Here I am dying to say
I am desperate for Your touch
I fall upon this dessert ground and I am
Empty at your feet
Will You break me now

Will you take me in Your grace
Take me deeper in love
Take me deeper with You
Where the streams are the mercy run
Fill Your waves over me
Fill Your power over me
In the roar of Your waterfall

Wash away the hidden stains
Of my falleness I pray
I'll tell the world
Of all You've done
Of Your saving power in me

Saturate me now
Ever lead me in Your grace

Feel Your waves crashing over me
I am in Your love
I am in Your love

Late for school today. First time in 4 years okay. Not exactly first time lah, but then first time that i am caught late without excuse letter or MC. Sian. then go had to stand outside school gate by the road there coz cannot enter. Why?? Coz of the National Anthem being played. like sian lah. then ikhtiar came along. After flag raising went to G.O. to get appeal letter. its like first time i using it lah. How cool. lol. then form teacher said she wanted to see me regarding that day i missed school for church camp. how uncool lah. i mean first day of school. not to mention we had this bio test which i thought was on tuesday so i didnt bring back my textbook from school.

had a new chemistry teacher. okay lah, but doesnt change the fact that i still utterly detest that subject. went to see my form teacher during recess, and she kinda gave me a lecture on how i should have informed her earlier. i mean i got the letter on saturday, Monday she wasnt in school, i had to be at camp on tuesday.. aiyah, but still kinda my fault that i didnt sms her and tell her. yeah wadeva. then she kinda said that my piority was a student and that church is like something that i join, in a way second piority. i dont agree with that lah. remember i said, a Christian that happens to be a student? yeah. that doesnt agree with wad she said lah. i mean, its like saying, you're a teacher and being Chinese is secondary?? at least it doesnt make sense to me. oh well. at least she was kind enough to sign my appeal letter and pass it to Mr Lim for on my behalf.

went to Melcher's place after school to catch up on the two Smallville episodes i missed due to, and only due to the fact that i was at tuition. haha. by then i so sleepy liao lah. reached tuition kinda caught up with ShangHong. ya know i dont really get to do that in school, then Daryl came and we for once got to go upstairs for tuition. woah super big lah. the masterbedroom used as a tuition room. then newly renovated. woah all i can say its big lah. bigger than the living room plus kitchen of many HDB flats. okay after bio tution went to duno where to have dinner. at Bedok lah, one of Daryl's old eating spots lah. lol. had a kinda great time i must say on the ride there. talking bout Christian bands and wad type of songs were cool. and he kinda urged me to pick up Sonicflood, another Christian band i yet to explore into. kinda cool yeah, talking to your tuition teacher bout such stuff, haha, so much so that i think Sumahdi felt kinda left out.

oh well. long day lah. test and all. see ya tml then.

Your faith in the fact that a chair will support you causes you to act by sitting in the chair. The result is that you feel the comfort of the chair's strength. Even when you don't feel relaxed in the chair, it continues to support you. In the same way, you must rely on the factual promises of God's Word, rather than your feelings. Good feelings may come and go, but the fact of God's love for you and his forgiveness remain consistent.

First of all, Breakthrough!! Today we had 2 SRJC converts. Hallelujah! lol. for more than a year already, SRJC had no new brother converts. Thank God that Guo Hao and Edwin converted. like wow lah. oh well.

asked Jon Tay bout my spiritual gifting, woah he said exactly wad the quiz gave me. plus Martin confirmed it too yeah. haha.

went tuition after DMM. sian go there do sets. Oh man. Forgot everything lah.

woah dont feel like blogging, coz its 12.18am and i am still without dinner. Sian lah. Mom couldnt pick me up from tuition coz she had to be at the wake. so kinda went home from Upper East Coast Road. Mr Tan kindly dropped me off at Tanah Merah Mrt at 10.57pm. and kinda got a nice seat and got so engrossed in reading the bible i so nearly missed my stop. no actually i missed the City Hall stop, but thank God there was still the Raffles Place one. aiyah sian lah. then take to Bishan then poor me, with my legs still sore from soccer had to walk home. then worst still my mp3 player had ran outta battery.

i reached home at a sian time of 11.57pm.

Tomorrow last day of holidays.


