okay lah. the day started off with Deng laoshi (my form teacher) giving a one to one talk. she asked me whether i was really busy and didnt have time to study. as you know, Chinese 'O's is like just 31 days away. coz i really F9-ed my previous test lah. then she was like asking me whether it was my church stuff that i didnt have time to study. at first i thought she talked to my mom lah, like how would she know bout church stuff?? but apparently she didnt. so told her only 2 days with church stuff, okay kinda lied. actually 3 lah. then blah blah blah. she told me to work hard to meet my goal of B3 for chinese and she did not wanna remind me again. wadeva lah.

then during Chemisty lesson Mr Won was like really really finding fault with me. like wadeva i tell me classmates he wants to critisize bout it. then when i was like joking, at first he thought it was someone else, so he laughed. then when he realised it was me, his face turned black and started snapping back at me. wadeva lah he. just coz i hadnt pass any of his test this year. O levels just smack an A1 in his face he ought to shut his gap and reflect on his dumb actions.

oh well. after school played soccer at the field. was kinda messy lah, coz so long neva play field soccer. people were like running everywhere and throwing tackles and pushes. it was basically a complete mess lah. then had some trainings and then went back home first to have a bath. was prespiring like crazy lah. my whole pants were soaked. yeah i repeat, soaked. soaked with my prespiration. it was so soaked that could see my boxers through the pants lah. oh well. took the wrong bus so had to walk through Amk to go to the bus-stop then went back and had my bath. was gonna have caregroup today lah. oh well.

Melcher arrived shortly and i showed him the Hillsong United DVD, then Monica and another sec 1 girl came then Michael. thank God all could turn up lah, except Julia who had prize-giving. it went well yeah. not that bad for the first caregroup. aiyah im like so tired now from soccer. gonna sleep soon. okay basically it was okay. so yeah. played table-tennis with Melcher and Michael who stayed on, then contemplated whether to go for a swim but then decided not too since it was geting late. then went up to my place and completed watching the DVD. could tell Michael was really shocked at how messy my house is lah. haha. oh well. Michael had to leave so i accompanied him downstairs to wait for his mom to come. then we were talking when my neighbour, the St. Nicholas girl came walking in with her sister. i always wondered whether they were twins. she and her sister i mean. its like i think they are but i think they are not. then just as they walked passed us i told Michael that i thought they were twins, then he went, 'huh? TWINS!?' it was so loud im so sure they heard lah. wadeva lah he. throw my face. now they think im some psycho or something. oh well. Melcher left after Smallville. Smallville is nice yeah.

woah so sleepy. gonna sleep real soon. bye.

Crap lah. 27.5 upon 100 for Chinese.

aw crap.


Got the lowest grade for Chemistry in the whole level..

and so for Chinese too..



aw crap. its just 34 days!!??





aw crap.

just finishing trying to perfect 'Consuming Fire' on the guitar. oh man. i cant even feel my fingertips now. im like so screwed lah, tml is respelling for the chinese sec 2 first half year words. wadeva man. a day which started out so well at turned to living hell in school. so much work to rush through lah. and the SSPs. then like waited for Monica and Sweekun to come for like foreva in class and Michael could not leave late due to some family issues i wouldnt disclose. oh well. took 133 to my place lah with Michael and Melcher. then Sweekun called while we on the bus and Monica told me over the phone that they wont make it. sigh. oh well. not exactly disappointed lah, coz it was kinda late. okay, fine. i was disappointed.

But it was so so FUN to have them over strumming and singing to songs. booked the function room and jammed there. it was really fun lah. Thank God for them. we are like so ready for any caregroup thrown at us now. lol. oh well. did many many songs lah. and was really glad that 'Consuming Fire' and some other song worked out fine. oh well. Michael had to leave so Melcher went with him for a lift back. then went up to my apartment and started trying to play 'Consuming Fire'. well at least i can do the chorus now lah. im perfecting it okay. oh well. did so much hw just now but still hadnt touch that chinese respelling. oh well.

Goodnight and God bless.

didnt post for very long. but this week many many stuff happen lah. which i dont wanna forget and i dont wanna remember too. anyhows, i just not mentioning all that happen. didnt have caregroup after sportsday last thursday. gonna have it on monday.

oh well. woke up at 10.55am today. like, sian-ed. could not possibly meet the rest at 11am. so RUSHED, yeah i mean it, any took bus and then train to S-11 outside cuppage plaza to meet the CG. somehow knew i was gonna love this day lah. okay, maybe coz it was saturday. haha. then arrived at Somerset mrt and realised that today was SCGS school's turn for flagday. oh wells. didnt bother to donate as i was rushing for time. arrived at S-11 to find Luke, Martin, Calvin, Gerrad and Weiqiang. then Weiqiang was like telling me how at the tuition center was my cousin getting 'fought' for by her two male friends. then she was like sms-ing Weiqiang on wad she was suppose to do. lol. both guys took up Wushu for her. haha. it was kinda funny lah. hearing bout two guys fighting over my cousin. oh wells. good luck to her man. then went for prayer meet.

prayer meet was great as usual, and another girl lead the praise and worship, turned out to be totally awesome for both prayer meet and service later. talk bout that later lah. prayed for Gerrad for his spiritual life as he did for me. i reached a point where i dont really have to prepare before i pray lah. can just speak out and relate the prayer well. dats an accomplishment!! prayed for his spiritual life and growth lah. then basically prayer meet was great lah. like gets us pumped up with the Holy Spirit for the service later.

