine yeah.

as i walked back home. i started tearing. yes, and whoever said that we could control our tears was obviously wrong. it was like wad He said really made so much sense and the reality really hit home, i just started crying uncontrollably. honestly, i didnt really know what was happening to me, and why exactly was i crying. thank God no one noticed. its a different feeling as when one worship God to tears. almost the same, but sorta different. i started breaking down into a cry, and i desperately searched for a quiet place to sort things out with God. i really wanted to like just go and hug him and thank Him so much for what he has done and is going to do. i kinda walked around my neighbourhood. with time i caught my breath, and really appreciated and pondered on the what Jesus had done, and the lyrics of 'Here i am to worship' really spoke to me.

i realised how God would and could actually speak to us. through, our leaders, through the Holy Spirit, and through the word of God. all the more, i cant deny the fact that He is real, that He certainly do exist. what He told me i shant tell you, haha, i would like to keep things between me and Him lah. but what u do need to know is no matter how we love to believe that one day our dearest friends and family would know the truth, there is gonna be so many people who would not believe and recieve salvation through faith, unless we Christians do something about that. whether the world is gonna change, whether you want to see your family living a life of purpose and whether one day the whole earth would praise God with one heart and soul, is totally up to YOU, the very person reading this. God has certainly tighten and pulled my family back together. He saved me from what i was. Do we take your salvation for granted? Do we take God for granted? as pastor Shirley puts it, "for all the time we spend and things we give to God, has God ever short-changed you? if you truely spend time and think about that, you would be extremely grateful." now i truely understand how people felt and was going through when God reveal Himself to us. this is certainly a very special day to me in my walk with God, like wow lah. alright then. see ya in school tomorrow.

Wondrous mystery
In the pages of history
Of a man who bled and died for me
It's more than a story
He’s the one who hung up on a tree
His crimson flow poured out for me
Gave His life to set me free

I fall down, I fall down
And I fall down on my knees
And cry holy is the Lord
Worship Him, worship Him and adore

oh yeah. this is those days which i would like to call, rollercoaster days. it was kinda nerve wrecking the whole day lah. well at least it seems that way. no one was like really listening to the lessons, all staring at the clock.. waiting for the release of the GCE O level mother tongue results. i kinda lived the whole morning with the fact that the reality and chance of my getting a B4 and C5 was very likely, and worse case C6 lah. erm, dont really want a D7 lah, but if thats what i get then so be it lah. i kinda told myself that D7 and able, and no more chinese for me, till next year that is. okay so yeah.

time ticks away.. and the period before was geog if im not wrong.. then Michael told me to look outta window, and i saw our form teacher, with a paper in her hand(which just so happens to be the result slip) walking towards the Chemistry lab. and it was then that i started to notice that she wasnt smiling at the results, in fact, kinda straight face. then we were like, 'oh boy..' and ivan was like so freakin out beside me. anyway, we kinda planned that we were gonna die together and move on. no more retaking no matter the outcome. sheesh lah. failing with him since sec 1.

okay when the principal announced that our school had 100% passes i was like, "HALLELUJAH!" that so rules out the D7, and below. okay i was so relieved like wow. coz if u were to read my previous post u would have come to the conclusion that i was gonna get a 7 or higher. okay so maybe everyone around me were like super nervous, well including me lah. then the principal announced that our class msg was 2.35, our whole class was like clapping. haha. then when announced the other classes msg, which ranged till even 1.4, kinda malu already. supposed to be the 'best' class eh. well okay. one by one they went to get their results lah. from the back u can see all the smiles and more teethy smiles. ya know that all the A1s are getting exhausted. not as if i thought i would get that lah, but as more and more As appear, the chances of Bs started to get so much HIGHER.

okay lah. went up to my form teacher, and she was like saying this in mandarin, "Congratulations! u got a 4!" i kinda heard as a 'C' coz im sure they do sound alike in mandarin. i was like kinda insulted for that moment lah. like my whole class getting As and B3s and wow u come and like that.. okay lah, i heard wrongly lah, my form teacher is very nice okay. then she asked me in mandarin, "are you satisfied?" i smiled and say yes lah. okay, frankly i was very glad. i wont say overly satisfied though, but if this is the results im getting, so be it then.