Sian lah.

well well. had some soccer match this morning. yeah. won by 2-1. it was rainy so yeah, flu kinda worked up. but it was the cramp on both legs that really annoyed me. oh well we won.

blah blah blah. couldn't make it in time for prayer meet coz by the time i had lunch it was kinda too late..? then went tuition to do massive A maths mugging.


like its real sad yeah. O levels are drawing nearer and nearer. oh well.

A Christian that happens to be a student.

after the fever's finally gone..

i'm down with a serious case of throat infection!!


goodness, the phlegm is literally brown and everytime i swallow, its like swallowing a knife. woah sian lah. i so wanna recover before MCG on thursday and the soccer match on friday..

after being bed-ridden for 16hours, im finally able to get up. yeah no joke, last night was like a living hell. its like putting yourself in an oven, then a freezer. after service yesterday, i kinda had a very bad headache during DMM, which adds to the list of people being sick to about 10 from NEJC, including contacts yeah. the devil's at work arh. so by the time i reached home, i literally collaspe on my bed. then kinda took my temperature. 39.0 degrees celcius. couldn't sleep, my mind was like so alive and keep replaying everything that happen during DMM. woah, it really hurt lah. initially i felt very cold, then very hot. so my mom kinda gave me an ice-pack to place above my head. i was like my heart was in my head. with each pulse the headache got worse.

wondered how the others were doing though. Martin, Shaun, Jed, Junliang, and i forgot who were ill also. the worst part was last night when i was at the bathroom, one moment i was trying to find the flush, the next i was on the floor. eh, no kidding yeah. i neva collaspe or blackout like that before. kinda freaky. was tortured for 16 hrs without the fever subsiding. yeah, feeling much better now. the kinda drowsy still yeah, the medicine.

my family's going to Malaysia later, i dont see how i can survive the journey. No discouragement is gonna stop our conviction yeah.

oh oh oh boy. im like super super sad now lah, why must church camp end so fast?? im sure all ya brothers and sisters would agree with me. it ended way too fast!!! well maybe because it was an experience that was outta this world. i mean, i dont see how it could have been better. it's gonna be a long long post i think, gonna cut here and there lah.


13th June 2005

went over to Clement's place nearing 12am with my bag in hand. we were gonna leave for church camp together tml. Luke and WeiQiang were there already. watched abit of Star Wars with em, and kinda considered whether we would finish the rest of the saga. but Jon kinda made it clear that we were suppose to be in bed by 12am. haha, so didnt watch anymore and did our Quiet Time together. we did the whole book of Joel, coz the camp teachings and theme was to be revolving around Joel, as in the book lah, so yeah. didn't quite grab the concept at first. we shared wad we learnt and then kinda discussed more bout the Holy Spirit. whether He was with non-believers and whether he could leave us, and what does Holy Spirit baptism mean then. we weren't kinda spiritually mature enough so we decided to ask Jon or Gideon at camp. oh well.
we could't exactly get to bed lah, haha. then we were talking and talking yeah, so decided to have a game of 'Risk'. Let me officially declare that i could have won the game in 3 more turns, but by then i would have been close to 6am. haha. guess it was really intended to go to camp with panda eyes.

it did prove to be a difficult task to wake up, and Luke kinda "taupoked" me awake. imagine when u are sleeping soundly, someone comes and jump on you.. okay by the time we caught the bus to Hougang interchange we were like erm, late.. met up with the other brothers and went for lunch at the interchange, forgot the name of the food place but i remembered it had the name with gay initials. haha. Clement commented on that okay, not me.

woah this is gonna be so long a post lah. i havent even reach camp yet..

took 151 down to NUS again, and the whole bus was kinda like flooded with Y-Hope youths. it was a long ride okay, but it seemed shorter each time. okay blah blah blah, reached NUS and walked down to Kent Ridge Hall. it was all nicely decorated up and i was glad to see my banners getting the finishing touches and pinned up for the Blessing Point stalls. had the shedule of the working hours i was suppose to be at the Blessing Point, kinda torturous lah, more then 12 hrs.. called the other sister and met up with them to discuss with the shedule and work shift. but all in all, it was Jun Rong who was at the stall the most lah, the rest of us kinda.. haha. okay, we registered and got our keys, but we werent able to check in till 2pm.



