been feeling really guilty for not blogging so i would blog right now. its 11.11pm sharp and i just finished my 1200 word commonwealth essay. yeah i hit 1200 excatly. Nothing is more tortureing than thinking of what to write about the word 'competition' in 1200 words. And i had no inspiration to pick the other two narrative topics and i don't live in commonwealth. Well anyway. Wad did i do yesterday again? Oh yeah, i went to that cool church again.

This week it was instrumental. Last week it was vocals. They had many musical instruments put up by many many people yeahh. Had drums and piano etc. It was really fun and then everyone just sang along and praise God as one huge body. It was really just enriching and fun i guess. And guess who i met? i met that super hot worship leader with that $60 converse shoes. Well enough of that. Went to walk walk and then to Bishan to watch Phantom of the Opera. Not really that touching but its still very musical and nice lah. Been so long since i last heard that Phantom of the Opera CD. so yeah totally reminded me of the songs. Aiyah, that show is just so mushy and all. Very suitable to go with your partner. wadeva lah. By the time i reached home was really really late, after midnight already. Walked in from Junction 8, kinda slow and solitude walk i guess.

Woke up today and laze around before finally convincing Melcher to come to Junction 8 to buy that shirt i was eyeing yesterday. End up there were many other designs and i spend almost 15 minutes choosing. The shop sold many other nice nice stuff but didn't really wanna spend anymore money after spending $25.80 on that shirt. sigh. i am broke again. tomorrow back to school. School is so totally boring. yet another day gone before the Os. it feels like my days are numbered in that sense ya know. Coz after Os we are like all gonna go to different schools and that just totally sucks. I dont mean that i wanna remain in this school, its just that im so gonna miss you guys lah. haha, yeah wadeva. Still got my chinese vocab book to buy before i go sit for that chinese test on thursday i think. and also i so gonna get grounded coz im sure i flunk chemistry test.

its 11.23pm already.

Pressure cooker pick my brain. And tell me i'm insane.

lost and broken
hopeless and lonely
smiling on the outside
hurt beneath my skin

my life is a fading
my soul is bleeding
i'll try to make it seem okay
but my faith is wearing thin

so help me heal these wounds
leaving open for way too long
help me fill this soul
even though this is not you fault

that i'm open
and i'm bleeding
all over your brand new rug
and i need someone to help me sew them up

i only wanted a magazine
i only wanted a movie screen
i only wanted the life i read about and dream

and now my mind is an open book
and now my heart is an open wound
and now my life is an open soul for all to see

but help me heal these wounds
they've open for way too long
help me fill this soul
even though this is not your fault

that i'm open
and i'm bleeding
all over your brand new rug
and i need someone to help me
so you came along
i pushed you away
then kick and scream for you to stay

coz i need someone to help me
oh i need someone to help me
to help me heal these wounds
leaving open for way too long
help me fill this soul
even though this is not your fault

that i'm open
and i'm bleeding
all over your brand new rug
and i need someone to help me sew them
need someone to help me fill them
need someone to help me close them up.

life is screwed.
thinking bout wad happened today boils my blood.
i tell you i was fucking pissed.
probably neva so badly before in 6 months.
i hate my life.

35 reasons to hate 17th of January.

1. that bitch.
2. getting framed by the bitch.
3. realising the extend one would go to get a better 'O' level testimony.
4. the truth is turned against you.
5. Mrs Koh finds out i copied her homework.
6. and spends 10 minutes lecturing me on how to be a better person, with so much more hw to finish.
7. Mr Won barks at me in front of the whole class.
8. and fucks my day by saying how disappointed he is in me when basically i did nothing.
9. fuck, dont you get it? i was framed.
10. her, no it.
11. my waterbottle leaks water all over my books in my bag.
12. i burn three fingers during Chemistry lesson, till the skin harden and crisp.
13. had to skip recess and lunch.
14. having to spend the whole day in class not being able to pay attention coz i was fuming with anger.
15. biology test.
16. i have to spend time after school redoing maths hw instead of studying for the biology test.
17. at the workroom which is so damn freaking disgraceful.
18. i accidently tore the hw i just did in half.
19. i get scolded for being late for biology.
20. i wacked Andy's arm so hard in anger that it turned red.
21. i didn't mean to do that.
22. bio prac. extends till 5pm.
23. blasting Green Day so loud on my computer that it hung on me, no the speakers didn't blew yet.
24. we have to think of something for that darn competition.
25. it's too late for soccer after 5.30pm.
26. it no soccer on the start of the week is basically stupid.
27. having lunch at 6pm.
28. two girls smoked in front of me, and gave me that pure bitch look.
29. it rains just as i am making my way home.
30. i have to blog again after my first post goes blank.
31. and to blog again would mean that i would get pissed and mad over the same damn thing.
32. i spend 20 minutes on that post.
33. there is so much freaking homework.
34. i was afk when she's online.
35. life still moves on even when the world has spinned off without you.