service was just simply awesome lah. pity Melcher didn't even sms me on whether he was gonna make it. i was kinda disappointed in him lah. coz when i told him bout it before i told him that Kavina wasnt going he was like so enthu bout it lah. then after i told him that she wasnt going he was like hesistating. oh well. not that i blame him though, and im sure he doesnt have nothing for her. its just that we should be more responsible and at least let me know whether he was gonna make it or not. till now he hasnt gotten to me lah. oh wells. i dont think any other words can describe service today lah. basically they fused a few praise songs together. and with songs like 'Evermore', 'Every Move I Make', i could just dance with praise for the whole day lah. 'Evermore' is like the all-time ultimate praise song lah. but thats not the point i wanna get across, we even did 'All for Love'!! yeah. the new song from the latest Hillsong United 2005 CD. cant believe we sang that lah. i was thinking like at least another 3 months for them to master the song. then i managed to reach that high note on my favourite verse of the song. so happy. was like when u are in that worship state we are able to do things by the Holy Spirit. was so happy lah. then guess wad? we did 'Consuming Fire' my all-time fav worship song. woah the atmosphere was so great i am sure people were crying lah.

anyway. you know the caregroup idea. due to some circumstances i was really having second thoughts and whether this wad really God's will and commandment or was this just another big mistake. then was kinda put the idea to a halt lah. and wanted to let time take its place. but i am really really glad and happy for today's service. its God's answer to me. today the topic by Pastor Jeff was on planting churches, and he was telling us all to go start a caregroup in our schools. it was a direct answer to all my questions. it was just the answer and courage i needed lah. then he even invited leaders to pray for those who were going to or had the intention of starting a caregroup in our schools. at first i was having mixed feelings or whether or not to go down and get prayed. coz my shepherd Calvin and Careleader Jon talked to me that day that i should this two weeks wisely and do 1-to-1 S.O.W. to make full use of the time. then after a few of others went down Calvin pushed and signaled me to go down, he went down too lah. then i saw Yanyu went to get prayed for to start a caregroup in zhss too. was glad that she saw the light lah. she was kinda against the idea for some reason and it had set my plans on some obstructive course lah. was really losing faith and courage at that point of time when she left the plan. oh well. glad that she sees what i am trying to do though, but on whether she did that just for doing so, or she really intends to start a CG in zhss, we would see lah. oh well. things are gonna be just fine.

funny how God works. Melcher and Monica didnt go for the service lah. its like God doesnt wad to speak to them directly. not that im saying anything prejudice. its like it would be so much easier for them to understand this whole idea then having me talk to them bout it. service was super lah. i reckon it was better than Easter service. and the sermon was super funny. oh well. guess Pastor Jeff does wad he does best.

after service went to S-11 for lunch. and then proceeded to Europe Room for unit meeting. was kinda late as Gideon already started and he shared with us on study caregroups in school and prayer meet in the morning in school. oh yeah. it was Rachel birthday too. oh well. so.. Happy Birthday Rachel!!! then broke out into our seperate caregroups and Jon addressed us on restructing issues. i am now gonna be under him, which means that Calvin would no longer be my shepherd. was kinda sad lah. but oh wells. guess everything was for the better as could see that Calvin was really tied down with so many sheeps. then Martin was suppose to do some pioneering at SRJC with Jed. haha. all the best Martin! after that walked with Shaun and Martin to HMV.

reached there in intention of getting headphones but the priceof $50 and above was enough to drive us away. saw the new Lifehouse CD too but didnt have the cash to get it. then made our way to Borders. yay!! Borders finally replenished its stocks and thank God they had Lifehouse 2005 CD. there was two versions lah, one US version one normal version. bought the normal version which cost $1 more at $24.50 but had one bonus track!! then walked around in hopes of getting a set of head-phones but didnt in the end coz didnt really wanna waste credits in my Borders gift card, then proceeded to the Christian section where we sat down. then had the urge to take photos. haha. then used Martin's phone to try out his picture and camera functions. then took so, so many shots lah. then suddenly had that inspiration to try out how girls always do their neo-print pictures. ya know, that post, make their eye big big then act cute. i tried both with Martin's phone and mine lah. then was like super hilarious and funny. Guess wad. i didnt know that all the shots we auto-saved on Martin's phone.. then before i could delete that act cute picture he took the phone away and send the picture to his email.. so now im like under his mercy of my whole dignity being gone. somemore, his phone had the more disgusting of the two pictures lah. like, aw shucks!? then whole time was like beggin him not to publish it. he better not or i would skin him alive. Bought the album with my Borders Card, and proceeded to Shaw House for a drink.

talked and Shaun shows us a sample of the range of notes he could hit with his voice. he can really sing lah. he can do like Phantom of the Opera both the male and female roles lah. oh well. then we went off and took the train from Orchard Mrt. reached Tanah Merah mrt and bumped into Sumahdi at the control station near the top-up machines. then took bus 14 all the way to tuition. was like killing myself with Chemistry lah. and after like 3 hours i did not more than 30 MCQ questions. enough to give me a headache. joked with Mr Tan and crapped and was surprise to hear the other table player Planet Shaker's 'Running After You'. see, so many Christians around. haha. then went home.