so.. i forgot wad we did.. oh yeah, we split into our respective groups, Republic vs Empire. i was in R8, which mean i was Republic Humans. was in the same group as Jon, Clement, Junliang, Rayson, Gerrad, Luke and erm, did i miss anyone?? woah i got short term memory lah, and other sisters from East i think, and a brother from East too. think they were from Merriden JC. Mattheus was our co-leader, and kinda did a good job with the cheers. Calvin was the co-leader of the Empire. haha. how ironic. all from the same CG. oh well, i must say both of them did a really good job lah.

had our games and all, which included Fear Factor and erm, i forgot wad. i do remember that Junliang, Clement and Rayson ate mealworms, and Gerrad drank a gulp of vinegar. haha. drinking vinegar wasnt part of the challenge lah, duno why he drink also. i remembered it was super fun, and i also remember, R8 didn't lose a single game, in fact, we won every game!! haha. had our own cheer also. oh yeah, team leader was Mauris.



after games went to check-in and clean up before dinner. the rooms are fabulous!! haha. i really must say its nicer then my own room, and they had this springy bed which always made me fall asleep right away. i was kinda positioned at bout 7 steps away from the others lah, haha Junliang had a room on the 1st floor while Jed had his on the 6th. okay. after checking in WeiQiang and i went to serve dinner. kinda a mess lah, coz erm, it was kinda last minute and we didnt have enough man power to ensure that everyone had their tags before they could enter the dining hall. plus, many were taking for their friends as well so it was kinda messy. but at least that gives me a chance to meet almost everyone though. after dinner we had our Opening Ceremony, and Prayer Meet. WeiQiang and i had to rush through dinner coz we were serving the rest. then Nicholas arrived from his N.S. course or camp or wadeva and ate with us at the dinning hall. so yeah, arrived at the Opening Ceremony. it was kinda nice lah, then Prayer Meet came.



we sang "You are my God", but it really hit me. i honestly felt God's presence. Especially after we all join hands and prayed. 400+ youths praying in unison. it was awesome lah. i sang till i literally teared. i mean, i dont actually tear infront of others. i mean, it wasnt just tears dwelling up in my eyes anymore, the Holy Spirit was really moving so powerfully that i literally had tears running down my face. oh well. had praise and worship though, it was awesome lah. i mean, you put 400+ youths pumped up by the Holy Spirit together and get such an awesome band and praise God? its fantastic. but wait, we aint got to the J.U.M.P. Concert the next night yet. haha. oh well. it was an amazing teaching by Shiley yeah. Dare 1. it was about 'The Call for the End Time Generation." it was truely enriching lah, gonna share it with ya all if i have the time. she really spoke into our hearts and souls. then had a short break, followed by Dare 3(not numbered according to the dares, but the lessons), which was about "Preparations for End Time Revival". it was basically bout repentance lah, and as Shiley preached, i could literally feel the Holy Spirit working inside me. it was too obvious a feeling that i just know it is lah. its like, somewhere inside u feel something moving yeah, not that literal in that sense lah. it really really applied to me and i could feel God speaking to me. eh don't get me wrong, i dont hear Him speak. i feel Him speak. it was overwhelming lah. after which we had Altar Call. oh man. by this point in time, the Holy Spirit had taken me into another level. somewhere which i had neva ventured before. i cried. honestly with all my heart i would humble myself and say i cried. i couldn't help it lah. then we prayed together in caregroups. i could tell the Holy Spirit was working in many of us. i cried tears of joy, tears of guilt, tears of repentance, and i neva felt more happy crying infront of so many people. i think i cried more tears i ever did in the past 5 yrs of my life added together. it was that sense of expectancy and repentance that i was truely in sorrow and joy. i tell ya, its a very weird feeling crying in public without knowing your own emotions and without being able to control yourself at all. my shirt was soaked. i responded at the Altar Call. i just wished you all were there lah. even if you're not a Christian, im very positive that you would have felt it. i just wished that u all can understand what its like. oh well.

had a break and afterwhich was Madness Night. Jon and Gideon were hosting. haha. it was funningly(if there's such a word) lame. haha. Gideon kinda acted as PCK and Jon well, was himself. then had this performance by our very own Backstreet Boys with Larger than Life. wahahaha!!! super funny lah. you gotta watch the video man. Hilarious. haha. than watched some old low budget production mtv, featuring Shiley, Priscilla and Jasmine when they were much much much younger. haha. very funny lah. oh yeah. had our Leaders Appreciation night too, so we took this opportunity to finally be able to taupok Jon. anyway, he literally asked for it. he said,"so now u can go hug your leaders, kiss them, taupok them or wadeva." so we kinda granted his wish. haha. we taupoked him on stage. haha. super fun lah. also sang a song for Rachael and Jon to thank them for all they had done and sacrificed for us. also sang a song to Debbie. haha. okay so we had our freetime after. helped out Blessing Point abit before i turned in.