oh yeah i wanna add this point here. i just can't stand it when a few insensitive jokers come running down the line and rejoicing over their A1s.. Its not that i dont want them to be happy, i certainly do. but u gotta be sensitive to those who dont get their desired score lah. quite a few in our class were kinda depressed with their results, and there u have it, another joker laughing hilariously at their academic achievements. if ya all had spared a thought for others and stop being so self-centered, im sure much more people would be rejoicing with you.. you should have seen the look on _____'s face when someone came running down the row shouting A1.. wah i neva ever seen him that shaken and lost before lah. and please, do not go and try to like 'console' them saying stuff like, 'nvm lah B3 can lah, good already wad..' ya know it isnt the wise-est thing to do esp. you know that they have very high expectations yeah. but do approach in a more sensitive way. sheesh.. okay.. just had to get that off my chest yeah..

well yeah. hope u did get wad u expected to get. and if u get A2s or B3s, thats very Good already!! dont feel too bad yeah.. results aint everything. its the effort that counts!! Move on yeah, but if u seriously think that u gonna use mother tongue as your L1R5 and u can do better, go retake then.. but if u just want it to look nice on your cert, i would suggest ya move on and concentrate on your other subjects, coz other subjects are also very important yeahh. always remember, God has a plan for you. rejoice in every situation. for all ya know you would be getting your A1s if u do retake!!

kinda wanted to console those who didnt fair that well(even though i was like the lowest in class together with ivan. the 'fantasic B4') i kinda successfully after a long try managed to persue this classmate down for lunch, saying that i would treat him. kinda of a close friend yeah, so i wanted to do something. eh im not some Mr Kind and Gentleman. dont get me wrong as im some act friendly kid. i mean if its your friend u are seeing in despair.. u get wad i mean.. then as i reached the canteen, i realised that i didnt have enough money to buy him lunch.. Woah wadeva lah. so paiseh.

I had a 'P' for my orals lah. which is a Pass. pathetic lah. the whole class is like getting Distinctions and Merits. oh yeah come to think of it, the invigilators who cut u guys off during Chinese Orals, THEY GAVE U GUYS YOUR DISTINCTIONS!! haha. oh well. with my Orals like that and my Chinese listening compre having half the paper gone, no point retaking also, since i cant retake orals and listening compre. oh well. thats final B4 for my O levels chinese. thank God lah. i seriously thought i was gonna, ya know..

okay called my mom and told her. and haha she kinda agreed that i would not retake, together with the support of my chinese teacher. played soccer after that. quite surprised lah, still quite on form. haha. then made my way to Bedok for tuition, and kinda decided to play soccer again before that, only to be trashed in 'ole' by these two super pro young adults. oh well. had bio remedial, and caught up with Daryl bout FOP and then we talked kinda alot on the Da Vinci Code. and i was thinking yeah, the book is classified under Fiction, yet how can it be that millions of people all over the world are like hypnotised and believe it wholeheartedly. on a fiction book???

Dan Brown is a good writer yes, and mixes facts very well, and occassionally throwing in a few crap and bullshit here and there, which ultimately changes everything. and i was thinking, the Devil can only work if God forbids am i not right? so how can it be that God would allow millions of people all around the world to fall into the trap of deception? well God's ways we cant understand, but one very possible reason i would say, is to fulfil the scriptures, in Matthew 24:4-5, 'Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,' and will decieve many." and Matthew 24:11, 'and many false prophets will appear and decieve many people.' all these fall under the Signs of the End of the Age. well yeah, whether u believe it its up to you yeah.

Finally its over. English O levels are over... well at least the orals part though. Cool eh? im among the first in Singapore to finish with my English Orals lah. First to get it over with in my school yeap. then my school is those super kaisu type lah. haha wadeva lah. was the first in my group to take the Orals yeah. i so didnt know i was suppose to be the first untill like 5 mins before. so definitely as any human would i felt kinda nervous, well okay more than kinda nervous. but after some prayer and all, things definitely felt so much better.

okay apart from the fact that i had no idea that we could, and were suppose to, add on the questions that they ask, as in to elaborate outta the questions(which obviously i did not), and how i pronounced culinary as 'culary' skills 4 times, and how i answered negatively, it was okay. aiyah move on lah. no matter what happens it cant change the fact that, as mrs ngiam puts is, the sun continues to rise and set. oh well.

oh yeah. after 4 long and fat years, finally. the release of GCE O Level Chinese results would be TOMORROW!!!!! aaaahhhh!!!!!! wadeva. sian lah. not really keen on knowing my results. gonna have bio pratical after that lah. then miss tan was like, " oh dont worry, i had students crying while doing my pratical last year also, i can cope." sheesh lah she. dats so cheesy. okay well yeah. its tml guys!! but all in all if u do well thank God yeah, if not then 1 Peter 5:7 or Jeremiah 29:11. Move on okay.. haha getting ya all ready for the results. wont be retaking as long as i get a D7 and above. other subjects are more important lah.

