you know when u have that kinda feeling, when u got too much to say but dont wanna start coz u know that the moment u do, it would be hard for you to stop? yeah thats wad i feel bout today. mainly coz of the Chinese Oral Prelim exams we had today.

well got woke up at 11.50am by Melcher asking me to go school early to accompany him to do his maths hw. oh well. okay so arranged to meet him at 1pm but after all the nessecary delays reached class at 1.50pm. okay. i tell u its so hard to study in class, do hw can lah, but studying? quite impossible. especially when u have a Mp3 player that u cant resist putting down. okay so basically crapped and joked and tried the very best to study for Chinese Oral. Dont ask me how i do that, basically it was my 'Speak Chinese Day' so whatever it is mandarin was the language for the day. i even greeted Mrs Koh and Mrs Ngiam in Mandarin lah. okay. so went to the waiting room before the main Oral exam. lol. prayed for Robin Lee before it was his turn. i duno why we did that, and he was no Christian but we basically prayed for him. Holding hands somemore. so malu sia, infront of the whole class. lol. i guess it worked coz he kinda said it was easy and all. u wanna know why it worked? coz i lead the prayer! the first prayer i lead in a group for my friends lah. oh well..

oh damn it lah. the anxiety and adrenaline can kill. i tell you i would rather sit for a chinese paper 2 any time then take a chinese oral. i just hate orals lah, mainly coz i totally duno how to read more then 75% of the passage. oh well. it was Betsy's turn and then when it was mine to sit at the seat before the main one, u know that hotseat where u get to read the passage first. the invigilator came to our waiting room and told us sternly that we had to read silently not read out loud when we were siting at that hotseat. oh pls lah. i am so sure i didnt read out that loud till she could hear me. okay fine she basically asked me to shut up. then it was my turn to be invigilatored.

okay u see. before i could even greet her or take my seat she starting hammering me with all those remarks lah. saying what why did i read so loud earlier on when i was suppose to do silent reading, and wad i wanted to let those in the waiting room hear issit, and then said if it was the 'O's my name would be canceled out immediately. oh wow, before the tense and anxious me can start reading coz of the so many words i didnt know, she totally killed whatever passion i had for this chinese Oral by scolding me. okay fine. i just took my seat and started.

okay the passage was a total killer. i got the first two words wrongly already and read it as 'bamboo' in chinese. i duno how in the world i managed to do that but i totally crapped through the whole passage. i didnt even understand myself when i read though lah. she gave me that, "boy, i can't believe you're that retarded look" and moved on to the conversation part.

okay it wasnt that a killer coz i am those kinda talk alot person lah, if u know me that is. then she asked the second question, "if you get critisized, would u feel humiliated?". you see it wasnt much of a problem, but when u link it to the first question, which was "those male actors posing off as females on television programmes, what are your views?" its very, very confusing when she suddenly jump from a stupid question like that to one bout critisizing and all. so i was stunned and gave her that blurr look, asking her whether it was link to the first question. she didnt get me, so she repeated the question and said, " 'pi ping' you know, critisize arh."oh man, i knew it was critisize lah. do i really look that stupid and retarded in my own mother tongue to have the teacher to explain it in English for me. okay fine, basically i talked and talked and used my hands to try to get those super chim words outta my voicebox so she kinda glared at my hands, so i kinda retreated them and placed them quitely on the table.

okay, she basically told me lah that i sucked at my passage and that even the simplest of words i couldn't read, and said till some kind of 'gui ying', meaning ghost sounds. yeah shes that mean to mme :( okay fine, she said i needa lots and lots of bucking up in that area, and that i have to put in alot more effort in reading. okay fine. the conversation wasnt that bad lah, but i used like simplified 'B' syllabus chinese which im sure my 7 yr old sister would be able to comprehend.

okay lah. anyway, told this whole tale 6 times before i had enough talking and proceeded to Mac's, where i met Jun Liang and Rayson from my caregroup. okay so talked abit then went to sit down, beside this bunch of Cedar NPCC cadets. lol. not my fault lah. i so happened to want to eat there with my 'take away' ice-cream sundae. okay lah. got one not bad. haha. then went to the 853 bus-stop near the interchange there where i met Jon Tay and another member from church. talked abit then came Si Han. oh man. wad a day lah.. met 4 care group members in less then 15 mins and another church member. oh well. after they left waited for the bus and boarded with Ting Xuan and Sylvonne. okay talked abit bout the oral and how i killed myself and then that not so bad looking Cedar girl came up on the bus. lol so squeezy. okay. lol. i didnt do nothing lah. oh well. went home after that.

tried to sleep but couldnt lah. been hearing the CD i just borrowed from Melcher. oh well. wad a long, long and long day. okay lah. i finally can end my lonngg chinese Oral post. oh well. we'll see how i die during the 'O's..