15th June 2005

work up and went to do Q.T. together as a caregroup. then had breakfast before Prayer Meet. it was another wonderful day lah. Praise and Worship was only an appetiser, coz the Concert was coming up later on the night. it was raining and we had this awesome outdoor game planned for us, called the 'Final Prophecy'. but there was no way we could have it if it rained, coz it involved running and kinda lots of obstacles. so we prayed for the rain to stop in 45mins time. haha. and it did! God answered our prayer lah. Shiley did a wonderful job carrying out the message in the word of God again to us, but due to time constrain we didnt have time for Dare 4, and we did not wanna delay in case it rained again.

so we had our games at West Coast Park. very fun lah. and we had this final battle, in which it was Republic vs Empire. whereby we had to collect flags and "kill" the opponent, by pulling out the piece of paper attached around the waist with a raffia string. haha. then there were some sisters who pratically hid that slip of paper which represented their lifes inside their clothing. i mean, impossible to kill lah. 'Hands-off' policy lah. and Jon kinda pulled this flag from a sister who was leaning on it real hard, leaving her pointing accusing fingers at him. haha. but then there was this area which had many bees. quite a handful got stung lah. i can't believe i got killed 4 times!! and even once by a sister. so malu sia. i only killed one i think. that just goes to show how gentle and loving i am. haha. duno why lah. oh well.



after games we had Dinner and then went to catch a bath. Had Prayer Meet after that before Pastor Jeff taught us Dare 5. i must say the Holy Spirit was really compelled from him unto us when he spoke. it really made alot of sense and in a way, stirred up the Holy Spirit inside us. Dare 5 was about "Characteristics of End Time Revival." the Altar Call was bout praying for our schools lah. and i gathered with the Zhonghua people, the 4 of us, and i prayed for Zhonghua Secondary School. i had no idea wad i was doing lah, i wasnt in "control" i felt as though i was spirit-led. yeah. many responded to the Altar Call and the leaders prayed for all those who had prayer request in wanting to win over their schools or their spiritual life. miracles were happening lah. the Holy Spirit was all over the place. it moved many once stone-like hearts and many people teared and cried. Leaders were prophecising and many were getting visions. as for me i had a vision which i wanna personalise into my life, i aint gonna tell you. Freedy prayed for me and the Holy Spirit was stirring so much so that i kinda felt myself growing weak. oh i just wish u all were there lah. it was a life-changing experience.

we had Camp Charge after which and after a break had the J.U.M.P. Concert. J.U.M.P. for Jesus U Must Proclaim. it was one mega concert. it was really like attending a life band. armed with light-sticks and fully pumped by the Holy Spirit, we praised God like neva before. i jumped till i felt my stomachs churn. haha. the concert was awesome lah, but due to NUS restrictions, we had to end all activities by 10pm coz of noise control. we were not done when it ended though, haha. after 400+ youths chanted "encore" we did the song 'Always and Forever' by Delirious?. it was one experience i would neva forget. but the worship was kinda short though, cant help it lah. time restricts. we celebrated Matthias birthday for him by kinda fooling him into sitting on many many chairs stacked up and saying its some kinda game. haha. then oh well. Happy Birthday Matthias!!



after that it was free and easy all the way till the next day. there wasn't a Lights Out time tonight and we gathered in a caregroup at the dining table and shared 1 point we learned from this camp. it was truely amazing. everyone in the caregroup shared lah. some were really emotional and i really thank God for that moment. it really strengthened the caregroup together. Then Jon challenged us once again and reminded us of our goal of 25 by end July.
then we had our Brothers Night. haha. my first Brothers Night, and i would just leave u outta the contents. played soccer afterwhich against Central JC side. they were quite rough lah and kept ramming, till the extend that Freedy got so pissed off he confronted one of them. i tell ya, if u know Freedy, its not in his nature to get pissed off. in fact, i neva seen him lose his cool before. i mean soccer rough can lah, but church camp leh. no need play as though your life depends on it. then got tackled untill i got both elbows and my left knee bleeding. i didnt even know i literally did a somersault in the air untill Martin told me. guess i abit too chiong also lah. oh well. had a short shepherding with Jon before going to bathe again and catching a nap at 5.30+ am.


