woke up at 8.20am and was super shock to find out that my alarm clock did not ring and i was late for shepherding.. again. so called Calvin and was relief to find out that he didnt leave the house yet, so postponed it to 9.15am. rushed and took 851 to Amk central and kinda got lost while trying to find Amk Mac's. yeah. i get really blurr early in the morning lah. finally reached at about 9.20am to find out that Calvin was late.. nvm, so waited a while and wondered whether it was the 'test' method which shepherds used to test their sheeps, something which i learnt yesterday from SeeD. then when Calvin finally came he kinda explained to me why he was late so yeahh.

Basically we talked alot and he kinda told me how i should get a sheep by 2 weeks time, or i would kinda like be out of DMM. then i kinda shared with him the idea of setting up a caregroup in zhss, then he was like at first didnt quite register, then he kinda clicked and weighed out the pros and cons, and the sacrifices that i and the people had to make. it is a very good idea lah, but without the proper drive, resources and passion, all the efforts would go into vain and i would lose these 2 valuable weeks. all in all, he was quite okay with it and i am now like 75% sure of going on ahead with it. then i smsed Yanyu and asked her her opinion, after some kinda discussion she was for it too. okay, so bout time our school has a caregroup.. then went over to Amk library. saw Yee Yan along the way.

went to Amk library and did my first ever formal session of Quiet Time(Q.T.), with the pocket Bible i bought yesterday which i meant to leave in school. not exactly quiet lah, coz the top level tables was kinda all occupied, and the the cafe we went too was quite noisy. then saw Wilson and Robin there, mugging!! oh man. Robin was mugging Chinese and Wilson Chemistry. that kinda left me that impression that i had really been ditching my studies and spending too much time on church stuff. oh well. so we sat at the cafe down at the first floor of the library and then Yee Yan came in and started mugging too a few tables away from us. the fruit blender was also grinding away lah, destroying any quiet time we wanted. Calvin's AJC friend came too, but he spend his time with me, doing Quiet Time together as Shepherd and Sheep. i asked quite a few questions lah, and realised that i had so much more to learn. i was just like only at John 1-3 and i took like 2 hrs digesting and relating it to my life. then i was like mugging too ya know. i was mugging the Bible. lol. doing Quiet Time lah. i was kinda like finding the answer from God on what am i to do bout the caregroup issue. God can answer us in three ways lah. First, through other Christians. Secondly, through the Word(Bible). and thirdly through the Holy Spirit. then this time, he answered through the word. As i read John 3:27-30 i kinda had that feeling that God wanted me to carry on with the plan, as 'He must become greater; i must become less.'

then next table beside us were some old citizens, most probably from Hong Kong from their way of speech. But wad i am trying to say is, they were sharing Christ lah. like, how touching and heartwarming is that.. then i was like eavesdropping on them lah, and kinda hinted to Calvin that they were sharing Christ too. then he told me that Quiet Time should be no distractions lah. haha. okay. then he went over and asked whether he could take a look at a book they borrowed, something bout the origin of the Bible. oh well. after that, went up and took two books on Christianity and read quite abit. read about the part on the breaking into denominations, which made me much more confused as they talked bout the war and ruling and all. oh well. so i borrowed those two books before bidding farewell to Calvin and took a bus home. almost 5 hrs of shepherding and Quiet Time man. thats like a new record for me. im super happy lah, and glad that Calvin was willing to sacrifice so much of his time to shepherd me.

went home and slacked abit before heading out for dinner at a restuarant(more like a Coffee Shop) opposite Mayflower Secondary School to celebrate my aunt's birthday. see lah. where got time to study. then went and found out that it was super crowded. so spoiler lah. its that crowded that when u see the crowd, u just dont wanna eat there. but then arranged there already so no choice. kinda waited quite abit for a table and then i noticed this really cute girl bout 3 tables down. not like wad u think lah, not cute in that sense, but cute as in chio and cute lah. then finally waited for a table and choose the perfect spot to get the perfect view of that perfect God's creation. lol. no lah. nothing really. then after that the man beside her table went to shift infront of my view. like, wah piang. so much for the perfect seat.. then i kept looking at that direction. i think he kinda noticed me looking then thought i was looking at him, then kinda felt uneasy i guess. haha. who cares man.

then the waitress told us that we had to wait at least an hour for the food to arrive coz of the number of people. then my parents were laughing and joking to themselves that it would take that long and it was exaggerating. i could tell they did not want to disappoint my aunt and uncle even further after having to wait for the table for like so long.

then sat and waited, then kinda talked to my uncle quite abit on my school stuff. no i didnt initiate a convo lah, i was too busy thinking bout the caregroup thing. i kinda like replied his questions. I dont know what God is up too lah, its like telling us not to sin and then he puts temptations right infront of you.. he put this super hot girl wearing half sleeveless right infront of me. she looked so much like Marissa from the OC. i tell you, its so, so much alike. then thankfully she made her way to the other end of the restuarant so that she was totally outta my view. like, thank God lah.. at least something turned out quite right at that place. the waitress didn't lie to us, it really took an hour. AN HOUR! i hadnt really had a proper meal for like 2 days coz i was basically attending parties and crashing fastfood restuarants and having Maggie-mees. then i kinda stared blankly into space for an hour, and was glad to find out that i could still see that girl who was blocked by the man when she leaned back. but then sway enough, another man went to sit in my line of vision.. then as we had our meal she kinda started to leave and she did a super sexy action with her shoulders. haha. anyway, i think she's a JC student. so i dont really care. haha.

The waiting was worth the food lah. but i guess we kinda over-ordered and gouge ourselves with food and had to take-away some dishes. then my uncle tried to open the crab with his bare hands and hammered on it with his fist. then my aunt was like half-scolding, half-caring for him and told him not to do that. what im trying to say is, he did that for my aunt lah. its so loving. lol. like after married for so so many years, he still risk cutting his hands and tolerating the pain to peel the crab for my aunt. lol. the covenant of marriage. oh well. after we left i tried to spot 'Marissa' but sadly could not lah.

gonna meet with Melcher and Yanyu tomorrow to discuss how we gonna get a caregroup about. its definitely not going to be an easy job and we gotta be prepared for the worst-case-scenario which would mean all our efforts and time gone in waste. i really need this to work and need my sheep. i too need to start mugging for the 'O's and spend more time with my family. oh well. as for now. its back to more pondering..