you gotta problem you just can't hide
compulsive habits that never seem to die
your breath is taken up all the air
your teeth are rotting to black holes in your head

well reality is due, what you say just can't be true
when the story is stretched and so far fetched
that you're lacking an excuse
You Lied

your mother allowed you for just one white lie
but now she's dead, and she left you with a problem
Pinocchio has pierced your tongue
your nose is growin' into the 3rd dimension

well reality is due, what you say just can't be true
when the story is stretched and so far fetched
that you're lacking an excuse
You Lied

the looks are always so deceiving
the truth is always misconceived

You Lied.

Haven't really blogged this year. Just been really lazy to blog lah. Had CIP yesterday, of which we did flag day for only one hour den went shopping and eating for the rest of the time. Nothing much happened, just that we finally bought our NIKE IDs and how i traded my black one for Sumahdi's yellow one. Was kinda annoyed coz we planned to change blue for yellow initially. Den he dont want, so had to trade black. So i was kinda pissed and reasoning with him when this girl from another school who was also doing flag day came and ask us to donate. We kept our cans already and i was like kinda furious so i basically shouted at her, said i had no money or wadeva. It was kinda harsh and rude lah. See wad happens when we talk without using our brains? Anyway, felt sorry lah dats all i can say. Nothing much really happened.

Well woke up today and tried to do my homework. Den went to church via bus and train. It was quite the same lah, except Kimberly, Cheryl and duno who else who didn't go coz they had ARISE reunion and thanksgiving. Split into our new cell groups today. Was in the same group as Kenneth so it was not boring lah. All the crap and more crap he could come up with in an instant. After that went to KFC for dinner and walked into this old church which was built in 1853. Kinda dark at night and erm, spooky i guess. Went home after that. Have lots of homework to complete lah, and chinese spelling to learn. You see i lost the paper so i can't really learn. Well life hasn't really been what i had expected for the year 2005. Things are kinda back to normal. And the 'O's are like really starting to creep nearer and nearer to us all.

Oh yeah, and erm, please pray for the victims of the tsunami waves. All i can do i guess is just to give generously to charitable organisations to help them and pray for them.

First of all, happy new year. Its 2005 already. And i am offically a sec 4. Well heres the hitch, there's a ton of homework yet to be touched, and i hadn't bought my sch books yet. Plus, sch shoes and erm the other stuff. Okay well just a while ago it was New Year's Eve lah. Woke up to be glad that Joshua sms me say the timing to meet was changed to 1 pm instead of 12.30 pm, so i wouldn't not be so late. In the end late for 15 minutes only. Waited for Wee Qing and Kok Wee to come, den we set out to Queenstown shopping center via bus 153.

Reached there den called Sumahdi down. Wad else could be done there? See clothes, shoes and girls. Den crapped and talked alot of cock at the Mac there while Joshua and Kok Wee ran off to go shopping for clothes with their pay check. Den we were laughin at the shirt Kok Wee bought, some eagle logo. Condor Hero. lmao. Really crapped alot lah, den one shop owner tried to bluff us with Nike ID version 2. Yah, Nike ID with button? We are not dat stupid lah. Den erm, tried to collect Hao Ran's and Wilson's jersey but didnt arrive yet. Den talk cock to the shop owner say how come neva arrive when they said it would by today. Anyway, we were just crapping lah.

Took bus on the intention of going to beach road. But den didn't know excatly where to alight so in the end, took bus from Queenstown to Geylang, den finally to Paya Lebar. We missed the location by 3 Mrt stops. Den walked to Paya Lebar Mrt den take train to Lavender, den walked to Beach Road. Wanted to buy sch schools but didn't have the Nike air force, so i didnt buy. But there was like Converse paradise. So many converse shoes and lots of cheap clothing. Okay didn't buy anything though coz was kinda broke lately. Especially after buying two CDs in one week. Okay after dat had dinner there, drinks were of compliments from Kok Wee. Den took taxi to Toa Payoh.

Went there to play lan. The lan shop sucked lah, i had to change 4 times the computer to get one dat can play CS without hanging. Anyway, played 2v2 and erm, yeah. Had fun lah. Went home after. Thankfully my family was at Toa Payoh also so could fetch me back home lah. No needa waste time on bus.

So dat was like the last day of the year 2004. It's like, the end of sec 3 life. And it was just like yesterday dat the year 2004 just started. Well certainly time flies and it's really bout time i do something bout the school stuff. Anyway for now, its Happy New Year and hope you guys enjoyed your last day in the year 2004.