16th June 2005

it did prove to be difficult waking up yeah. but then after washing up was very alert and sharp okay. haha. had our Q.T. together again before having Breakfast and Check-Out. so sian. so fast last day lah. Had our thanksgiving and closing ceremony. very sad lah. 3 days 2 nights so fast over. had Praise too and we even sang "One Way" & "History Maker".



Shiley kinda ended it off quite well and we were fully convicted of our iMULTIPLY focus as we offically broke camp. we kinda stayed and took many pictures and we even finally managed to taupok Clement. haha. i took bout 6 people. whoever said that Clement was un-taupokable. lol. very fun lah. then Blessing Point gave us ice-cream and we feast.



then made our way to Arts & Social Science building's canteen to have lunch at, "the Deck". i must say we had a great time fellowshipping lah. imagine a bunch of guys singing away while we were eating, from Michael Learns to Rock to that little butterfly dance song. haha. it was really fun lah. then Jon came and we asked him bout the Holy Spirit and he and Nicholas kinda explained it to the rest of us. oh yeah, then my class had a class picnic which so convinently happened to be on the other end of Singapore, Pasir Ris. no way i could get there lah. gonna take bout 2 hrs, probably more. coz NUS is so outta the way. and i was kinda exhausted and had my lauggage with me. so i took 151 with Junliang and Gerad till Hougang Interchange before taking a bus back home.

oh well. i must say that i throughly enjoyed myself for the camp lah. and how my school sucks man, they are gonna give me a demerit point coz i didnt turn up for school. like wadeva lah, i already got so many for the lamest of reasons i think my conduct gonna suffer man. duno testimonial how arh. aiyah, why camp end so fast??? oh well lah. as least now i finally am more convicted of what i am doing and its truely an experience i would neva forget.

CHURCH CAMP IN A FEW HOURS TIME!!!


okay, but first i gotta get dinner and pack my bag before i head over to Clement's house for the night. Finally managed to finish the banner last night.

Mr Won is no longer our Chemistry teacher from next term onwards. wad can i say? i duno whether i should be rejoicing or feel sadden. i guess i choice to rejoice lah. haha.

went down to NUS after school today. oh boy its such a long ride lah, took 151 from Hougang Mrt and spend nearly 1 hr reaching there. Then i got lost inside NUS. so big lah, i was suppose to get to Kent Ridge Hall. oh well, at least i managed to find my way there.


the camp is gonna be so awesome i tell you, saw abit of their praise and worship, and the performance and all. its like, super nice lah. haha. gave the posters to duno who and hang around quite abit, before making my way from NUS all the way back to Hougang. actually was suppose to go Wilson's place, thats why i took the bus all the way back to Hougang, but upon arriving we realised it was too late, so i took a bus all the way from Hougang back to my place. wad crap lah, i could just take a direct bus from Bouna Vista.


waiting for me dinner, oh man. by the time i reach Clement's place duno how late already. oh well. see ya on Thursday!

went over to Clement's place nearing 12am with my bag in hand. we were gonna leave for church camp together tml. Luke and WeiQiang were there already. watched abit of Star Wars with em, and kinda considered whether we would finish the rest of the saga. but Jon kinda made it clear that we were suppose to be in bed by 12am. haha, so didnt watch anymore and did our Quiet Time together. we did the whole book of Joel, coz the camp teachings and theme was to be revolving around Joel, as in the book lah, so yeah. didn't quite grab the concept at first. we shared wad we learnt and then kinda discussed more bout the Holy Spirit. whether He was with non-believers and whether he could leave us, and what does Holy Spirit baptism mean then. we weren't kinda spiritually mature enough so we decided to ask Jon or Gideon at camp. oh well.

we could't exactly get to bed lah, haha. then we were talking and talking yeah, so decided to have a game of 'Risk'. Let me officially declare that i could have won the game in 3 more turns, but by then i would have been close to 6am. haha. guess it was really intended to go to camp with panda eyes. it did prove to be a difficult task to wake up, and Luke kinda "taupoked" me awake. imagine when u are sleeping soundly, someone comes and jump on you.. okay by the time we caught the bus to Hougang interchange we were like erm, late.. met up with the other brothers and went for lunch at the interchange, forgot the name of the food place but i remembered it had the name with gay initials. haha. Clement commented on that okay, not me.