Met someone online just now, he just added me lah. Fellow Christian! Hallelujah. haha. small world lah. from our school also. oh well. wanna practice my guitar skills till i am good enough before Martin would be willing to teach me new songs. oh well. hit counter gonna hit 3000!! haha. see ya. read me some time later. bye.

woke up at 8.20am and was super shock to find out that my alarm clock did not ring and i was late for shepherding.. again. so called Calvin and was relief to find out that he didnt leave the house yet, so postponed it to 9.15am. rushed and took 851 to Amk central and kinda got lost while trying to find Amk Mac's. yeah. i get really blurr early in the morning lah. finally reached at about 9.20am to find out that Calvin was late.. nvm, so waited a while and wondered whether it was the 'test' method which shepherds used to test their sheeps, something which i learnt yesterday from SeeD. then when Calvin finally came he kinda explained to me why he was late so yeahh.

Basically we talked alot and he kinda told me how i should get a sheep by 2 weeks time, or i would kinda like be out of DMM. then i kinda shared with him the idea of setting up a caregroup in zhss, then he was like at first didnt quite register, then he kinda clicked and weighed out the pros and cons, and the sacrifices that i and the people had to make. it is a very good idea lah, but without the proper drive, resources and passion, all the efforts would go into vain and i would lose these 2 valuable weeks. all in all, he was quite okay with it and i am now like 75% sure of going on ahead with it. then i smsed Yanyu and asked her her opinion, after some kinda discussion she was for it too. okay, so bout time our school has a caregroup.. then went over to Amk library. saw Yee Yan along the way.

went to Amk library and did my first ever formal session of Quiet Time(Q.T.), with the pocket Bible i bought yesterday which i meant to leave in school. not exactly quiet lah, coz the top level tables was kinda all occupied, and the the cafe we went too was quite noisy. then saw Wilson and Robin there, mugging!! oh man. Robin was mugging Chinese and Wilson Chemistry. that kinda left me that impression that i had really been ditching my studies and spending too much time on church stuff. oh well. so we sat at the cafe down at the first floor of the library and then Yee Yan came in and started mugging too a few tables away from us. the fruit blender was also grinding away lah, destroying any quiet time we wanted. Calvin's AJC friend came too, but he spend his time with me, doing Quiet Time together as Shepherd and Sheep. i asked quite a few questions lah, and realised that i had so much more to learn. i was just like only at John 1-3 and i took like 2 hrs digesting and relating it to my life. then i was like mugging too ya know. i was mugging the Bible. lol. doing Quiet Time lah. i was kinda like finding the answer from God on what am i to do bout the caregroup issue. God can answer us in three ways lah. First, through other Christians. Secondly, through the Word(Bible). and thirdly through the Holy Spirit. then this time, he answered through the word. As i read John 3:27-30 i kinda had that feeling that God wanted me to carry on with the plan, as 'He must become greater; i must become less.'

then next table beside us were some old citizens, most probably from Hong Kong from their way of speech. But wad i am trying to say is, they were sharing Christ lah. like, how touching and heartwarming is that.. then i was like eavesdropping on them lah, and kinda hinted to Calvin that they were sharing Christ too. then he told me that Quiet Time should be no distractions lah. haha. okay. then he went over and asked whether he could take a look at a book they borrowed, something bout the origin of the Bible. oh well. after that, went up and took two books on Christianity and read quite abit. read about the part on the breaking into denominations, which made me much more confused as they talked bout the war and ruling and all. oh well. so i borrowed those two books before bidding farewell to Calvin and took a bus home. almost 5 hrs of shepherding and Quiet Time man. thats like a new record for me. im super happy lah, and glad that Calvin was willing to sacrifice so much of his time to shepherd me.

went home and slacked abit before heading out for dinner at a restuarant(more like a Coffee Shop) opposite Mayflower Secondary School to celebrate my aunt's birthday. see lah. where got time to study. then went and found out that it was super crowded. so spoiler lah. its that crowded that when u see the crowd, u just dont wanna eat there. but then arranged there already so no choice. kinda waited quite abit for a table and then i noticed this really cute girl bout 3 tables down. not like wad u think lah, not cute in that sense, but cute as in chio and cute lah. then finally waited for a table and choose the perfect spot to get the perfect view of that perfect God's creation. lol. no lah. nothing really. then after that the man beside her table went to shift infront of my view. like, wah piang. so much for the perfect seat.. then i kept looking at that direction. i think he kinda noticed me looking then thought i was looking at him, then kinda felt uneasy i guess. haha. who cares man.

then the waitress told us that we had to wait at least an hour for the food to arrive coz of the number of people. then my parents were laughing and joking to themselves that it would take that long and it was exaggerating. i could tell they did not want to disappoint my aunt and uncle even further after having to wait for the table for like so long.

then sat and waited, then kinda talked to my uncle quite abit on my school stuff. no i didnt initiate a convo lah, i was too busy thinking bout the caregroup thing. i kinda like replied his questions. I dont know what God is up too lah, its like telling us not to sin and then he puts temptations right infront of you.. he put this super hot girl wearing half sleeveless right infront of me. she looked so much like Marissa from the OC. i tell you, its so, so much alike. then thankfully she made her way to the other end of the restuarant so that she was totally outta my view. like, thank God lah.. at least something turned out quite right at that place. the waitress didn't lie to us, it really took an hour. AN HOUR! i hadnt really had a proper meal for like 2 days coz i was basically attending parties and crashing fastfood restuarants and having Maggie-mees. then i kinda stared blankly into space for an hour, and was glad to find out that i could still see that girl who was blocked by the man when she leaned back. but then sway enough, another man went to sit in my line of vision.. then as we had our meal she kinda started to leave and she did a super sexy action with her shoulders. haha. anyway, i think she's a JC student. so i dont really care. haha.