Happy Birthday Singapore!! okay wadeva. haha. anyway we celebrated national day in school yesterday, very boring lah. nothing much happened just that the teachers tried to get the school to be really engaged in the national day songs. i mean joke lah. the atmosphere wasnt even a fraction of FOP's. anyway, the principal had this girl punished, just coz she wasn't clapping for the performance. And the principal scolded the whole school not coz we jeered at the Counseller thingy, but coz the school cheered and clapped for the event. she said she only wanted clapping. Wah dots lah.

then after i had bio practical and miss tan said she didnt want see my running off during her classes for church. wah she is SO unreasonable. firstly its a saturday. secondly its not im going to play or wad lah, u try asking u muslim not to go to mosque for friday prayers. she said the one above is not gonna miss me but she is, as in jokingly lah. Joke arh she. so i told her i couldnt make it, then she said she's gonna issue me detention classes. dont care man. see wad i can do bout it when the time comes. then mrs ngiam sad she was gonna have physics pratical corrections after that. she was fine with me not going but there was no way she was going to go through it again. which would also mean the few hours i spend yesterday on physics practical is all going to go to waste..

okay went to my cousin's house for a birthday party and was surprised to find that she can play the guitar quite well too lah.


woke up quite late today, and sort of missed breakfast. then this girl messaged me on my cell out of the blue, i was like kinda blur and still half-awake so just answer her questions, like monologue. then i think after 2 messages she kinda got bored and neva replied. aiyah dont really care lah. okay went out with Matthias for our first shepherding. quite fun lah and watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. then this european kid infront of us super cute lah. he said, "i want a big bar of chocolate." okay lah maybe u read from me not cute, but he was super cute lah haha. and we went in the theatre without knowing whether it was the right one then Matthias kinda asked the guy beside him and the couple kinda laughed at us. okay the show was surprisingly nice, although we both entered only knowing its about this boy called Charlie, in a chocolate factory. oh yeah, saw Debbie, Wynnie and company before that at Far East plaza.

oh All-American Rejects: Move Along, is awesome. yeah so rocks lah. very very nice, and im very sure that its gonna grow into my and im gonna so totally love it just as i did with their first album. okay, anyway Sumahdi's coming back tml and would be seeing him. ay, full day tuition and i got to find the time to have a haircut.

my dad just nagged at me coz he found my brother reading in the dark lying in bed. like how is that my fault lah. my dad says he is my brother and i should pay attention to him and how come i didnt ask him to get up. like goodness lah, my dad is just like in the room next to my brother's and im out in the hall all along. so how is that my.. ahhh. wadeva lah he. getting more and more unreasonable lately. oh well. MOVE ALONG.

wad a wonderful day to end off this year's Festival of Praise. the overflowing of the Holy Spirit. the powerful presence of God. aahhh. its beyond anything of this world. ask those who were there, they would testify that.

Let me offically announce, those who plan to bless me with the all-american rejects CD: Move along. Drop the idea!! haha bought it at HMV just now. the preview was too tempting lah. my fav secular band.

went down to Somerset and met Martin, only to realise that there wasnt Breakthrough teaching today at 11am. so strolled around Heeren and just slacked lah. then went to Mount Zion and saw some stuff, before meeting Kaiwen and go for service. i was really really sleepy and exhausted. FOP yesterday and reaching home at 2.15 am really took its toll on me. felt so physically drained during praise and worship i felt as though i was half-dead half-undead? lol. okay sermon was still impactful though.

today was our coreteam retreat. everyone worked really really hard lah. yeah, and i mean really hard lah. bunch of Jc dudes, A level and O level dudes serving God like crazy while everyone else is like totally muggin away. went to Settler's Cafe for our retreat. wads special bout this place? they had every single kind of board game u could ever imagine. had lots of fun playing board games and enjoying each others company. never knew i could get so much fun out of playing boardgames. oh yeah, halfway through this camera guy came in with those mediacorp camera and videoed the place. even how we spastically go crazy over a game of Pit(if i got the name correct), modified form of Heart-attack. then they had this rubber hammer where we really got to wack the hands of the players. learnt quite a few new games. played board games and card games for 5 hours. over exceeded by alot. Okay listen up, guess how much it cost for playing 5 hrs of board games? No, not $10, not $30 either, but.... $168.30!! woah its like, i dont even know how to describe it. $168.30 for playing board games.. oh my.. dont even know how we managed to leave that place.