woah this is gonna be so long a post lah. i havent even reach camp yet..

took 151 down to NUS again, and the whole bus was kinda like flooded with Y-Hope youths. it was a long ride okay, but it seemed shorter each time. okay blah blah blah, reached NUS and walked down to Kent Ridge Hall. it was all nicely decorated up and i was glad to see my banners getting the finishing touches and pinned up for the Blessing Point stalls. had the shedule of the working hours i was suppose to be at the Blessing Point, kinda torturous lah, more then 12 hrs.. called the other sister and met up with them to discuss with the shedule and work shift. but all in all, it was Jun Rong who was at the stall the most lah, the rest of us kinda.. haha. okay, we registered and got our keys, but we werent able to check in till 2pm. so.. i forgot wad we did.. oh yeah, we split into our respective groups, Republic vs Empire. i was in R8, which mean i was Republic Humans. was in the same group as Jon, Clement, Junliang, Rayson, Gerrad, Luke and erm, did i miss anyone?? woah i got short term memory lah, and other sisters from East i think, and a brother from East too. think they were from Merriden JC. Mattheus was our co-leader, and kinda did a good job with the cheers. Calvin was the co-leader of the Empire. haha. how ironic. all from the same CG. oh well, i must say both of them did a really good job lah.

had our games and all, which included Fear Factor and erm, i forgot wad. i do remember that Junliang, Clement and Rayson ate mealworms, and Gerrad drank a gulp of vinegar. haha. drinking vinegar wasnt part of the challenge lah, duno why he drink also. i remembered it was super fun, and i also remember, R8 didn't lose a single game, in fact, we won every game!! haha. had our own cheer also. oh yeah, team leader was Mauris. after games went to check-in and clean up before dinner. the rooms are fabulous!! haha. i really must say its nicer then my own room, and they had this springy bed which always made me fall asleep right away. i was kinda positioned at bout 7 steps away from the others lah, haha Junliang had a room on the 1st floor while Jed had his on the 6th. okay. after checking in WeiQiang and i went to serve dinner. kinda a mess lah, coz erm, it was kinda last minute and we didnt have enough man power to ensure that everyone had their tags before they could enter the dining hall. plus, many were taking for their friends as well so it was kinda messy. but at least that gives me a chance to meet almost everyone though. after dinner we had our Opening Ceremony, and Prayer Meet. WeiQiang and i had to rush through dinner coz we were serving the rest. then Nicholas arrived from his N.S. course or camp or wadeva and ate with us at the dinning hall. so yeah, arrived at the Opening Ceremony. it was kinda nice lah, then Prayer Meet came.

we sang "You are my God", but it really hit me. i honestly felt God's presence. Especially after we all join hands and prayed. 400+ youths praying in unison. it was awesome lah. i sang till i literally teared. i mean, i dont actually tear infront of others. i mean, it wasnt just tears dwelling up in my eyes anymore, the Holy Spirit was really moving so powerfully that i literally had tears running down my face. oh well. had praise and worship though, it was awesome lah. i mean, you put 400+ youths pumped up by the Holy Spirit together and get such an awesome band and praise God? its fantastic. but wait, we aint got to the J.U.M.P. Concert the next night yet. haha. oh well. it was an amazing teaching by Shiley yeah. Dare 1. it was about 'The Call for the End Time Generation." it was truely enriching lah, gonna share it with ya all if i have the time. she really spoke into our hearts and souls. then had a short break, followed by Dare 3(not numbered according to the dares, but the lessons), which was about "Preparations for End Time Revival". it was basically bout repentance lah, and as Shiley preached, i could literally feel the Holy Spirit working inside me. it was too obvious a feeling that i just know it is lah. its like, somewhere inside u feel something moving yeah, not that literal in that sense lah. it really really applied to me and i could feel God speaking to me. eh don't get me wrong, i dont hear Him speak. i feel Him speak. it was overwhelming lah. after which we had Altar Call. oh man. by this point in time, the Holy Spirit had taken me into another level. somewhere which i had neva ventured before. i cried. honestly with all my heart i would humble myself and say i cried. i couldn't help it lah. then we prayed together in caregroups. i could tell the Holy Spirit was working in many of us. i cried tears of joy, tears of guilt, tears of repentance, and i neva felt more happy crying infront of so many people. i think i cried more tears i ever did in the past 5 yrs of my life added together. it was that sense of expectancy and repentance that i was truely in sorrow and joy. i tell ya, its a very weird feeling crying in public without knowing your own emotions and without being able to control yourself at all. my shirt was soaked. i responded at the Altar Call. i just wished you all were there lah. even if you're not a Christian, im very positive that you would have felt it. i just wished that u all can understand what its like. oh well.