The waiting was worth the food lah. but i guess we kinda over-ordered and gouge ourselves with food and had to take-away some dishes. then my uncle tried to open the crab with his bare hands and hammered on it with his fist. then my aunt was like half-scolding, half-caring for him and told him not to do that. what im trying to say is, he did that for my aunt lah. its so loving. lol. like after married for so so many years, he still risk cutting his hands and tolerating the pain to peel the crab for my aunt. lol. the covenant of marriage. oh well. after we left i tried to spot 'Marissa' but sadly could not lah.

gonna meet with Melcher and Yanyu tomorrow to discuss how we gonna get a caregroup about. its definitely not going to be an easy job and we gotta be prepared for the worst-case-scenario which would mean all our efforts and time gone in waste. i really need this to work and need my sheep. i too need to start mugging for the 'O's and spend more time with my family. oh well. as for now. its back to more pondering..

Happy Birthday Hope Church!! 14th Birthday Anniversary today!! wad started off with 5 university graduates in a flat became 3000 people today. thats like 6000%. haha. so was kinda fun today lah, had those balloons and all..

woke up today and caught an episode of Pokemon!! haha. its been like 3 yrs since i last caught an episode of that. kinda boring lah. duno why i was so darn crazy over that show. oh well. after waiting for my mom to get me a ride to Bishan Mrt station, i realised that i would be better off walking there, and would save so much time. so by the time i reached Bishan Mrt station i was only left with like 15 mins to get there. so took the train to somerset and kinda walked superfast to Nexus. Arrived just in time to see Martin checking in his guitar at the counter and then went in the auditorium for Prayer Meet. we did the song Blessed and prayed in our caregroups.

service was excellent lah. its like super nice and we did History Maker, Awesome God and some other song lah. its like super nice okay. and we had quite a number of people too. basically its one of the better services. oh well. felt really spiritually high lah. then they had these balloons throw down from the back of the auditorium. then i was like jumping to History Maker, then so many hit my head lah. oh well.

went to Starhub for lunch after that, then rushed off for SeeD meeting at the RC. was quite late then ran there lah. piang leh, super hot. imagine prespiring in jeans and a polo tee. then the only fan which was working had like 5 of us infront of it. worst part is it could not oscillate.. we played 'Froggy Killer' by Thaddeus(Matthias) which proved to be quite a blast. at first i was choosen to be the froggy lah, then Peter beside me tapped my head too, so i didnt know whether i was the frog or not cause our eyes were closed wad, but after Thaddeus mouthed out to me that i was i started killer people. lol. then played Calvin's 7-up/3-up of which 3-up seems to kill almost everyone there.. the forfeit was to write 'Happy birthday Hope' with their butts.. then we saw David Keith and some others, which proves to be funny la.. Worship went well, sang Consuming Fire and then Awesome God, which Gideon kept singing wrongly and kinda anti-climax lah. then Jon who was in charge of the guitar, totally changed facial expression when Gideon started to sing Awesome God, coz im sure he didnt know how to play the chords as it was not in the actual plan. i could almost here him say, "Gideon.." Then learnt how to be a proper shepherd and how i need to bring in new-believer soon. oh well. see how lah. but God says obey the authorities..so if they think its right i cant also do much..maybe i can pray some sec kids have a sudden interest in me??

went to off in intension of taking 147 to Siew Ying's 21st Birthday party, but realised that i had no idea where to alight and how to get there, so went to Junction 8 on bus 53 to wait for my family to go together. then as the bus went on i thought it was gonna go proceed down the road, straight to J8, so i press the bell, then it took a left turn.. worst part is no one alighted or boarded, so i, in order to save the shame and embarrassment, alighted outside ITE Bishan and walked to Junction 8. then arrived there and went to buy a pocket Bible, which cost $8 at Life Bookstore, but i am sure it cost $5 at Blessing Point.. haha. inteded to leave it in school so that i can refer to it whenever i needed too. then walked and intended to replace the beaded band i misplaced, but then decided to buy the Live For Him band which cost $4. then my family was still not out yet, so went to get a drink and then waited for them. then proceeded to Lim Tian road for the Birthday party.

along the way i sorta had a vision which was rather aligned to todays teaching both at Church and at SeeD. i realised that our school did not have a caregroup, and i sorta have this vision to start one. No, im not crazy. Yes, this is a crazy idea, but its been pestering me lah, the whole time till now, that i gotta at least try to make this happen. okay, then we kinda lost our way and my parents were like arguing with each other, saying whose fault it was. Like come on lah, it would do no good yeahh? oh well. Finally arrived at the restuarant which turned out to be quite big. the resturant was Kia Hiang Restuarant. woah time flies lah. can u believe it? went there and realised the wasnt enough seats at the table, so Kenglam and i went to sit at another table with a bunch of relatives which he didnt talk to at all. basically starting it was like super difficult to survive lah. coz its like, i seldom talk to Kenglam, coz he is my mom's friend's son, and Siew Ying's brother. the only time i really talked to him was during our trip to some part of Malaysia i forgot wad it is. back then we were still like watching Little Nicky. haha. then it was like, super quiet lah the table, we were like basically staring into thin air and waiting for the dishes to be served, which took 15-20 minutes between dishes.