went over the Mac to have dinner after that. Pastor Jeff shared about Building Up People In Community during sermon today, and Jon very pratically applied the sermon then lah, and everyone took turns to affirm each other. gonna leave out the details here, for if i were to blog it all down u probably be needing lots of that tissue to dry your eyes. i would say NEE2 is really a remarkable bunch of people. each and everyone of you are like, a History Maker in my eyes yeah. Outstanding individuals who are just so dear and loving people. i'm not trying to boot-lick here lah, but i would certainly be willing to lay down my life for any of you all in that instant. it is such love that is selfless, and has thought me the true meaning of love and selflessness. the love that you people have for others really is compelling, which also explains why our caregroup has grown so much, both in quality and quantity.

it was a really significant time and we were all feeling kinda sad. Last coreteam meeting as NEE2, for as there has been restructuring and the caregroup is gonna split into two. Matthias is now my new shepherd. im perfectly fine with it. in fact, ya all are such wonderful people i would be fine with anyone as my shepherd. for in the caregroup no one is view-ed by their position and role they play, but simply as brothers working towards a common goal. oh boy, i gonna cry just typing this, with Magnificent by Hillsong playing in the background. the restructing would all be for God's glory and we are gonna rise up and grow, from glory to glory.

after the coreteam meeting as i was walking back. i felt as though the Holy Spirit was really pouring through my soul. its just so amazing, how i have grown, how the group has grown, and how God's kingdom will definitely continue to grow.

You out there. Dont be afraid to stand up for wad u know is right. Let the bible tell us who we should be, not our peers. dont talk among yourselves at church and glue to each other. Show love to the visitors. Talk to them, love them. Love in action, Rich in good deeds. Outdo one another in loving others. Never let a soul turn away from knowing Jesus, just because you neglected them.

Hebrews 10:25
"Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another- and all the more as your see the Day approaching."

reached home at around 2.15am this morning. was very exhausted too even on my com.

well much happen yesterday. shall blog bout the only important ones coz i have church like in 45 mins time..

Sumahdi couldnt make it for FOP yesterday, coz of some family stuff. was kinda disillusioned for the whole geog lesson lah. like after so much SOWing and hard work and planning, why must this have to happen.. oh well.

gotta really cut short on sentences here, gotta leave soon.. went over the Melcher's house to drop our bags and change. Daryl couldnt make it earlier coz he was called back to camp. okay, after some Playstation at Melcher's house went to Singapore indoor Stadium for FOP. we reached at around 4.30pm, already quite a considerable amount of people, best part is we get to cut all of them, and met up with Desmond, Martin, Clarence and the other Hoppies. haha. played caregroup games such as Concentration and worshipped while waiting lah. even sang Christ in the Vessel, which was recorded down but the FOP cameraman.. haha infamous jokers.

the FOP was great lah, had a very very good seat, all the way in the middle. Martin bought the FOP magazine and a sentence inside so totally said it all, "The Lord Gives And The Lord Takes Away." the concert was great, but i couldnt really worship for the whole first part of the concert as this Security guy was standing so near infront of me and keep turning back every 10 seconds. im serious lah. then its like everytime he turn he block me and the lighting, so close eyes also can see him move, then when i open my eyes, see that joker staring back. goodness, his mic put so loud too lah. oh well. Hillsong and Delirious? were equally awesome, and i even got the witness Delirious? first performance in Singapore. there were many converts, i think even more than our ESS.. haha. the speaker Rev. Colin Dye was really spirit anoited too lah.

okay after everything ended Colleen called me. okay, kinda funny lah haha. apparently she was at FOP too lah but i didnt really see her.

okay okay after eating everything already 2am, so kinda found my way back to my cozy bed.

see u later!!

kinda strange it seems. school is just the same. and not to mention that the workload is really piling. on 8th of August, while the rest of the Singapore is off on a half-day holiday, your dear brother over here has to undergo, not 1, not 2, but 3 remedials one after another.. oh man. sigh.

right, anyway, school is really not my concern right now yeah. went for tuition just now, but ended up at the Bedok CC street-soccer court. haha. played for bout an hour plus, before arrival at Tan's just in time for Daryl to give us Bio tuition. did some exam paper. kinda sian lah. haha but anyway, best part was the dinner at Chom Pang or wadeva it is called. along the way, talked alot bout F.O.P. this coming friday and Christian music. i mean really thank God for such wonder people around me lah. NEE2, Hope brothers and sisters, Daryl, my friends, haha, and not to forget my family, etc etc. haha its like i seriously enjoy serving God together with you fellow brothers and sisters, really a joy lah. Daryl's gonna be queueing for FOP on friday. best part is, im gonna meet him with someone whom God really tells me i am gonna see accept Christ like very very soon. wah i cannot wait lah.

Friday. Saturday. Sunday.

Happy Birthday Kaiwen!!