had a break and afterwhich was Madness Night. Jon and Gideon were hosting. haha. it was funningly(if there's such a word) lame. haha. Gideon kinda acted as PCK and Jon well, was himself. then had this performance by our very own Backstreet Boys with Larger than Life. wahahaha!!! super funny lah. you gotta watch the video man. Hilarious. haha. than watched some old low budget production mtv, featuring Shiley, Priscilla and Jasmine when they were much much much younger. haha. very funny lah. oh yeah. had our Leaders Appreciation night too, so we took this opportunity to finally be able to taupok Jon. anyway, he literally asked for it. he said,"so now u can go hug your leaders, kiss them, taupok them or wadeva." so we kinda granted his wish. haha. we taupoked him on stage. haha. super fun lah. okay so we had our freetime after. helped out Blessing Point abit before i turned in.

Believe it or not, i just reached home from East Coast bout 20 mins ago.. like super late lah, reach home pass 12.30am. But,

i have no idea how i managed to get up this morning. i am like so very exhausted already. then best part is, i ended tuition last night at 11.30pm. by the time i managed to knock out on my bed, it was 1 am. Quite tiring actually. School, church classes, then tuition. but anyway, managed to wake up for sch today.

you wanna know what happened? i got changed and all lah, was about to wear my shoe. still feeling rather drowsy and sleepy, like havent really woke up yet. quite directionless lah, like my body is moving but my brain is sleeping. ok, so i put on my left shoe, then i felt like a lump at the side of my feet inside the shoe. i didnt think much bout it, and put on my right shoe. then the lump still there lah, as in a pressure on my left feet. so i wrigle my feet lah, then still there leh, cannot come out. so i reached into my shoe and grabbed wadeva that was causing that depression..

and i pulled out a freaking cockroach with my barehands..

its a totally disgusting feeling lah, u know the when u flip over a cockroach, u see the tangled mess of legs and layers of flesh, i was holding that part lah! oh its totally gross, imagine if i had squashed it, the blood would have smeared all over my socks and shoe. and i have no other pair of shoe lah.

well anyway, after school went for The Fellowship of the Chocolate. haha. it was fun lah, after that played abit of soccer before heading for tuition.

and we were like talking bout planes and then how we used to spend our childhood watching some Japanese Anime on tv when we were kids with Daryl. in case ya all still aint have an idea who he is, he is my bio tuitor, and brother in Christ. Not that big an age gap so can relate lah. and how we used to watch anime like Gatekeepers and Flame of Recca. oh well, time really flies lah.


oh shack, super tired.

having Matthew Event tml! BBQ at East Coast!!

just got off the phone with Peter bout camp stuff. Super rush lah, have to contact my group members asap and get them to do 3 banners before Sunday..

to all those going for JB camp tml. Have fun!!




okay. sleep.

Internet's been down so didnt get to blog. yeah. much stuff happened over the past few days, of which i couldnt blog so i forgot pratically everything. something was wrong with the phone line, this time it's definitely nothing to do with me. i think those construction's fault lah.

oh man, im like super tired lah. this week is gonna be a VERY busy week.


Monday - Word for Life Class
Tuesday - Membership Class
Wednesday - North-East Outreach Class. North-East Matthew Event (Fellowship of the Chocolate)
Thursday - Full day Matthew Caregroup (BBQ at East Coast)
Friday - Prayer Meet
Saturday - Church Service. DMM.
Sunday - Sabbath Day


And somehow, somehow i have to squeeze in at least 15 hours of tuition. And 2 bio tuition lessons.
And finish those books i borrowed.

And i desperately need to S.O.W. my contacts.

boy boy. Sleepy. Sleepy.