the restuarant sucks lah. thankfully for a magician that performed magic for us. eh boy i tell you, he is good. he showed us the tricks of the casino and how when he could deal a deck from the 2nd card onwards but looked excatly like dealing from the top. and my goodness, he took out two cards, showed it to us. put in on the table. waved his hands over it. then opened it. and it changed into an Ace and a King. like, what the?? and he changed a $10 note to a $100 note before our eyes and changed it back. its really amazing lah. but i kinda saw through one of his tricks when i was sitting down coz i could see from that angle lah. he has been practicing for 17 yrs since 10 lah. boy, he's the best magician i ever met i tell ya..

then i tried with all the social skills i had to make a conversation if not i would die from the uneasiness. so talked to Kenglam first bout i saw him the other day, then talk bout school, then asked him that he went to church the other day yeah? coz my mom said that wad. then he looked at me,"Me? Church? No i dont go church?" and he said it with that kinda of attitude like, 'thats a place for losers'. oh well. eventually wad managed to stray into a conversation was 'soccer'. then talked and talked and we exchanged numbers, for a match which we are due to play after my O's.

oh well. after her birthday party went home and kept thinking bout the caregroup idea. its like the Holy Spirit keep bothering me bout it lah. so i kinda talked to Melcher bout it just now online, at first he didnt show much of an interest, but thankfully he was for it. if he told me then a word 'no' i would have totally given up on the idea. oh well. see how lah. please pray that it would be a success okay.. gonna meet Calvin for shepherding tml at 9.00am, so gotta get some rest now. Night.

first and foremost, let me happily announce that i aced my Social Studies test!! considering the fact that i didnt bring home my SS textbook or notes over the weekends to study as it was an open-book test. haha. okay. not trying to show off here, but its my first ever A in Social Studies so i must post this, i dont even think i gotten a B before lah. 20/25. okok..

yeah, all my other sheepmates are also down with some sort of illness, so sincerely pray that we would all recover fast enough for tomorrow's service whereby it would be our church's 14th year anniversary!! yay, so young. younger than me. haha. oh well.

oh yeah. Conrad beat Tolkien in English debate semi-finals today. its like super obvious lah, which is the better band..

i think my mom starting to have mix feelings already. its like i spend too much of my time with church related issues and not having any time for my family. its like, come on lah, i am like going tuition for every other weekday, including Saturday nights okay. just that this week coz i was very tired and for some other reason i could only make it to tuition for 2 days. oh well. im like still screwing up in Chinese when the O levels are like 30 odd days away. i sincerely hope that i would be able to juggle my studies and my life, and of course, my family.

oh yeah.. added something to my blog which im sure u would wanna check out. haha.

Rejoice, for Wei Qiang and big Shaun was Holy Spirit baptised today at Rix's place!! its like so happy for them lah. bleh. i am getting eye bags ya know, its like super obvious already.

oh well..

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Night.

aiyah today one long day in school, with my form teacher questioning and speaking to the class bout integrity and all, coz of the playing of the music loudly in class. basically she was trying to get the one who played the CD to own up lah.. after lots of talk and talk, she made us write down on a piece of paper on our reflections and report on wad happened. okay so fine. the culprit owned up and wrote in the paper. i kinda know who that person is already lah.. but aint gonna expose anybody.

then for A maths we had combinations, which is super difficult and even Yu Xuan didnt understand.. lol, for like 5 mins lah. then had Mrs Koh to explain to me, which she didnt quite get it into my head also. lol. if Mrs Koh couldnt get it in my head u know how chim it is lah.. But then thankfully Yu Xuan managed to understand and explained it to me. my personal tutor lah. blah blah blah. so school finally ended..

okay we made our way to Ponggol Park for our 2.4km run. then along the way in the bus we finally managed to instill the riddle of Fuzzy Bunny in Davin's head. lol. then in the bus i was explaining to Melcher how Hillsong United did their song, What The World Will Never Take in 5 hrs before they actually went to do it live, and it was sung by a black initially. okay, no offence here. i said 'nigger' without realising that there were 3 malays behind me. and mind you, i said kinda loud as i had my headphones on..

reached there and started crapping with the class. it always seems that i am not in form when it comes to this kinda test. i was down with flu lah, and i kinda used a brand new PVC shoe as my old one tore. okay i am not blaming the shoe. haha. just disappointed that i was down with flu. okay after running and running i kinda ended the run at 11.39 sec. which is very pathetic considering i aimed getting into a 10 min range. then Rebekah was our time keeper, then as i approached the end she kinda shouted, "Shawn, jiayou!" woah, so she knows my name lah.. okay maybe i was dreaming from the giddiness of the run. lol. oh well. so sian lah. wad crap timing, i would certainly do better if no flu okay.

took bus 74 home. okay feel so lethargic now.. so crap lah. still got that 12 questions on Combinations to finish. oh well. do tml lah. night. erm no.. i better do today..

okay so this is for today. basically took much crap happened that i dont wanna blog down. go read Melcher's blog yeah.

okay, what he didnt include was after tuition lah. basically went for tuition very late and met Shang Hong and Shang Mao there. had a fun time smiling at each other. lol. its a game we play lah. and erm the angel from your nightmare continued lah. oh man. im so dead tired. super sleepy and feeling very much flu-ish the whole day. dont think i would be able to even get to school tml.

oh well. NIGHTS.

a pity that i couldnt blog yesterday.. wad should have been a wonderful day ended up in a total shame and disgust. i am not gonna tell you wad happen at night coz its really nothing to be proud of.

First of all, i woke up by the call of my shepherd Calvin and went to AMK Mac's to meet him for shepherding. then so sway i think the 74 bus route had an accident or wad, super long jam. it would have been faster if i had walked there from my house instead. ended up being a whole 1 hr late and felt kinda bad to make him wait so long lah. okay, at least i took the time in the bus to kinda read through the Geog textbook which was for the Geog test on Developement we had today..

okay, basically he thought me the importance bout Quiet Time(Q.T.), the components of prayer, and answered wadever questions i had. i shared with him the theory bout the water sphere i heard from Daryl and he kinda added more information to further cement that theory. He too shared bout his secondary days on how he and his friends used to hit on really hard on girls. haha. its between my shepherd and his sheepmates so you aint gonna know. lol. well, after that, Rayson, Elisha, Si Han, Jon, Martin and the rest arrived at Mac's and we proceeded from there to take bus 76 all the way to East Coast.

the bus soon turned out to be a Y-Hoppies bus as there came so many Y-Hope members who boarded the bus, it was as good as chartering a whole bus to ourselves, i patronised the whole bus, and there were times when it was so crowded that we had to give up our seats and stuff lah. i kinda tried to read more of my Geog textbook when Clement told me that it was completely useless and he didnt even use the textbook for his 'O's and just studied notes.. problem is, i aint got notes... so whose kind enough to lend me theirs??

Upon arrival, we kinda ran to Costa Sands Resort where the meeting point for the water baptism was gonna be. in case u didnt know yet, yesterday was water baptism day for our church. then ran halfway right, Jon's sling-bag's strap snapped and fell onto the side of the road. Luckily Rayson was fast enough to grab it and jumped up the pavement. Then at Costa Sands Resort those water baptisees had to get their group number and the almost the whole Hope Church Singapore gathered there. attended the briefing on water baptism and learnt kinda alot lah. also learn that infant baptism is not excatly the right way of water baptism coz of a few different factors. oh well. had a fun time singing praise songs as a whole church and i am proud to announce that there are 129 baptisees!!! okay, after which we moved on the BBQ pit 35, where the water baptism area was gonna take place. yes, it is done in the sea..

There was already a lot of commotion and quite a crowd when we reached there. after some dilly-dally, the ceremony finally started.

it was a whole new experience as i had neva seen a person being water baptised before, except those upon birth. this time, it was a full single immersion lah. and it was really, really happy to see so many Christians proclaiming their faith in God by taking the water baptism. i could already feel the joy for them lah, imagine what it would be like taking it yourself. didnt go this round coz i m still kinda new with the church and it would be wiser to wait a while more and let nature take its course first.. yeah.

after the ceremony we had NE picture shoot and Calvin and i, standing at the last row, kinda compressed forwards onto the people infront. lol. it was really fun lah. then afterwhich, the dunking started. oh which i was also a fellow victim, who was stripped of belongings and being hopelessly dumped into the sea. so malu somemore, so many people looking lah. worst part is, i didnt bring extra undergarment and shorts!! only a spare shirt.. Clement was super strong sia, so many of us to bring him to the sea also cannot dunk him. talking bout beach rugby player.. lol. all in all, we had lots of fun dunking each other lah. went to wash up after that.

blah blah blah, then we went to wash up. As we walked into the toilet, there was a bunch of malay-punk-wannabes, not that i'm racist. As they were so crazy in the toilet, i could only assume those shower doors were rammaged by them. and one of them was like totally naked. okay wadeva lah. had a shower without a door and guess my boxers became really transparent. oh well. all guys lah, haha.

Took bus 13 back after washing up and Thaddeus, or rather, Matthias gave us the Fuzzy Bunny riddle which Martin thankfully help solve after we alighted. now i know another riddle lah. oh well.

the night was not at all good lah. in fact, it was the worst night this year lah. have u ever been so mad and angry that u suddenly collaspe to the fall, with your whole body cramping up? yeah thats how i felt last night. i couldnt even move my fingers and was panting desperately for breath. i thought i might just as well die there from anger. then i got so darn mad i slammed the whole fan to the fall, which i am not that proud to say that i broke it in two and it is no longer functioning. then that fellow still can come and bark to me about why i go and wack the fan, i so could totally slammed him instead. aiyah, wadeva lah. i neva ever been this mad to that extend lah. okay fine. no use getting mad over such stuff..

okay. finally ending..

aw i dont have anything to blog bout during the school session today, except that i took out Martin's Hillsong United CD lyrics and kinda stared at it and play the song in my head during Chemistry. okay, so lets jump straight to the debate after school.

it didn't seem like our band was gonna win the debate lah, coz Burgess's speakers were really good actors and they kinda act drama and all. oh well. esp when the house asked our band questions, like a totally no way to answer question. lol. but duno how come, Conrad won lah. then Burgess started blaming that it was Mr Koh's fault for teaching them the wrong thing, aiyah duno also. oh well. the point is, Conrad kicked Burgess's butts and are going to the semi-finals!!

ahh!! okay now for the super terrible and fun part. the Napha test after the debate. piang leh, super wasted lah. so throw face somemore.. okay first of all, started with shutter-run(is that how u spell it?) again i slipped lah. i didnt have much of an option to whether or not i were to put my shoes on. my shoes were like super torn and loose so no way i could run in those. so i took of shoe and ran. piang leh. i slipped at all the turns lah. its like i took three acceleration steps to break the run and to accelerate back in the other direction. wasted much precious time there lah, then ended up with 10.3 sec. which is super not good coz i was just 0.2 sec from getting an A. then while we were waiting Edward from 4e2 went to do the pull-ups. woah piang he super fit lah, like dolphin like that.. first pull he was like way over his chin onto his shoulders already. he did 21 pull-ups in 30 sec. like wth?? that reminds me.. i had to face pull-ups later...

next station was sit-ups. aiyah i reckon sit-ups is one of the easiest stations, as long as you dont like do situps only once a year then sure no problem one. okay, trying to be humble lah.. haha. did 50 sit-ups and mind you, no cheating okay.. so its an A!! okay nothing much happened here. next station was standing-broad jump.

our standing broad jump station was super long lah. coz the sports leaders incharge were like super niao, little bit over and this and that also cannot. its like, for Wilson he's kinda small build lah.. so helping pull the mat backwards while he was jumping isnt that wrong isnt it? okay fine lah. they just doing their job i guess. then Davin was like calling her mei mei. haha. it was super funny lah. oh yeah. didnt get A for this station, was 7 cm short of an A. its like super difficult to get A for standing-board jump. only managed 231cm after like so many attempts. i kinda kept springing back from the recoil when i landed lah, so it was like kinda super difficult to land a jump.

Next was sit-and-reach. lol. the easiest of all the items.. before u all go telling me how u all Aced it as well, let me tell you my score, 60.5cm!!! wahaha! dats like the first in the 60s for me lah. topped the class man, trashed the next closest by almost 10cm. okok. must be humble. coz the next item was pull-ups.

first of all, before i u read bout wad happen, i must tell ya that i had never, never, ever, completed a pull-up before lah. then was like so malu, everyone will look one lah. worst still, Mei Hui down there somemore. like, how not to be paiseh.. wah piang, even Ivan can do 5 at least, i feel so pathetic arh. but then again, soccer players have lower centre-of-gravity. all the mass is throw down at the legs. maybe thats why i can do sit-ups. oh well. really very pathetic lah. like Davin and i were like so malu coz we couldn't do and we did like only 1.. then retry we also did 1.. was so close to a 2 lah, oh well. i so gonna do at least 9 by july i assure u that.

then as we were making our way out of school, Miss Tan Hwee Pin came and talked to us. like she's the principal.. then actually can escape one lah, she asked whether can get A for Napfa a not then i said 'yes' then wanted to walk outta the gate at the entrance there, but then it was lock so had to exit through the General Office, which made more time for her to talk to us. then can u believe it? she came up to me and asked how come my bag was so light, then OPENED my bag. then i was like trying to pull it away from her, she PULLED back and opened it. so much for student privatecy. then she opened and ask how come i didnt bring home any textbooks, issit all leave in school. i didnt wanna lie and i couldnt possibly say yes right? then she pulled our the Hillsong United CD also. i was almost sure she was gonna confiscate it lah, but then duno how come she act like its permitted in school, just overlook it. but she took it out and commented bout it okay.. luckily i hadnt left my hp open, i zipped it up so thank God she didnt get to open it. oh well.

sigh. wad a crappy day lah. then saw the Hillsong United DVD just now. its super nice!! its like when you watch it u feel like you are there jumping with the rest of the Hillsong Church lah. the atmosphere was really super real lah. i tell ya if the DVD is priced at $50 alone i would still think the money aint worth what is inside the CD. Aaahhhh!! get your hands on the Hillsong United 2005 CD lah okay. its duperly nice lah.

watched the OC just now. like things are kinda getting complicated. aiyah, its only in tv shows lah. oh well. sleepy already. night.

blah blah blah. too tired to blog yesterday even though so many things happen which i should have blogged down. oh well, reached home last night at 11.30pm so didnt have much time to blog. still had to mugg for the Chemistry test today which proved to be of no real use since the paper was super tough as well. oh well. go read Martin's blog, basically that's wad happened..

Loving saturdays the most lah. its like on the spiritual chart meter u see a sudden sharp increase on saturdays, coz its service days. haha. oh well.

woke up at 10.55am, coz the weather was perfect for sleeping in. couldnt even get myself to realise that i had to meet my biblical friends at 11am at Somerset for lunch. haha. so erm yeah, kinda rushed alot and my mom drove me all the way to Newton station where i took a train. A-men. lol. see Hope Church getting in my head already. haha. okay. was so rushed lah. reached there just nice 12.01pm. prayer meet starts at 12am. then didnt see any care group members except Gideon at the reception. waved to him and then just continued and storm into the auditorium. then ran up the steps to find... no one. wah malu sia i tell you. thought i was late but was the first to enter. but the musicians were on stage already lah. then the female usher ran and kinda asked me to be seated. lol. like im some idiot who was new or something. oh well. thankfully Thaddeus and the rest came in not long after. okay. so prayer meet started.

okay. well prayer meet was nice. so was service after. its like i so appreciate being able to do tongues now, cause i get the goosebumps feeling everytime i break out in tongues. yeah. that feeling where u feel like you've been electrocuted by the Holy Spirit and your legs go weak. basically didnt feel as spiritually high as last week. but that was when the whole church joined hands and prayed in unison. then like super electrifying lah, can literally feel my whole body shaking. oh well. after that it really made and set the atmosphere, at least for me. ahhh!! have i told you how much i love God? lol okok.

after lunch at Starhub centre, went for DMM(David's Mighty Men.. i think) meeting, in the Europe Room near the reception there. was kinda crap and squeezy lah. oh yeah. first DMM meeting for me. was not for me lah, coz i wasnt a sheperd. it was for sheperds yeah. but then Gideon and Jon kinda invited us coz itwas on BGR. yeah, u heard me, BGR. Biblical Perspective on BGR to be exact. lol. okay we had lots of fun crapping lah. but all in all, it was taught that : -

1. Defective dating, erm but rather it is right courtship instead. okay i know quite chim. coz i had a hard time understanding too. but then dats wad we should do.
2. how to avoid defective dating.
3. and erm, should we decide to get a gf or get married, its important to choose a partner that are Christians too!! okay yah basically cause our spiritual life wont be in ruins then.

it was a lesson that was enriching and yeah open up my perspective on things. yeah i know we had this kinda talks time and time again. but if its by the church, its different lah. lol. then the others were like acting gay and pretending to have BBR(boy-boy relationship). lol. oh well. by the time the lesson ended i was super late for Ching Ming, and my parents called me on the cell and keep complaining on how late i was lah. in the end it really left me wondering, whether i did the right thing by going for the meeting a not. oh well. was super rushed and took the train to Newton where my parents were already waiting for me.

was super angry and pissed at them lah. the whole time in the car hear their story on setting priorities and how i shouldnt be late, like its so darn in my control. but i tell ya the best thing that happen out of this is when i got into the car, and my sister beside me looked at me, rested her head on my shoulder and hugged my left arm. oh boy, its really touching lah, coz she's like only 7 yrs old and she knows how to express her love when i needed it most. my dad was like scolding away and she hugged my arm. though she may not know that she was doing something super comforting, i bet deep down inside the Holy Spirit was working on her, hinting her to do wad she did. oh man. i was totally lost for words, i honestly tell u i felt like crying. no but i didnt okay (:

reached the cementry and went to my grandmother's tomb. u must be wondering why a Christian has to go for Ching Ming. this was a Christian cementry and erm, Ching Ming is not a Buddist custom but a Chinese custom and tradition. so yeah. first time i did tongues during prayer infront of my Grandmother's tomb. it was really something that was very nice and heartwarming to be able to do, after that, moved over to my Grandfather's tomb. yeah. how time flies. close to 3 yrs already since i last saw my grandfather. sigh. it was really touching lah, especially when my aunt told me that as she was going through the letter my Grandfather wrote when he was in Brunei to her was that, in mandarin, "my precious grandson, Shawn, knows how to call me Grandpa already. and he can even recognise me from a picture" i neva been that close to my Grandfather, and it was really touching to hear that i meant so much to him. sigh. time flies i tell ya. oh yeah, my brother pointed out to a rainbow we saw when we were at my Grandfathers tomb. thank God it stopped raining when we arrived at the cemetry and i didnt have a single mosquito bite. and it was like, the rainbow was there just for us to see, coz the next minute we turned to see again, it was gone. Gone even before i could get a shot of it with my phone. oh yeah, i found out that my aunt and uncle were presbyterians. knew they were Christians but didnt know they were presbyterians, but methodists. oh well.

went to my aunt's place for dinner after that. yeah. so now im back home. Chemistry test on Monday and i didnt bring back my Chemistry book okay. i still told Mr Won when were trying to persuade him to postpone the test that if he gave it on friday, i would definitely fail and if he gave it on Monday, i wad pass it. sigh. i better pass then. gonna go for a retreat tomorrow. so as for now. Goodnight and God bless.

so sian. Msn cannot sign in. service unavaliable.

oh yeah, April's Fool today. Laughed too much to study in sch today.

Melcher came over to my place after school to erm kill the time we had.

went to school for Parents-Teacher-Meet at 6.00pm.

had a stupid talk by the principle.

erm played soccer during the spare time after the talk and before the meet the parents session.

played with construction workers, which was a first for me.

okay, results just the same. same crap, same story.

ok. night.

sian msn cannot sign in now. unavaliable.

lets see. its April's Fool. basically today laughed too much to study.

Melcher came over to my place after school to kinda kill time.

went for Parents-Teacher-Meet after that.

then played soccer after the talk and during the waiting for my turn.

played soccer with construction workers. yeah, its a first for me.

then took results and yeah, basically the same stuff.

okay. night.